Monday June 30th, 2003 1:09am(still my Sunday night) HAPPY CANADA DAY EVE! :p Also... new buttons, woot! Ok, so they don't all work yet, but I'm working on it... We're riding a rollercoaster with a maniac behind the controls. Just watch out and pay attention to those signboards telling you too keep your arms and legs inside the vehicle at all times, you never know how much that kind of advice is useful until right after you needed it most. Don't make a face you wouldn't want people to see on a photograph afterwards either... That said, buckle up, let loose, and enjoy the ride! you know you love me... Catherine Sunday June 29th, 2003 1:00am(still my Saturday night) I found something I wrote before I went off to France/Italy over March Break. It kinda called me, and when I opened the file, I couldn't help but smile. Handle with care, this one's like a dream to me... She sits alone at a table on the patio of the cafe… her hair, swept up by the wind, falls into her face. Without taking her eyes off her copy of La Bohème, she sweeps it behind her ear with one of her slender, perfectly manicured fingers. She intrigues you, from the way she sips her cappuccino, to the way she seems removed from the hustle and bustle of the downtown Paris setting... You can't take your eyes off her... she draws you nearer by the silent force of her presence… you feel yourself slipping into her isolated world of freedom and carelessness… pure bliss… you feel swept away… soothed… basking in her ambience… then she turns to look at you, your heart stops beating. You stand perfectly still, paralyzed by her gaze. She walks towards you, her eyes fixated on yours. She leans in to whisper in your ear as she brushes past… “You don’t believe in Sirens, do you?” You try to answer her, but the words get caught on their way out… “That’s what I thought…” she whispers and kisses you softly on the cheek, her hand resting momentarily on your shoulder… For what seems like forever you stand there, immobilized in shock. When you finally regain control of your muscles, you turn around to see her turning the corner and disappearing into the crowd. The last thing you see is the sunlight shining off her silky golden blonde hair. The silence and stillness of her world fades and you awake to real life, left with nothing but a bittersweet memory of the dream… you know you love me... Catherine Saturday June 28th, 2003 8:11pm Just got back from Charlie's Angels II: Full Throttle. Man, I have never wanted to join a Tae-Bo class more! But aside from my new desire to be buffer and sexier, I am completely and utterly confused about myself. I saw something today that I doubt I was expected to find. I'm not going to say exactly what it was, in order to protect all those involved, but it had to do with something that has been of a rather sensitive nature lately. I really have no idea what'll come of it, and I don't even know if the author's feelings are the same now as they were when the message was written (friday afternoon), but I am a little shaken and nervous about the message. Anywayz, enough about that... I just feel really weird lately, and this kinda just adds to it all. Bah. I'm tired... and confused... and upset... and nervous... and... and I want it all to be over! Again, I wish I could just crawl into a ball and dissolve. Enough said. you know you love me, the question is: why?... Catherine Tuesday June 17th, 2003 9:24pm "I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn..." Such a great song :) Well today was a cool day! I went to english for the first time in about 3 days, religion was just reviewing and talking about what we wanted to be when we "grow up", math was long and frustrating (we finished Clues 3 through 6 of the CPT treasure hunt jimjam) and then Drama was cool (we managed to deliver our performance flawlessly aside from one huge technical problem, but all is well that ends well). I'm still *VERY* sunburnt from my little sun"tanning" adventure at the cottage on Sunday. Let's just say it wasn't my best, nor brightest idea to put on baby oil instead of sunscreen (nobody warned me!). I mean, I felt like such a sun goddess while I was laying there (al shimmery and golden), and I forgot all about the fact that sunburns don't appear right away. When my dad recommended I step out of the sun, I responded with "No way, I'm still white as a sheet!". Shoulda listened to dad... Well yeah, basically I look like a strawberry/tomato/lobster (whichever you prefer) and feel about as beautiful as a burnt piece of toast. But everyone keeps telling me not to worry because "When the burn fades you'll have a nice tan!" Thanks guys! LoL Anywayz... Wes helped me figure out the glitch that was plaguing my Friend Quiz, so I should have that up soon. Stupid Wes went and put his up already though, so now it looks like I copied HIM when in reality He copied ME! But I guess it al balances out because I stole the idea from someone else's site... I guess we're all even. I also updated the About Me section with a cool quiz I got by email a while ago. The buttons are also going to be changed soon mayhaps. After exams are over, there are sure to be alot of changes, and alot of new pages... I can't wait! In the meantime, if you have any ideas for pages I should add, don't hesitate to Email Me. I love hearing from the two or so people that actualy read my updates (lol) :) C'est tout for now! you know you love me... Catherine Saturday June 14th, 2003 2:03am (still my friday night) It may have been friday the 13th, but there sure as hell wasn't anything unlucky about my night... From pretending to hit on waiters, to sneaking into the guys bathroom, to dancing up a storm, to going back for more and more (and more and more...) coke from that "cute" (according to Teegan, anywayz) server, to meeting some new people, to getting compliments from total strangers, to almost getting involved in some weird junk while waiting for Paul F with Paul W and Teegan. MOST AWESOME NIGHT OF MY LIFE! The whole thing started out rather plainly... I panicked cause I wasn't even sure Paul F (my date) was even giving me a ride there, so I scrambled to get dressed and groomed in less time than I ever thought I'd be able to get ready in (less than 2 hours; new record!). Once we got there, I got to sit next to Paul and Teegan at a table with Matt, Gill, Dan M and his date, so it was mostly people I knew, which was nice. We talked for a bit over dinner, then listened to the grads' roast, then the award ceremonies (CONGRATS TO PAUL W, MATT, DAN H, TOM, DAN M and all the rest!), then the slideshow right before the dance. I always knew Teegan was cool, but she seriously exceeded my expectations of just how cool she could possibly be... I mean, we had awesome fun dancing on the dancefloor (barefoot), drinking glass upon glass of coke, slipping into the guys' bathroom because the line was too long in the girls', encouraging random guys to come dance, etc. Fun stuff indeed! So yeah! BIG thank you to: - Paul F for being my date (*blushes*) and for dragging me to this event... it not only made my week, it was also so much fun and meant so much for me to be there (my last chance to attend an event with all of you). You rock :) - everyone I danced with, you know who you are ;) - the random people that complimented me on my dress (strangers were nicer than most of my friends...) - the guy that stood guard while we were in the male bathroom - Teegan, for obvious reasons That said, I'm off to catch about 2 hours of sleep before I get up to help out with the BIG Garage Sale at 5:30ish... sweet dreams xoxo you know you love me... Catherine Thursday June 12th, 2003 10:09pm worst week of my life... can't it all be over yet?! "every day with you is like pancakes for breakfast when you can't find anything but sour milk, but you're so determined to make this breakfast rock anywayz so you use it all the same, and then they all end up burnt and the maple syrup is crystallized, and when you go to put butter on them it's not sufficiently melted so it makes craters and holes in the already crappy pancakes, and then you realize the eggs you used were rotten, and as if that wasn't bad enough you left a bunch of shell fragments in, and then you can't find a clean plate so you try eating them off a napkin but the napkin gets all messy and the 'pancakes' end up all over your comfy new pyjamas that you wore for the first time last night..." by the by, I'm talking about *YOU* not the you reading this right now... yeah... im sick, leave me alone you know you love me... Catherine Monday June 9th, 2003 8:38pm Listening to "Mad World" by Tears for Fears (off the Donnie Darko soundtrack)... super mellow... I'm hoping that by running through today in my mind I will be reminded of happy times and be lifted out of this mood... Let's see what we've got... English: I got to be Rachel (the coolest female character) in "Inherit the Wind", the play we're working on in english. I can only hope Mrs. McFadden will let me get away with keeping my character until the end of the unit... I *really* love being Rachel... Religion: Finally Mr. Ehlers was back... We haven't had him for a full class in over a week now. We talked about our religion CPT (due friday). It's basically a huge waste of time... we take a picture to represent each unit we have worked on this semester in religion, and then write a short paragraph explaining what we photographed and how it represents the particular unit. We also got the chance to take up the questions we answered on "Faust", a German play based on temptation and sin (it inspired me to name my next cat Mephistopheles), and we read Song 1 of the Song of Songs (a book of the Old Testament). For those of you who have never seen the Song of Songs, here are some quick pieces I picked out: "Your teeth are as white as a flock of sheep that have just been washed" (Song of Songs 6:6) "Your hair dances like a flock of goats bounding down the hills of Gilead. You are as graceful as a palm tree, and your breasts are like clusters of dates. I will climb the palm tree and pick its fruit. To me, your breasts are bunches of grapes." (Song of Songs 6:5, 7:7-8) It's really alot cooler and less funny when you aren't in a giggly mood (as we were when we first read it) Lunch: Spent 40min typing up our drama script for our final performance exam. On the bright side, it helped me avoid the temptation of eating. Drama: Not as fun as usual... We read over our script, I got criticized for leaving parts out, and we ran through it once... Usually drama makes my day... but looking back on today, it was such a drag. Math: We had a crazy old asian suppl teacher who spent the entire class reading the Bible and yelling at us when we took cards out because he was certain we were gambling. He told me that we were acting like the merchants in front of the Temple on Sunday or something... The fact that Chris was completely baked would have saved the class and made it funny if it weren't for the fact that Jessica was acting like such an idiot today. She'd be like "I'll say this *really* slow for those of us who are baked..." and "Can you see how many fingers I'm holding up, druggie?" and "Don't fall over on your way to the bathroom..." and so on... Most of the things she said made me doubt she knew anything about the effect of drugs... Whatever. Highlight of that class: when the supply yelled at my for asking why circles were his favorite shapes (dude, he said the sphere was his fave shape... and then gets angry at me for pointing out that spheres are not actually shapes...) Tim Hortons, post-school: After grabbing a table by the window and some ice capps, Jenny, Julianne and I set up to play some AssHole. All of a sudden, this woman sitting at a table beside us asked what we were playing and how to play. It didn't seem to make much sense to explain the rules, so I invited her to play a round or two with us. She seemed really happy and said she'd teach the game to her grandson next time she saw him. This may seem like the stupidest thing to mention in an update... but it was probably the highlight of my day. Aside from sitting beside Chris in math class (that was just pure gold, lol) Wow. I still feel pretty damn ugly inside. I feel like I have no feelings... no soul... no compassion... I feel numb to existence. When you're alone, who cares about you? Do lonely people care about themselves? i love you all... and i'm sorry... Catherine Sunday June 8th, 2003 10:37pm mellow. mellow. mellow. oh man, how i've missed the rain :) Today was a pretty okay day. I skipped BIG reahearsal (was I even called? Oh well.) to work on a group thing for drama. What a waste of time. We spent the whole 3 hours or so downloading music, watching Clone High and talking about how we should be getting some work done. As it turns out, I am stuck here having to type it all up. Figures. Not that I'm complaining. I mean, I enjoy doing extra work because at least it means I can be as perfect and picky as I'd like and no one is telling me that I'm wasting time or trying too hard. So after everyone left, I had the day to myself. What to do... They all had to go home to a bunch of work, or studying... not I! Granted I should really have put the time to good use and tried to re-teach myself this trigonometry junk that I am struggling with, but did you ever really think I'd choose the most logical and best choice that I could? Of course not! So instead of forcing myself to do tedious math problems, I grabbed a towel, my new bikini and the book that Laura hooked me up with at her party last night ("All I want is Everything", the third of the Gossip Girl series) and went for some quality reading time. Gorgeous weather outside. I can't honestly say that the baithing suit was the best idea, I sure as hell didn't get to work on my tan with the limited amount of sun peeking through that thick cloud coverage, but all the same it felt like sumemr vacation. *smiles* It's so close I can taste it! I also managed to snag a bunch of down-time today, other than the "tanning" episode. I watched some TV while lying down in the guest bed upstairs, which was nice seen as it's been a while since I've had time to watch TV uninterrupted. I also lit a bunch of candles and my aromatherapy "lamp" thing and read some more GossipGirl sprawled out on my bedroom floor. I think I'm about halfway done the book already, lol. *sigh* My room is filled with the sweet frangrance of freshly washed laundry and rosewater... the candlelight casts flickery shadows across the walls, and my bed calls for me to wrap myself in the warm embrace of its comforters... Remind me why I'm still on the computer? Monday: basketball after school Tuesday: Athletic Banquet Wednesay: Revising the student government constitution after school Thursday: Katie and I go on a little adventure...? Friday: MDHS's Music Banquet It's going to be a long week... Hopefully I won't have too much homework and I'll be able to squeeze in alot more relaxation time and the chance to get a head start on exam studying... Woohoo... you know you love me... Catherine PS: I have more comments on my dress... Ian: "hot." Tiffany: "I thought it was a skirt! Haha!" (not funny.) Paul F: "I thought it is a great dress, and it looks awesome on you." Asia: "OOooh Cathy!" Wednesday June 4th, 2003 10:37pm Fun day today... 1. Music Banquet So on monday Katie and I went shooping and I got a dress for MDHS's Music Banquet. I think it's gorgeous, and Katie thinks so too, but it seems that everyone else I've shown it to is less than impressed. For those of you who haven't seen it, it's strapless, about knee-length, form-fitting, and it's two layers: a black under-layer and a sheer-ish purple top-layer. Here are the reactions I've gotten so far: my dad: "where's the rest of it?" (it's not even that short or anything, so his comment made no sense to me) my mom: "It's nice... but I guess I would have preferred some brighter colours on you..." Paul F: "It's nice. It'll be warm in there, so it'll be nice that it's short." (IT'S NOT THAT SHORT!!!!) Katie: "I think it's 'you', but not as 'predictably you' as the other ones you picked out." so that's 3 people against the dress, two for. 2. Value Village excursion #2 At about 5:45pm today, Ian and I were chatting over ICQ when he's like "I'm bored, let's do something" so we decided to go shopping at Value Village. I ended up getting two shirts and 2 necklaces for my costume for the 1980s party coming up, as well as my outfit/costume for the 1970s partay. I think the stuff looks really cool... and Ian helped me pick it out so it must be cool! Maybe I'll get some pics scanned and put up soon... I'll aim to get that done this weekend. 3. Jason's blog I AM IN LOVE WITH JASON! So today, I'm on the phone with Wes and he tells me to go check out Jason's blog. So I head on over... dum dee doo da da... and my name is in his update! Not only that, but he credited me for something (teaching him what a churro is)! Not only that, but my name is a link to my site! I was completely blown away! Nobody ever credits me for anything! I come up with good ideas from time to time, and people have a tendency to steal them... but they never actually admit that I'm the one who inspired them to so something or who made them think of it or ANYTHING! And here's Jason, a guy I just met for the first time on Saturday, and he credits me for something. Therefore, I love Jason. He is my new favorite person in the entire world... I LOVE JASON! :) Anywayz, it's late and I am tired... and my legs hurt from all the dancing/skipping/running/sliding/walking I've done today... YAY BASKETBALL TOMORROW! (grr...) sweet dreams all, you know you love me... -MB- Sunday June 1st, 2003 7:00pm I haven't actually said much in any of my recent updates... mostly cause I was either: a) too lazy b) not in the mood to share my thoughts c) not in the mood to bore you all with my stupid daily adventures that I find so very amusing but that aren't really amusing at all unless you are there and if you are there you don't need to be told about them, right? right! But anywayz, I have a little bit more to say than usual, so buckle your seatbelts IT'S GONNA BE A LONG RIDE! (feel free to skip to the next section if it gets boring) 1. CLONE HIGH! "I wish I had seen you more over the summer, but I was at camp..." "Was it breast camp?" 2. Big Bike for Stroke 3. Battle of the Bands |