Lost.
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I can't even type right anymore. I started school and studying along with learning to type makes me want to never look at this keyboard again. I can't honestly say when I'll ever come back over here, or draw, or update my site again. I have too much homework. I started Medical Billing and coding, and I must admit I find all the medical terminology to be very interesting. It's the insurance part that's boring, and therefore makes it harder for me to grasp. >_< Ironically for my class, it's the other way round.

Not much has happened since. Lester and I got into a little fight just now. I can't think of what I did wrong. I seriously feel like he doesn't want to be around me anymore. This happens each time his friend's call from NJ. He gets angry, and throws thing in my face. I'm just tired. I don't need this treatment anymore. I'm sick of the way he feels he can treat me like dirt at one moment, then try to make up another moment and it'll all be okay. And I try to make everything peaceful around the house, but now that I'm gone its all falling apart. No one cleans around here anymore. I was the one who did everything. When I try to tell Lester to clean up after himself, or to take care of something (meaning don't kick the wall or continue to throw yourself on the couch typr things) he gets pissed and says I'm annoying. Hmm, well if that's the case. Why does he want to spend the rest of his life with me?

I'm tired....