"Only you can calm me down-
I'm aiming too high."
"I'm so angry, I don't think it will ever pass."
I've got "Playing By Heart" reeling in me now... Fuck fuck I am not able to talk fucking straight right now. Things I want and can't fucking have. What the fuck went wrong? Why can't I get anything that I want NOW? I am in a LACK season. A long spell of "Not for you, Chaara. Not for you." I always get what I want, eventually. But I fucking want it NOW.
Yer pissing me off. You knew very well what I came for, what the hell did you think you were proving by deliberately not supplying that very thing?
And I will regret writing that, because it would have been so much more fun to say.
"Chaara, you're just stressed out.
You're stressed out cuz you're bored."