OOO i was pissed that last entry. and I was for a while, even after I got into the car. I guess it kinda wore off, but I had to keep my mind occupied all night on imaginaton or on the conert people to not think about all the other things i could have been doing. Luckily, my theory that no one was around cuz there was so huge party or something I just wasn't invited to.
the concert was nice. we had good seats, relatively, seeing that there were like 25,000 people there, the fact that we could sEE was very appreciated and we weren't on like the grass or something.
any rate, things are looking up now. i was in a MOOD but i got sleep (new record for time home :2:30, but i think it doesn't count cuz we were driving home). funny thing was, this was ths huge concert with john mayer and counting crows and we had good seats and all that stuff, but I think i had more fun at the Brother concert at Musikfest. INTERESTING.
well im off, hopefully all will go well. no more scary yelling. ;)

DAMMIT WHY
godammit every freaking time EVERY FREAKING TIME

last night was the most fun thing ever

and now i wait ALL DAY for elyse to call and she never does, jackie calls and wants to go to a concert and I DONT WANT to, i was gonna say no i was gonna and then my mom's just like GO, go ahead. so i say yes and get myself in a position where i cannot say no cuz they got sandwhiches and everything and NOW DAMMIT elyse CALLS OF COURSE. thank god i didnt actually talk to her i really might have blown up then. THESE People...jackie...they are the people that stopped talking to ME. to FREAKING ME. my NEW friends want to hang out and i want to hang out with them more than anything in the entire world and even tho last night i THOUGHT it wasnt gonna be fun and it FREAKING was, this night i KNOW.
you know how i freaking know. CUZ they stopped talking to me, stopped calling me, heck half of them went to a different high school. im not friends as much with her. i mean, id go, but only if SOMEONE ELSE WHO I REALLY DO LIKE wanted to do something DAMMIT im so mad.

there is something very strong that seperates my new friends and my old friends. to my old friends i wasnt always the one everyone wanted to talk to, i didnt have all those friends. my old friends never called me anything but sarah. my new life. they call me sheppy. they LOVE me and pick me, NOT cuz everyone else is busy. GOD I AM SO BEYOND PISSED I DONT WANT TO GO TO THIS FUCKING CONCERT AND I DONT WANT TO ACT LIKE EVERYTHING IS OK I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH THE PEOPLE WHO LIIIIIIIIIKE me. AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH.
fuck this all.

well well of course since I am wondering about stuff I write in here. well the other time when I went to the concert thing, things went unbelievably well, it was the most fun I've had in a long time. the fireworks a couple nights later were a lot of fun too. I have discovered why I was unhappy and then very happy. It was the people I had to choose to be with , which is happening more and more. I fear some time it will be miserable and end badly. As for now, there is places I wish I wish i were but I guess i cannot be. I am going bowling with Brige, Melissa, Carly, and some other people and kyle is coming. Usually this would make me happy but I am not sure now. 1, cuz of some things that have been happening. he left us at mfest after being with us for the whole night the minute his football friends made an appearance. by the time I got over the thoughts about that, things were back to normal. But now, since Melissa will be there... i love her dearly but he acts funny around her, as I found out one newspaper meeting. as on that occassion and many other, i found that when he acted like that the best thing to do was to hang out with Alex and Elyse. Lex is in florida, he called me today. Elyse is not returning my calls, and with corey. One can only guess where I'd like to be. I don't think I even know anymore what I want to do. I dont want to sit around doing nothing, yet I dont want to go out. ooo why do all the fun things have to happen spontaneously, leaving me no time to be happy in the fact that they will happen. WELL i intend to be as happy as I can tonight, how ever certain people act.
hardy har lets ignore all the stuff I said, e is coming. har har this will be fun

this is some stuff from my old blog that I don't like anymore cuz its stupid. But this stuff deserves to be saved.

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Ah, I'm too lazy to do the rest of it. I'll do it later. But THIS is interesting, ISN'T it. Me and Brigsey need to take this quiz. hehehe ;)

mwhahaha at least I am not sitting at home all night. Well, I am right now this second, cuz I'm on the computer, but I am not going to be forever! hehe...I am going down to Musikfest with Elyse and meeting a bunch of people and seeing some sort of concert. I also have to find Kyle when I go down there, he had better not get himself lost. I also have to call Brige and meet up with her and Madsie too. THIS is better. Also means, o well, no video. I am over it. My dad is gone to NJ, and this reminds me that when he goes to Baltimore, my social life is over. No rides. It wouldn't be a big deal if we didn't have little children at home that can't be left by themselves. Elyse is my hero cuz she's giving me a ride home. Hopefully all will go well at Musikfest. (fingers crossed). With a lot of people life this, there is the potential for messiness. If you don't know what I am talking about, than I can't explain it to you. Well my clothes look like they are done in the dryer, so I'm off to get ready.

nothing to do
there is nothing to do anymore, I have exhausted - in three days - all the books and movies in my house and otherwise am bored with all activites. There is no way that I am sitting home tonight. I will go to Musikfest, no one can stop me. Cept maybe for my parents...and my friends...and well, the president,the secretary of defense, o, and the devil -or my grandmother...but other than that!
I also wish I had some guy to go with. I do have guys to go with , I mean, but I wish I had a boyfriend. Gr, I won't get started with that again. Brige was in the no-boyfriend club, too, but I haven't talked to her in a few days. I think she might be angry from the last time we went to Musikfest. It was...interesting. I wish people would get home already...we all at least get along. AH, I'm so bored. Maybe I'll go do some history summer work..uh, not that bored. I'll just go read a book, maybe walk my dog.

hmm this is interesting