Wednesday, November 12, 2003
There is a chance that I may be moving to Baton Rouge, Louisiana to be the Youth Pastor of River Oaks Baptist Church. Please keep this in your prayers, and keep Bro. Buck and the leadership in your prayers as they make the big decision on who to bring in. I have prayed and sought God's face about this decision. It seems as though the doors are opening; we will see.
Waiting can be very nerve-wracking, and at times I have just wanted to give up, but God never lets me, ya know? He is just incredible like that. I have come to the realization that God has a calling for me, not a career. Not exactly what I wanted, but I want even more to be in His will!!
Well, that is all for now. It has been a while since I updated this because my computer crashed and I had to reboot it. . .BIG pain!! But now it is back and better than ever. Oh yeah, check out the Poetry section. . .I added some new poems. God bless, and I will talk again later!!
Thursday, September 25, 2003
It is amazing how time has begun to really fly by!! I have been 22 for two months already, and I have been away from Washington for almost as long and it really doesn't feel like it!! Sure, at times it is very obvious that I have been gone for a long time. But now that I have decided to totally give God control over all of my life, I am doing a whole lot better! It's been a week now since I have just totally "spazzed" out over this move. God has really spoken to my heart and reassured me that His will is GREATER than my will. What He wants out of my life is ten times better than what I want out of my life!!!
Not to say that at times situations and circumstances are less than "pleasant." For instance, I finally realized that I am taking like a $400+ paycut monthly by moving down here. But I know that God brought me down here to accomplish His will for my life, and He will take care of me. And yeah, at times it still gets lonely being by myself, and sure, working overnight is physically KILLING me!!!! But this is temporary. I eagerly await the day God leads me to a church to be their youth minister. The present is just training. Sure, I am taking classes to help me minister to youth, but it is the real life situations that really teach you how to trust God and how to relate to other people, ya know?
Please keep me in your prayers because on Wednesday, October 8, I am going to be going to preach at a church in Baton Rouge, Louisiana. This will be the first time I have actually preached in a church, and I am not going to know ANYONE there, so please pray that God will give me the boldness to preach HIS word. I am really excited, because I have never been to Louisiana, AND I saw that there are four Starbucks there, and I have not had Starbucks since the day I left Port Orchard and Sherri brought me one that morning (She's the best!!!!!) Anyway, I know that is totally off the subject. . What can I say? I preach that way, too. It is amazing how many "rabbit trails" God leads us on when I get behind that pulpit!! Sometimes He just really gets my attention and tells me "Go here!!!" I can't explain it. It's the same way with the piano. . . at times it feels like He is my fingers.
Okay, I bombard everyone with the bad stuff. . . Let's hear some good stuff. For the past couple of months I have been waiting on some paperwork in order to complete my Financial Aid here at school, and was starting to worry that it was not going to happen!!! Praise God, I got it, and so now everything will be okay!!! The Lord was with me this past Monday as I preached at Ministerial Alliance. I am praying that He just gives me boldness and clarity before I speak. One other thing is that I am trying to be a better witness at work and turns out one of the guys I feel led to witness to is a Wiccan. This is a prayer request/praise that God would bring me into contact with someone who needs Him desparately!! Please, if you don't pray about anything else, please pray about that!!!
In closing for today, everything is going good. God is awesome, and He is taking care of me!! I hope to hear from some of you guys real soon! I just got a new cell phone. . . just have a few small glitches to work out. . . . I pray that God is blessing you indeed, and I will write in here again in a few days. . . Just keep checking!
Sunday, September 21, 2003
Amen, isn't God great? Let me start off today's entry by just asking a question; why would God leave His home in heaven and DIE for a measly human like me? Today in the church services we were singing those wonderful songs of the cross, and I was so humbled. For the first time in my life I think I actually got a tiny glimpse of what it means that Jesus died for me. He did not just have a heart attack and die. He did not have a car wreck and die. He did not die of cancer. His death was far worse than anything you or I will ever experience! For ME He died. For YOU He died. Feel free to pause now for a minute and reflect on that gift He gave us. And don't expect to comprehend it; you never will.
Well, can you tell that today was a day of much needed refreshment for my spiritual body?? After having a night off from work and being able to relax physically, I was able to just really concentrate on God. Throughout every aspect of the day, I was in His presence. Sunday School reminded me how to live the Christian life not for me, but for Him. This morning's sermon reminded me that God does not want strong people. He is looking for people who realize that when we are weak, then we are made strong through Him. Throughout the messages in the songs sung God revealed Himself. In tonight's sermon we learned that sometimes when we suffer, it is not because we are doing something wrong; rather, it could be because we are doing everything right. So often we (I) see bad circumstances in my life and I automatically turn it into something terrible, when we have it SO easy in America. Our idea of persecution in the USA is if someone takes our pew in church, ya know? Funny as it may sound, it is true. Meanwhile, while we are roasting the preacher over Sunday dinner our brother in Africa is being killed for his faith. While we are sitting at home watching television during church outreach, our sister in China is being imprisoned just because she dared to go to church. Maybe we should, as Bro. Jerry said tonight, ask God for a little bit of problem, a little persecution. Look at history: when did the church prosper? In times of persecution!! Let us pray, though, that we will have a revival in our own hearts, and our families, and our churches, and our towns and states and nation before God has to send the persecution here. It's coming. And we are welcoming it by our insincere Christianity. Of course, as you read this, keep in mind that I am mainly writing this to myself. I am a status quo Christian. It is my prayer that God will break me out of that "normal" mode and pour me out to be used by Him.
Tomorrow I am leading the devotional at Assocation of Baptist Students, and tomorrow night I am preaching for the Ministerial Alliance here at school. I am so blessed to have these opportunities! This Wednesday I am going to start helping out with Awanas at church. I just want to be in the MIDDLE of God's will!!!
Well, I was just so fired up when I got home from church, and I just wanted to share some of it with you guys!! I will update this section again real soon. God bless, and PLEASE go to the Prayer Link on my homepage and leave at least one prayer request. Let's take God at His word and take prayer seriously, okay? I love you guys, and God bless!!!
Thursday, September 18, 2003
Well, let me tell ya. . . if we were to start off with no outs each day, I would have had over a hundred strikes yeseterday! There was just so much stuff going on in my life and I chose to look at the circumstances instead of the Creator. I was having an "Elijah day." You know, after all the prophets were killed he asked God to take his life too! That was me yesterday! Thankfully God showed me that it's not always easy to be in the middle of His will, and I have to accept the bad with the good. Anyway. . . just wanted to let you all know that God is still God and I am just man. . . God bless!!!
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Well, another week has passed. Time really is going by quickly!! I have already experienced FOUR TESTS this semester. I made a 48 on my Music Appreciation test (out of a possible 50. . honestly!! LOL) I made a 90 on my Biology test, which is decent but not acceptable in MY book . . I will find out Monday hopefully what I made on my Historical Books and US History tests. I feel rather confident that I did okay. We'll see. . .
Anyway, a LOT has happened this week. Last Sunday, I really felt God directing me to join Highland Baptist Church here in Laurel. The love that I have felt from the members there compounded with the presence of God I have felt give me a feeling that I have finally found my new family. Work is still going. . . Although. . . my body is physically exhausted. The way that my schedule sometimes works out I get 4 hours sleep and am awake for 30 or more hours!! Last night, after being in school all day and working the previous night and being in school all that day, I decided to take an hour "power nap." So I set my alarm to go off at 8:15. Either the alarm broke or I just didn't hear it. . . I fell asleep at 7:15PM and woke up at 7:15AM! I had slept for twelve hours straight. . . . without going to work!!!! I felt (and still feel) really bad, because I do NOT just skip work. Never have, never will. So I talked to management today and hopefully that will work out. Guess that is my body telling me that I am overloading it.
Right now I am not sure if I am experiencing "homesickness," "wishy washiness," or just "the dumps" because I really am worried that I may have made the wrong decision by coming back down south. I prayed and sought God's face, and I want nothing more than to be in His will, but how do I know if this was "thus saith Josh." Sometimes the voice of God is a whisper and you miss it. All I know is that a lot of things are sort of falling apart; this dorm room is less than comfortable, work is exhausting with the hours conflicting with school and SLEEP, I make over two dollars LESS an hour down here. . . I know that God will take care of me, and that the trying of our faith brings about patience. I am just sorta having feelings of uncertainty right now. So if you could just really pray that God will open doors and more importantly, open the eyes of my heart. In all honesty, if I had of known the condition of this "dorm" and the effects of NO SLEEP I would NOT have made the 3000 mile trip down here. My spirit is willing, but the flesh just wants to come back home. Pray that I will do the right thing.
For the time being, my address is 4229 Hwy 15 N Laurel, MS 39440. The phone number here is (360)428-0682.
I am currently checking out apartments and figuring out if they are affordable; whatever the case, in December the dorm is closed for a month. . . Yet I am constantly reminded that God will make a way.
That is all for now. . .It has been one week, that's for sure!! Despite my longing to be back up north, I want more to be in the middle of where God wants me. He wanted Daniel in a lion's den. He wanted Joseph in prison. He wanted Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in the fiery furnace. He wanted John on the Island of Patmos. So if this IS where God wants Joshua Adams to be, I wholeheartedly accept it. Now I just pray that He will make my heart certain that this is where I need to be. Have a great day!!
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Two years ago to this day I woke up early and dreamed that I was listening to reports on the news about a terrorist attack in New York City. I then realized that I was awake and I rushed downstairs and told my parents to turn on the television; something bad was happening! Over the next few weeks I was just sort of in a daze; no, I did not personally lose anyone in those terrible terrorist events, but it scared me. I remember the fear that I felt when I heard airplanes in the sky again. Now, two years has passed and sadly, the spiritual "interest" (it was NOT a revival) that peaked in the country then has waned. Now we are just getting farther and farther away from God. The Supreme Court says that we can not hang the Ten Commandments in public places, and states want to approve of gay marriage. How sickening has this nation become? It is my prayer that Christians will finally "come out of the closet." We have been in it too long and see what has happened to our country?? Anyway, sorry about that. . . This is supposed to be an update on what's going on in my life. . . .just got on a soapbox!
I am still working at WalMart overnites stocking groceries. It probably is not the best thing for my back, but I have to have a job, ya know? God led me here, although somedays it seems like I am all alone. The church I am going to is FANTASTIC!! It is Highland Baptist Church (I put a link to it on this webpage [below] in case you are interested in finding out more about it. . . ) I am praying that God will use me here.
Classes are going good. I had my first test last week in Music Appreciation; am not sure yet what I made. . . So far I KNOW of three grades I have in US History and they are 100, 95, and 100. Yea!! God is SOOO good, because I really don't study!! But, there are also reports to write, so there are not too many free moments anymore! Let's see, I have covered work, school. . . Oh yeah, I miss Sherri like crazy, but thankfully I can use my cell phone down here to keep in touch; we are usually able to talk every day! God is being soooo good to me. The Devil likes to find ways to make me fear tomorrow and that is silly. Like today, I was talking on the phone with Sherri while I did laundry and noticed my front tire wa really dirty!! Well, it wasn't my hubcap that was dirty. . . it was the tire. . . someone has stolen my hubcap!! Thankfully, it didn't make me realy lose my temper, it will all work out. Now I can get those custom rims that Michael liked! LOL!! Anyway, it's just things like that that Satan uses to try to upset me. So I would really just appreciate your prayers that I will be able to keep on the "positive" side, ya know? Well, that's all for now. . . Just drop by again really soon and hopefully I will have updated some of this stuff. . . Talk to you later!!
Friday, August 29, 2003
Yesterday was a GREAT day!! I talked to the Pharmacy Manager at the Laurel WalMart and he is trying his best to get me on in the Pharmacy! He said I am first in line and to check in with him daily. That is a BUSY Pharmacy, too!! I am SOOOOO excited that I may get a chance to work in the Pharmacy again! So please keep that in your prayers! Have a great day, and I will keep ya posted as to what happens!! :)
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
What an awesome way for my family and friends to find out what is going on in my life!! This is even better than email!! LOL I am going to try to update this page at least once a week, so that you can find out what's going on in Laurel, Mississippi.
I am still getting re-adjusted to the weather here in the South. It is in the 90s, and the humidity is awful! You walk out and in like three minutes you're breaking a sweat! But it's not that bad, and I am getting used to it again. School is going great! I really enjoy learning, and it's great to be back! This semester I am taking Historical Books (Matthew-Acts), US History, Music Appreciation, Biology, and Old Testament Survey. I have been playing piano for eleven years, yet Music Appreciation has got to be the hardest class I am taking! Actually, today it started to "click." I have always seen notes as being "A," "D#," "G," etc. . . NOT quarter notes or sixteenth notes or whole notes!!! So it is another facet that I am having to figure out and correlate.
I have been attending Highland Baptist Church in Laurel the past week that I have been here. It is a big church, but the people are very friendly and the doctrine is sound. However, this coming Sunday I am going to Mobile, Alabama, to play the piano at a church whose pianist is on vacation. That's pretty cool!
Last Saturday night I started working at the WalMart in Laurel, stocking groceries. In all honesty, I hate it! I miss the customer interaction, I am not getting enough sleep, and I just don't feel like that is what God wants me to do for a long period of time. I have given my life to Him, and I know He wants me to be in the ministry. Therefore, I am praying that in the near future He will open the doors for me to go to a church as a full-time or part time Youth Minister. I have met several guys my age in school here who are the youth ministers of a church. I may work part time at WalMart, maybe not. Depends on what God says. But this is where my heart is, and this is my calling. So if you can just pray that God will open HIS doors, that would be great!
I am staying in the dorm right now. It's okay, but I am the only person here, so it gets a bit lonely. However, that does give me time to focus on God, so it is quality time. I would be calling everyone more on my cell phone, but from where I am in the city, it is roaming if I call from my room. I thought I had gotten it fixed, but guess not. So. . . . in the meantime, when the phone is NOT roaming I can make phone calls! And there is the good ol' phone card, too! I am not sure how long I will be staying in the dorm; I would love to get an apartment. That is another matter of prayer that I would appreciate if you would keep in your prayer time: that God would open the doors for an apartment as well.
Well, what more is there to say? I just can't think of anything else. I will update this again in about a week or so. . . If ya wanna email me, you can click the link below.
Have a GREAT day! Hope to hear from you really soon!! Oh yeah, and check out all the pages in my website. . . I am trying to make it fun! Bye!!!
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