12:53 AM 12/12/2002 so kory hates me now. hates me for some strange, obscure, mis-conveyed reason that only he truly understands. hell get over it. he goes through this sort of thing about once a year, on average.

occasionally ill sit and ponder past choices. hell, i dont even have to sit. half the time i prolly am sitting, but its mostly coincidental. that is to say, the important part is the pondering, not the sitting. have all of my decisions been wise? right? just? unfortunately i cant say that i believe so. i look back and wonder why certain decisions were made. some out of fear. some out of unwillingness to risk making the wrong decision and then have it go sour. some i regret. some i wish i hadnt made. enough of this before i say too much. too much could be quite damning indeed.

i dont have a large ego do i? ive never thought so. but why would she say such a thing if it werent true?

i got her in trouble yesterday. she insisted that it wasnt my fault. yet, i believe there would be a lot less strife in her life if i dint exist. still cute as ever though. and ever so bubbly.

the last time that i watched ths film was with her. quite an enjoyable time. hes so cute. he was the last time i saw him anyway.

she has been on my mind alot lately. is that a good thing? i dont think not.

long hard and full of semen/seamen.

if ever you are struck by him, leave. leave and dont look back. very easy for me to say, im sure. but it would still be said, here at least, even if it were not so easy. time for me to sleep.

theres nothign quite like a spider bite to ruin a good book.

oh baby come close to me let me love you oh baby come close to me let me feel you

why do you play morrowind all night when you could be doing other things? what sort of other things? you know, girl things

im not entirely sure i wish to pursue other girl things. not after the mess that i was able to make of the last one. i think of a dozen ways, every day, that i could have handled it differently. but we are stuck with the choices we make, whether we are content with them or not.

in addition to caffeine ive decided to give up food as well. that may be a tad bit harder. i really should to it though. lose some stummy.

i got made fun of for saying tummy today. ill let it slide, since it came from someone special to me. sleep time. 3:31 dec 11

lying in bed at 4:58 trying to figure out why i cant fall asleep. then it hits me. ahh shite, i had a root beer (barqs, its got bite) with dinner.

im going to ask teresa for permission to put something on here that i wrote. heres to hoping that she consents. i could always do it without her consent but when asked to remove it i would feel obligated. im a nice guy, seriously. and such requests in the past have been honored, not just from her.

7:01 just watched the second half of braveheart. think ill try this sleep thing again.