Thank you for answering my email. It means a lot to me. I do have my story. I lost my mother at the age of 15, and my life went down hill from there. I didn't believe at that time of my life that God already had a plan. I was angry and very lonely at that point. I had lost my best friend. I was abused physically by my mother, but I love her just the same. I have learned just recently that my mother was also in a lot of pain of her own and she didn't know how to express her pain. Well, not too long after that, I turned to drugs, alcohol, and prositution. At first, I thought it was for the fun of it. By the age of 18, I was a full blown addict. I live to use and use to live. I remember taking my first shot of cocaine. I felt like I have finally found what I had been looking for, a friend in Deed. I remember I never had to feel hungry, angry, lonely, and tired again. Was I wrong. My addiction progressed so quickly. My story is like the next addict. Before I knew it, I had lost my children. All five of them to foster care. I became homeless and lost my self respect. I just didn't know how to turn back and help my children. By this time, 10 long years had passed me by. I had been to jail and prison. One day on my next term to prison, I knew in my heart that I could not live that way anymore. I needed help. I began praying and believing that the one that could help me is my God. I have always kept my faith that my God has never left me, I'm the one that stepped away from God. The footprints is how I lived my life out in the streets. I always listened for God's whisper in the darkest alleys. It's only by God's forgiving and loving grace that I sit here writing to you. I know I have been introduced to the N/A program to learn how to stay clean today. I now have turned my life over to my God that has always been there with me. I have been blessed to have two of my children and their children back in mylife. Today I can be their mother and grandmother. Thank you Jesus. I still have the faith that one day my family will be one again. I am now a 42 year old employable woman that can look at herself in the mirror without shame. I am able to love again, to love me again. This is my story that I share with anyone that is going through or has been down that same path.