I wrote this story today, May 10, while listening to BSB's 'Quit Playin' Games With My Heart'. This story is dedicated to my love, you know who you are.

I closed my eyes, my breathing slowed as my heart pounded inside of my head. 'Think,' I told myself softly. What was I going to do? I honestly didn't know. Opening my soft, chestnut eyes, I re-read the e-mail the causes me so much grief.

Hi hunny, how are you? I am good. Well, actually, I would be lying if I said I am good so… I'll get right to the point. Is something going on between you and Alex? I've heard from many people that you say you love him. And yet, you also say that you love me. Who's lying? You or all of my friends? I'm going to make this easy for you, tell me the whole truth and I might not get mad. I want you too choose, him or me. E-mail me as soon as you have reached your verdict. ~ Zac ~

I let out a long sigh, how was I going to answer that? I loved them both. But, everyone kept telling me that you can only love one person at a time. I knew that wasn't true, it WAS possible to love more than one person at a time. Yet, how did one choose which one she loved more?

I loved them for many different reasons. I loved Zac because of his dangerous demeanor when he spoke of something he was against. Because of the sweet, childish way he'd say 'I love you'. It was always 'I wuv you'. I loved him because of the way he treated me, respectfully.

I loved Alex because of his outlook on everything. One never know what he was thinking. Because of the way he would stand up for me when a certain jerk would make rude and uncalled for comments about me. I loved him because he was a good listener, and because he stood up for what he believed in. I loved him for the way he was always asking me if I was alright, worried about me.

I honestly didn't know which one to choose. I couldn't have them both but wouldn't hurt one to be with the other. At that moment, I hated Zac for making me choose.

I clicked 'reply' and braced myself. 'Here goes…' I sighed and typed:

Zac, hey I'm sorry. I really don't have an answer for you. Yes, I do say that I love Alex. Yes, I do say that I love you. But, before I explain myself, remember, you're the one who wanted the truth so don't get angry at me. The truth is, I love you both. I can not and will not choose between you. So, my choice is neither of you. Goodbye. ~*~ Lisa A. Booze ~*~

I sent the e-mail and sighed. There was no going back now… I had made my decision, I would hurt both of them by hanging around. They'd most likely be angry with me but how could they understand without actually being in my shoes? Who knew, maybe one day I'd run into one of them and let destiny runs it's course.

Smiling, I turned off my computer.

~*~*~*~ The End ~*~*~*~

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