Monday April 21st, 2003 9:06pm *sigh* and triple *sigh* Today was actually a pretty good day, although you probably wouldn't be able to tell based solely on my current mood. Bah, no one cares. Actually funny stuff happened today now that I think about it. When I woke up this morning it wasn't to the sound of birds chirping, or my dog snoring, nor to the lovely sunlight pouring in through my "barely there" blinds, no no! The first thing I saw this morning as I opened my eyes and reached for my glasses was my mom and two people I didn't recognize, staring down at me. At first I was a little shocked, but I answered their questions with the most coherent mumbles and grunts I could manage considering the time. Took me a couple of minutes, but I finally remembered they were some family friends. I love how my parents warn me in advance about visits, lol. After that odd little encounter, I knew it was time to get up, so I dragged myself over to the bathroom and into the shower. To skip the rest of the boring bits, Matt P and I ended up meeting up for ice cream, chillaxing in the park, playing on the swings, exploring the area around the train tracks, jumping fences and chasing ducks, talking about relationships and junk, etc. Quite a fun day, all things considered. Plus it was super-cool meeting up with Matt again... we haven't actually talked in about a year, so yeah! OOh! And I also went and did some more damage to my bank account today by splurging on two lip glosses: M.A.C. FloraBundance (which I am in LUV with!) and a lip d'Votion Latte Love (which smells good enough to eat!) as well as a magazine. I'm turning into such a shopaholic, considering the amount I've spent so far this month... Oh well, sometimes you just need to treat yourself :) You'd think that after such a great day I'd be feeling rosey and bubbly... things are odd. I'm still feeling REALLY bad about last night (this morning)'s little fandango. I feel like stamping *BITCH* across my forehead in big red letters... Ew. Ew. Ew. Ew. Ew. So here's my plan for tomorrow (back to school!): 1. Wear my new lip gloss (haha sorry couldn't resist!) 2. Talk to Nick Morra, say "sorry but I really have no time for ultimate frisbee, as much as I'd love to be a part of the team and I feel bad for you with the lack of female representation and all..." Well, ok maybe I won't say that, but you get the idea 3. Talk to Laura Stec at lunch Re: the "situation" 4. Calm down... maybe do some yoga in the Coucil Room :p 5. Talk to Alex Martin or Lise about the Heart and Stroke Foundation event stuff. GAK! and double GAK! someone has just said something quite odd/interesting/painful/exciting/pleasant/confusing/upsetting... not sure how to react... must... force... smile... BITTERSWEET REALITY gah! -MANGOBANANA- Monday April 21st, 2003 12:34am I am the world's biggest bitch. It is official. Holy cow what the heck have I done? I've gone from being all hurt cause I thought I was useless and wasn't helping my friends at all... to... well let's just say I was right about the second part. I tried to help, but it seems I've ruined two people's lives because of it... wow... what a way to launch a fresh start (both with the website and with myself). argh. On a brighter note, Wes rocks. Not only is he the sweetest, most precious person ever, he also helped lend me some of his HTML and JAVASCRIPT expertise to make this website a little spiffier than the last couple of attemtps. GRAZIE! Anywayz, I've done enough damage for the night, I'm off to bed. A great day with a great friend tomorrow is what I have to look forward to :) (not that I deserve it...) My friends are amazing, eh? They put up with so much from me... Kudos to you all, you rock my socks :p -MANGOBANANA-