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My Poems

Angel

Me

Flight

Memories

The Flower

Mid-Terms

Insanity

The Two Gates

Confusion

Innocence

Tears

Love Sucks

Runaway

The Kiss

Life's Little Surprises

Gone

Sorry

I Wish...

Living

Horses

Bored In Love

Course III

Have Faith

I Seek You For An Answer

Transform

Confessions

Sneak Previews

Fade Away

Yes or No

Torn Apart

Infatuation

Last Wishes

Lost

Tough Decision

Played

Angel

I know you were sent
from heaven above,
sent down here
to give me love.
Or perhaps did you come
from hell below
to cause pain, suffering
and heartbreak to bestow.
Wherever it is
that you came from,
you have my head spinning,
my heart is numb.
Angel, oh angel,
What must I do,
to keep me from loving,
and falling for you?

Me

I am the color orange,
the color of the sunrise and sunset.
I am that succulent orange
that you tastelessly devour.
I am a cloud,
a dark, stormy cloud
tears falling like rain
over things of nature
I cannot change,
things already decided upon.

Flight

Soaring above
the clouds and the land
makes everyday life
seem so bland.
The fluffy white cottonballs
in clouds down below,
such grandure and glory
on me does bestow.
The sun begins shining
as I lower to the ground.
Never such glory
could I ever had found.

Memories

The faint smell of his cologne
lingers through my mind.
Why did he have to leave?
Why did he say goodbye?
I remember how he held me close,
he never would let go.
But now I need his gentle arms
and all I have are memories.
It was all lies.
By the way he held me
I knew it wasn't true.
I wish I could bring back
all that we shared.
All of me, wasted on you.

The Flower

Sitting alone-
crying for attention.
Beauty left unseen,
left to die.

Mid-Terms

Here they come,
these dreaded tests.
Health and English,
what a mess.
I'd rather be hit
by a steaming freight train
than takes these tests
and suffer this pain.
I don't know this stuff.
"Hey, what's number 31?"
I guess I could skip,
But why miss the fun?

Insanity

Little green creatures
dancing through my head.
The insanity's overwhelming,
I would rather be dead.

I guess I lost my mind.
I've lost my mind before.
I'm feelin' kinda crazy.
I feel it now even more.

I'm glad you told the truth.
I guess you really care.
That's probably why I'm so insane,
I know you'll never again be there.

The Two Gates

And walking on the path of life,
I came upon two gates.
The first was well-walked upon
for it was wide and borad
and easy to tread.
And the second gate
was cluttered with weeds and debris.
For this path was narrow
and burdened by hills and bumps.
So here I must make my choice:
whether to take the first gate
and follow the world,
or take the one less travelled
and stand alone.
As I walk through the weeds,
I wonder if I've made the right choice.
Looking further down the path,
I see a light,
and I know the choice was right.
Because although the first gate
is passed by many,
it leads to death and destruction.
But this narrow gate, rarely taken,
leads to life.

Based on Matthew 7:13,14

Confusion

Emotions-
running wild
In waves
of desire-
as innocence...
is lost.

Innocence

Every moment
the same thought.
Can't be controlled
must be fulfilled.
The desire
must be pleased.
One screams in pain
the other in fulfillment
as innocence fades away.

Tears

Falling to the ground,
tiny droplets.
As others watch in awe
as they fall
and the body
drops to the ground.

Love Sucks

Dark, cold blood
flows from a hurting heart.
She left you
all alone and
tore you apart.
And as you lie
dying
I hear you say
"I will love you,
until now,
my dying day."

Runaway

You say you're not happy
with your family and your life.
But does that give you a reason
to put us through this strife?
We've been looking for you
almost everywhere.
We must be missing something
Why don't you care?
I've always been there for you
through thick and thin.
What if you get hurt?
Why not just give in?

The Kiss

Your dark brown hair
blowing gently in the wind.
Baby blue eyes
affixiated on mine.
I have loved you forever
so it seems
I have waited for this moment
all of my life.
We are finally together
you and me.
I can't believe this is happening.
We kiss.
And for a brief moment,
everything is so right.
I feel as if the world
has stopped turning
just for us.
Maybe it has

Life's Little Surprises

It was one of life's surprises,
you holding me in your arms.
I never did expect it
It was a great alarm.

So where do we go from here?
What can a person do?
If this is what love feels like
I guess I'm in love with you.

Life sends surprises
just to make sure we're awake.
We must never sleep again
Do this for our sake.

That night lingers in my mind,
that dance I shall not forget.
Even though I was nervous,
that dance I will never regret.

Gone

My great-grandpa is gone
Parkinson's took his life.
He left many behind him
a family and a wife.

I wish he was here now
I just miss him so much.
His great sense of humor
all of us it did touch.

I wish it would be possible
for me to have taken his place.
Less people would miss me
going to my resting place.

Grampa, I love you,
I want you to know it.
Everyone else does to
although they may not show it.

Dedicated to the late Edward Fuller 1917-1997

Sorry

I'm sorry if what I'm going to say
is gonna break your heart.
I never meant to hurt you
I should have told you from the start. When you asked me out,
I guess I could've said no.
But ofcourse I didn't
and now I feel so low.
You give your love to me,
but I hold mine for Ryan.
I know you think I'm heartless,
but inside I'm really dyin'.
The last thing you want to hear
is "Let's just be friends."
But believe me, I know
Give it time, your heart mends.
We both know I have no chance
with your best friend named Ryan.
I don't know why I can't like you.
I spend my lonely nights cryin'.
I want you to know you're great
you mean so much to me.
I never want to lose your friendship.
That much I want you to see.
I'm sorry for what I've told you.
I hope it didn't break your heart.
I never meant to hurt you,
I should've told you from the start.

I Wish...

I wish I could tell you
I feel this way.
But my love for you
is something I can't say.
I look into your eyes
and become lost in your gaze.
Everytime I see you
I go into a daze.
What's wrong with me-
I really don't know.
All I know is I love you
more than these words can show

Living

I'm living without you
but it's hard.
When you said it was over,
you caught me offguard.
I reached for you
but you pushed me away.
Then I said I'd love you
until my dying day.
I've excepted the fact
that our love has expired.
You are the only thing
My heart ever desired.
It's getting easier everyday
and I'm starting to move on.
I guess I've come to realize
that you're really gone.

Horses

We watch our horses as they roam
running in the water's foam.
As they wander, they shall see
the beautiful, lovely tree.
Their colors are brown and white
they are such a lovely sight.
you should see them in the night
underneath the starlight.
Star light, star bright,
watch our horses in the night.

This is a really weird poem that I co-wrote with LesLeann Perry in 5th grade, so it's a little weird.

Bored In Love

I sit alone
in this epiphony of boredom.
So much to do
and yet so little.
I sit alone
in this room of shame
can't understand
how I'm to blame.
You're the one who left
without glancing back
But I am the one
alone in my love.
Sadness overwhelms me
as I start to break down.
You couldn't imagine
the love I thought I found.

Course III

"Math is fun"
they embed in our minds.
But what if we hat it?
Are we condemned to die?
Nothing could be worse
than this sweltering hell
we just sit here and learn
waiting for the bell.
If I hear this formula
just once again
I think I'll stick
in my eye-this pen.
For death is a much
more enjoyable fate
then to sit here and listen
and feel a build-up of hate.

Have Faith

I must admit it’s hard
To fully believe You’re in control;
That no matter what I go through
You’ll always be holding on.

You say “Have faith”
And I try so hard to stay strong.
I’m trying to give it all to you
And to trust You’ll be there.

It’s hard to keep up faith
With all the trials in my life,
But I have to remember
That You’ll never let me fall.

You say “Have faith”
And I try so hard to stay strong.
To give you my problems
And let you work things out.

So when my days are lonely
And my nights are dark and gray,
I just cry out to you
And lift my heart up to the sky.

You say “Have faith”
And I try so hard to stay strong
For I know that no matter what
You’ll just keep on keeping on.

I Seek You For An Answer

I seek You for an answer:
Why is this happening to me?
I call out to You for closure
And to free me from this place.

I cry up to the skies
And lay down all earthly things
Just to praise and please You
For all that You’ve given.

Yet I still have no answer,
And don’t know what I’m doing here.
Why can’t I just fly-
Spread my wings and fly away?

I try to find the answers
But no earthly person knows.
Only You can bring me comfort
And this problem to an end.

I seek You for an answer:
Why can’t I be with You?
I call out to You for closure
And without words You comfort.

Wrapping Your loving arms around me
I now have peace within.

Transform

These models set before us
On how to live our lives-
How to dress, what to wear,
And how to make ourselves perfect.

What’s wrong with being unique?
Why can’t he like me for that?
Aren’t I good enough being myself,
Or do I have to transform?

To her perfect complexion
And flawless blond hair-
I can’t even hold a candle;
I can hardly compare.

Isn’t there someone
Who wants me for me?
Or do I have to be someone else
And transform into something I’m not?

I really love him,
And no matter how hard I try,
I can’t bring myself to hate him,
Or to hold myself from him.

Why can’t he want me for me?
How can he not see what’s inside?
That inside I’m more beautiful
Then she could ever be.

Even though I’m tempted,
And it would make him love me-
I’m not going to change at all.
I’ll just transform into… me.

Confessions

If only I could tell you
How I feel, how in love I am
Maybe you would understand
Why I can’t give myself completely.

I’m just afraid to fall
That no one will catch me,
And that no one would care
If I just completely disappeared.

I don’t know how to show you
That this love I feel is real;
That every waking moment
You’re always on my mind.

I’ve tried to give hints
That say how much you mean to me
But every attempt I’ve made
Has been misinterpreted as mere friendship.

When you walk by me
And pretend I’m not there
It hurts and feels as if
You’re tearing out my heart.

I don’t know if I can live without you
And I really don’t want to try.
Your love means so much to me
And I would do anything to earn it.

So at least acknowledge me,
Let me know I’m alive to you.
With a simple glimpse or smile
My world will light up, and I’ll be alive to myself.

Sneak Previews

The times spent with you
Are like tiny glimpses of happiness
Sent from Heaven as sneak previews
Of what’s to come.
If all of these things between us
Have only been previews,
Then I can’t wait to see the show.
I anticipate seeing the chemistry
That God creates between us,
And fear the trials and tribulations
Set before us to hinder us
From being together.
I await the day
When the movie reaches an end
With me in your arms,
And God looking down on us
Grinning at the beauty of his creation.

Fade Away

You caught me off-guard
by simply saying hello
and brought me out
of my daydream.
A dream that involved
both you and me
together as one
in the very near future.
Just walking along,
staring into space-
I didn’t even notice
your bright shining smile
coming my way.
All of a sudden,
there you were
in my sights
and within my grasp.
Your unbelievable way
of making your words linger
in my brain
is odd, and somewhat unfair.
It makes me wonder
if I have an effect on you too,
or if I’m just
a momentary thing
that will soon begin to fade.

Yes or No

Do you want me?
Check yes or no.
If only it was that easy.
Sometimes in life,
things aren’t always
cut and dry, or
black and white,
but a light shade of gray.

I wish I could give you
a simple answer,
but I can’t.
To say I want you,
or to say I don’t,
would both be lies.
Because right now,
it’s a maze of confusion
and I can’t find an answer.

The only thing I can say
with complete and utter certainty
is that I have feelings for you
and they are stronger than oak.
I wish they had a shape and form,
and that they could be easily identified
so that this confusion
could somehow
be solved.

Torn Apart

I don't know why I'm allowing myself
to be completely torn apart by you
How can I let you mean
that much to me?
Why do I let it matter that
you look at every girl but me?
And that you hardly recognize me
in the midst of beautiful women?
What does it matter if
you don't love me in return?
What makes you so special
that you deserve my love and my heart?
How can I be so torn up
over something so little-
a mere person who is
but a fish in the sea?

Because I am in love,
I allow myself to be torn apart,
and I let you mean that much to me.
It breaks my heart everytime
I see you looking at all the other girls
and when you don't notice me
it hurts.
It matters that you don't love me
because I love you.

Infatuation

They call it infatuation
and say I can't really be in love
because I am too young
and experience is not mine.
The one thing I know
is that this is much more powerful
than mere infatuation,
for I've been infatuated before
and this is nothing like it.
with you, my whole heart
is into loving you
and my whole being
longs to be with you forever.
I don't have enough experience
to qualify this as love
but its not infatuation
and a phase I'll get over.
Its eternal.

Last Wishes

If I were to die tonight
and I had one last wish
it would be to spend
my last moments
with you
with your arms
wrapped tightly around me.
I would want
to slowly drift to sleep
in comfort
knowing I was safe with you.
As I slipped
into the other world
I would want
to hear you crying for me,
missing me.
To know that you loved me
and that you would forever miss me
would be my last and only wish.

Lost

I was so far lost
and couldn't see the light
but then you came along
and brightened my darkest night.

You made your presence known
and brought happiness to my life
You uplifted me in the sad times
and helped my deal with the strife.

I thought my life was over
that I had no reason to live
but you rescued me from helplessness
and opened my heart to give.

When I thought my life was empty
and death was at my door
you gave your love everlasting
and showed I could live forevermore.

Tough Decision

To follow my head
or to follow my heart
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to start.

I know with my head
that he would be untrue
and that he would play me
and make me feel blue.

But I feel with my heart
that I really love him.
And our chance of lasting
would be anything but slim.

I dont know which to choose
because either one is right.
and they are in constant battle
a never-ending fight.

I love you with my strength
and with all that I can give
so let's give this a chance
and see if our love can live.

Played

I thought that I loved you
I thought that you cared
until I realized I was wrong
and you weren't really there.

You stuck by me when
the times got tough
but when I give you everything
you say it's still not enought.

You lied to make me like you
you lied to make me fall
and you now expect me to respect you
and you're waiting for my call.

Well I'm sorry to tell you
but it's over, we're through
because all this time I had feelings
you only cared for you.

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