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Julia Talyai
Holding Me Down
The Brick
Inside Me
Holding me down
They race around,
Confusing me,
My thoughts spin
Like a whirlpool.
No energy,
No sleep.
The feeling inside
So many reasons,
I just don't know why,
Thoughts of suicide,
Dance around in my head.
Do I hate myself?
My mind is clouded
Depression covers your thoughts
With a gray cloud.
It holds you down and
You wish for it to go away,
No one cares
At least you think.
They say they do
But do you dare to trust.
Medication helps
Not the way I hoped.
The weight only lifts
A small amount.
But then all at once,
It drops again.
In the dark
All over again
The 4th Floor
48 feet off the ground
The fall of what he thought would be the end.
Laying on the ground, in a heap
Your brain can be seen by all who look.
They keep him alive,
No one wants to watch someone die.
He should be put out of his misery.
He chose to take what he thought were his final steps,
Give him his last wish.
13 accounts of a crime committed,
The poor children he molested.
One less mind to try to look in to,
One less crime to be committed.
Why would you save him?
He has no hope.
His life was ruined long ago.
Let it end the way he wanted.
Peace will fall on those who deserve it.
He is one less mind to try to take over,
Let him go,
So it can all be over.
Tonight
I feel like shit
I have no self worth
No self respect
I feel covered in dirt
Made of bad choices
And low self-esteem
The threats that I've made
Only some I meant
But tonight I really feel the pain
My body floods with guilt
It overflows with tears
They spill into a puddle of sorrow
But never will there be one big enough
That my bad feelings wont be able to fill
Why?
If you didn’t fully understand
Why didn’t you come to me?
I would have let you hold my hand,
I could have set you free.
You couldn’t find your niche
It was sucking out your life
Like a fucking leech.
You didn’t need a knife,
You didn’t need to take your own life.
I was always here
To take away your worst fear.
I guess you had known your own fate
And I didn’t realize the end was so near.
I never thought you were that fragile my dear.
Now I am condemned with a life of self-hate.
Never Redemption
DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS IS ALL ABOUT?
FUCKING CRAZY AINT IT.
LOSE YOUR MIND INTO THE DREAMS
UNWIND THE DARKNESS FROM
YOUR UNCONCIOUSNESS
NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY
HIDES BEHIND THE WASLLS OF
SOCIETY
COVERED IN A GREY MIST
LUCID THOUGHTS FLOAT ABOUT
FINALLY RACING RAMPANTLY
THROUGH THE TUNNEL OUT
TO THE LIGHT AT THE END
BUT IT IS CONDEMED AND OPPRESSED
AND MANGLED BY SOCIETY
CRAWLING BACK, PROCEEDING
INTO HISTORY,
ONLY TO START ALL OVER AGAIN.
METRO DRAGONS ORBIT THE MEGAPLEX
Science
IONIC BONDS ARE FUCKING GAY
YOU CAN SUCK MY COCK IF YOU DON’T AGREE
THIS CLASS BLOWS
BUT MY POETRY FLOWS
I WANT TO LEAVE
I NEED A REPRIEVE
MY NAILS DIG INTO ME DEEP
AND I YEARN FOR SLEEP
AS THE TIME TICKS BY
I ASK MYSELF WHY?
WHY CANT THE TIME FLY
7 Things
Shit Faced Gods
With Rampant Wings
Lust Filled Devils
Raging On Intercourse Flings
The Dust Of Angels
Settles On The Ground In Perfect Rings
Evils Apprentice With A Gun
The Souls Of The Dead To Which He Clings
Heaven And Hell Reflect It All.
All That The Devilish God Brings
Your Time Will Arrive
They Shall Not Deprive
Heaven Sent Or Hell Bent
Can't Sleep
the minutes tick by
those obnoxious red numbers
keeping you awake
toss this way
turn that way
roll over
and just start to cry
the pills are gone
and your wrists are slit
what the hell has turned me into this
my insides are twisting
and my stomach is turning
the feeling of being ripped open
I can feel my whole body burning
the craving for nicotine growing
the urge to get out of here
and start running.
16
THE CIRCUS FREAKS,
AND THE HIGH SCHOOL GEEKS
PURPLE SKYS,
AND UNZIPPED FLIES
FLUFFY WHITE CLOUDS,
AND THE RIOTING CROWDS.
THE ACID TRAILS,
AND THE PLAN THAT FAILS
THE FAUCET THAT LEAKS,
AND THE MOUSE THAT SQUEAKS
THE LOWS AND THE HIGHS
THE SILLY CRUSHES ON GUYS.
NOT BEING ALLOWED
AND HEARING THE WOLF AS HE HOWLED
THE SLIMY SNAILS,
AND THE RUSTY NAILS.
I wish
I wish I had wings
to fly into the night
I want to escape
so I don’t have a chance
to lose this fight.
I wish the wind
would take me to a place
where battles were never fought
I wish I had a chance
to go back in time
to when wars
were all in somebody else's mind
"Every time you open a school, You close a prison"- Anonymous
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