2/11/04 Why do people always assume things just because they don?t know them for sure? People are always assuming things in my life. I must admit that I fail when it comes to being a perfect angel in this department as well as the other guy, but I really have been trying not to do this as much. Today my aunt came in my room and yelled at me for being on the phone because she assumed I did none of my homework, this of course was not the case. She always amazes me, she can go have a total conniption, cry, hyper ventilate, scream until she?s red, stomp her feet around the house, whatever she can do to make noise, and then once she?s done saying whatever she has to say she?s completely fine and thinks she?s my friend again. Well I?m not fine and I?m not her friend! I don?t understand if you are really upset that you can just go back to being normal within seconds and not think anything of it. After she yells at me, I am still upset inside, but I wouldn?t dare tell her because God forbid if she?s wrong. She has been wrong many times, and every time she hints toward it, but blames me for something else, like today when she got mad at me for being on the phone she realized after I said that I had done my homework that she was wrong. She didn?t acknowledge the fact that she was until about 15 minutes later and all she said was ?You know Ali, all you have to say is I did my homework and I wouldn?t have to get like this.? I responded to her, and I responded with the truth, I told her that I didn?t have the time with her assuming what I have and haven?t done and coming in my room yelling at me over nothing because she?s stressed out that Anissa lost her job. Sometimes I feel like I?m the most adult person in my house, like everyone in my life is 3 years old and has to depend on me for everything. I can?t solve everyone?s problems; this is something I?ve had to deal with in my life extensively. I used to have a lot of issues with this because I always would eat myself up about not being able to solve everything for everyone I know, but I know now that that?s ok and people can only solve their own problems. I think I am the way I am, and have a lot of my faults because of the way I was raised and the people I have encountered in my life. Don?t get me wrong, a lot of my faults are because of personal things too, but a lot of them are from the people I know and spend the most time with. I mean my family blames my mother for a lot of the things I have wrong with me, but that?s only the problems I have to deal with everyday, not the way I am as a person or my downfalls, that is their fault mostly. I mean all the imperfections are picked up from personal experience and the way you perceive other people?s actions. We learn the most from our families, and most of the time their faults become our own, it all has to do with monkey see-monkey do. We don?t just learn to act the way we do on our own we learn from watching other people and the way they act. Some of the biggest role models in our lives are our family and sometimes when we get in trouble for what we do it isn?t all on us, sometimes people should sit back and think that whatever that person did wrong, they probably do too, and they are probably the reason the person did it. It?s all part of conformity. No matter how much of an individual you think you are, everyone has something in common and that is for a reason. If you really think about it we really all are a lot alike?so then why is there still an issue of why can?t everyone get along? There is a simple answer to this question, because they don?t want to. Just like when people assume things it?s because they don?t want to hear what is real, they want to believe what they already do or what they want to outcome of the situation to be. Simply people don?t want to know, don?t want to listen, don?t want to learn, don?t want to relate or conform, and most of all they don?t want to love. The world is really very basic once you think about it; everyone is the way they are for a reason, and most of the time the reason is because of the people they are closest to. Whatever my faults are, there are those out there who have them too, and I just want to say I want to? ~Ali~