Childbirth/Parenting...My Views.
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Aqua

Well okay the answer I gave before was probably very unlikely (hah 17 year old daughter).
You see I don't really plan on having kids. I'd rather adopt a lonely baby from a far away country than birth my own baby any day.Pain doesn't sit to well with me, especially in that area...oh god, just thinking about child birth and that pain bulls**t us women have to deal will makes me feel pain in that area already. *cringe* I also don't ever want to become a mother, this is mainly my mom's (slutty,stupid b***h who f**ked alot, had alot of kids, now has an ugly ass body figure....yeah and all her kids hate her......oh yeah and is most likely going to be single very soon) fault. Because of her, I have lost all respect for mothers/parenthood. It's just not something I want to ever become one day. Now I know that birthing a child to care for is in fact a beautiful thing to a majority of the world (and that all mothers aren't like my mom( icon_biggrin.gif ), and it's a plus since when your spouse dies you still have something left of them. But...maybe I'm selfish, okay I probably am very but I come first before anything else in my book, I hope that one day I go to the doctor for some crazy womanly check up and the doctor informs me I will never be able to have children. I'd be so delighted to hear this news that I'd happily prance out of the doctors office on thin air. BUT.... If I ever did want to have kids, it certainly would not be happening in my twenties, I want to Live.A.f**king.Little. (no..not partying or booze or drugs or sex, I want to spend my twenties shaping a career that involves music and computer-gaming)

Maybe I should have been born a male, I'd probably be a happier person pertaining this subject since all I have to worry about is finding a woman who is willing to let me f**k her silly without birth control and the pain she will have to go through when what I planted inside her precious womanly organs finally comes to the point of departure ^_^ and the money involved in raising a family.

Now...the bad part of not having kids.

1)When I'm pushing 30 (consider when I'm 20 I'll be laughing at my friends who already have the burden of child bearing), I'll notice all my friends being parents and doing stuff with their kids while I'm still doing stuff like sitting on my roof at midnight...gazing at the moon while a playing classical guitar waltz in the sullen moonlight while their changing diapers on their even newer children and putting up with the bulls**t from the first kid. Oh man how sad I would be.....not.
2)Spouse dies, have nothing left of them......but that is assuming I'd be with someone... icon_sweatdrop.gif


Yeah, now that I just wrote that every Mother on Gaia who read this will probably
flame me or PM me saying "Dear, you have a serious problem"

Thanks for wasteing your time reading this,
I hope your as openminded as me.

-Mana Ng

Lol
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Welle:Erdball
Oh gees, I don't feel so good. I haven't really ate anything in the past few days. My mind has been very occupied. I've just been drinking alot of Gatorade......mmmmm. Hopefully today I'll realize how lovely it would be to hab a cheeseburger.....wait no.....something..........dammit.

I can't eat,
I can't sleep.

I always tell myself "Your going to go to bed now"

So then I go lie down on my bed, put my hand under the pillow, then toss and turn for an hour....

Then get out of bed and go back on my computer.

Then realize everyone's away......then go back to my bed.........then try to sleep but it's too hot.

Then realize I have to go to the bathroom.

Come back.....hey it's almost 4AM, tight.

How's that for blogging!?

Yaya
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Phantasy Star Online
I'm someones Ana Ng

Does that mean my voice is like a broken record to them?

Coolsauce.

First Blog on Angelfire
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Nothing...I hear the sound of my 3 speed, 2 mode oscillating owange fan rotating.
Well hopefully I'll be writing in this blog (as opposed to my MySpace blog) more often than ever. About just about anything that I feel I need to let out for anyone who cares (and is not a lamer) to read. I find myself always keeping things in that I know would make me feel so much better to let out so that shall be the main purpose of my blog. To let things that I seem to keep to myself but SHOULDN'T because....well it tears me apart inside. Lately I have been feeling not quite human really.

School is almost here again and I feel so lonley. I hope someone is willing to be my friend at the new highschool. If not then cool cause less people I have to worry about ever hurting their feelings. I feel like playing some Phantasy Star Online right now.


Thanks for your time,
Steller