Wednesday April 30th, 2003 8:20pm My conversation with Wes tonight (in flow-chartish form): saving the world --> lemmings --> animals that can't jump --> penguins --> pogs --> back to penguins --> are penguins mammals? I stand by my statement, penguins are SO mammals. I read it somewhere. But not in a book. Books are so anti-penguins. It's quite harsh, actually. BEST DAY EVER TODAY! Here's what happened, by class: English: my group people were all away (left on a history trip and sleeping in after a Goldfinger concert last night) so I listened to Leonard Cohen's Suzanne over and over, made "VOTE CATHERINE FOR V.P." ribbons and read some Lord of the Flies. I also have the coolest presentation idea for our poem analysis tomorrow. Religion: Mr Ehlers was here again today, even though he coughed his way through the whole class... ("Hail Mary, full of *COUGH*COUGH*COUGH* the Lord is with thee..."). Fun class though, we talked about some junk, including individualism, and I got to read a shpiel on René Descartes which was nice mostly because I was the only one who could pronounce his name properly and it would have annoyed me to hear alll those anglophones try and fail... Then the teacher left early which was rather upsetting seen as I had kinda wanted to tlak to him about some junk after class... oh well... Math: Mr. Woods wasn't there again so we had a really cool supply who let us play cards all class... Jessica and I looked at pictures and planned a whole scene thing for when we see her crush (Dan F) in the halls when she walks me to drama. Here's what we had in mind for today: Me: "Hey Jess, you didn't give me that pic of you and *butterfly eyes* Mike!" Jess: "Oh stop! We're not even going out...!" Me:"Oh but you would be if he had it his way! You know it's true!" and then she's blush and walk off, and he'd be all "what was that about?" and I'd be like "*sigh* Just another guy fighting over Jessica's heart..." The funniest part about all that was, he was late for class so none of it even happened! lol! But either way, it was alot of fun to plan, and she got an endorphin rush out of it... So it can't be *all* bad... Drama: Fun day today... Dan F (Jess' crush) put his arm around my waist twice (he didn't think I noticed the first time?) and slapped my ass twice with a clipboard. I think he has an obssessive disorder where you do everything twice... Anywayz, I'm adding that to the List Of Stupid Things Guys Have Done For Attention (LOSTGHDFA, for short, haha) (LostGhadFah!). Then, when I said "Who do you think you are?" after he did it the second time, and he said "Oh you know who I am..." with a wink and a coy smile. Yeah... OK! WRONG GIRL, DUMBASS! ...and at the end of class: Dan: "By the end of grade 12, you have to have put in a stupid announcement. You know, one by like, Ben Dover or something..." Me: "...And I'd waste me time doing something stupid like that because...?" Dan: "It would be funny! Don't you want everyone to remember you as being super cool and funny?" Me: "Yeah cause you know, I really care SO much about what other people think of me..." ...And as I walk out of the class I hear "Raymond/Jeff/Dan likes Catherine!" Oh boy(s)! Choir: (not a class, but yeah!) Dan M, my old crush, kept looking at me and smiling and stuff. Twas odd. Then, Laura and I swing danced when we started singing "If Don't Mean A Thing If It Ain't Got That Swing" at the end of choir. That was alot of fun. Dan watched us there too. Maybe cause he was the only guy that wasn't playing an instrument and had no one to talk to? Whatever. To conclude: PENGUINS ARE MAMMALS! -MB- Tuesdsay April 29th, 2003 9:25pm The Friend Quiz is almost done! Yay! For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm currently working on a quiz that you can take to see which of my friends you are most like... fun stuff! Oh lord, the pain! THE HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE PAIN! that said... Ah yes! I have many things to fill you in on: 1. THE CN TOWER CLIMB In case I didn't ask you if you'd help me "save the animals", I'll fill you in. (My friends) Katie, Jennie and I raised funds in pledges for the WWF and to take part in the annual climb up the 1776 stairs of the CN tower. The three of us raised a sum total of about $330 which is alot when you consider that we only really had about 4 days to do it in. So on Saturday, at about 7:30am, we loaded into my mom's car and drove downtown. We got signed in, coat-checked and prepped and began climbing about 9:30ish. It was a fun walk, we took it lightly and didn't race to the finish, but it was funny because the whole thing was in this really cold, dark stairwell that looked like it had been an old jail or something... quite creepy. It's not like they didn't try to liven things up though... I mean, they had plastered these pictures of animals that kids from all over the area has drawn/painted/cut out, etc. on the walls at just about every flight of stairs. Some of them were so sweet! They'd have inspirational messages like "You can do it!" and "One step closer..." on them, which was so adorable and made you want to look up Christopher, the 5 year old from Welland, or Josephine, the 8 year old from St Mark's Daycare Center, and thank them for giving you the strength to go on. So cute! Haha, and then you come across the one that looked like a grim reaper (I later realized it was actually the WWF logo...) Either way, we had alot of fun and felt great about doing it! Tons of great memories there... holy jamolie! ("YOU HAVE A FACE IN YOUR TEETH!", "Hey Pandaman, watch the hands!", "HEY MR. PANDA, BEAR MY CHILDREN! GET IT? CAUSE YOU'RE A BEAR...!") Oh! And we got nice looking t-shirts with our times on the back, and we wrote inside jokes and letters to eachother on them, which made it so much more memorable... If anyone wants to join us next year, we're thinking of going as a group and getting the free masages and everything afterwards... Mmmm.... 2. That same day, after CN Tower climb, we had a great lunch at Mr. Greenjeans in the Eaton's Center, did some shopping (I GOT SCRUBS!) and saw a lacross game. Toronto Rock vs. Colorado (?) Mammoths. Great fun there! There were a couple of great fights too, and Jennie. Katie and I had our signature lines to yell: "FIGHT HIM YOU PUSSY!", "ARE YOU GOING TO TAKE THAT?!" and "YOU FIGHT LIKE MY GRAMA!" (respectively) ...and great fun was had by all... Toronto won, by the way, although I can't remember the final score... 3. Big! BBQ was on sunday, that was fun. I wanted to go, and then I got there and all I wanted to do was go home, or not be there. But Ryan (whom I thought was named Peter for the longest time, oops!) was there, and everyone there could sing so well! and they all did karaoke, and Wes sang the Giliigan's Island theme... and it was worth staying for! Plus, I got a fan club started for Ryan (well, I will soon anywayz...) cause he's my hero! Even though he is younger than me. HE'S SO COOL! I wonder if he'd marry me... Hmmm.... lol Eww... I have council tomorrow morning.... but on the bright side the lady from the Heart and Stroke Foundation will be stopping in on our meeting, that'll be nice. She is so great at replying, the old lady took so long, and she didn't ever really sound like she cared about our support... this new lady does, and it's so much fun to chair a committee when you have someone on the other end who actually cares and wants to help you make things work... so great! Thursday April 24th, 2003 8:36pm HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATIE! Today was a pretty cool day. I had a bunch of really pretty fake flowers that I stuck in the front pocket of my knapsack. I find it curious that people came up to me and asked if I was aware that I had flowers sticking out of my bag. The human race is a fascinating one, lol. For those of you who are bothered, confused, annoyed, or just plain puzzled as to why I would walk around all day with flowers sticking out of my bag: you don't know me well enough. And it's not because I'm crazy/stupid/random/childish. Not this time anywayz. Just a couple of minutes ago, I was watching Survivor on Global, and the reward challenge (or whatever it's called) was this mini auction where the items were different meals and food prizes. Each contestant was given $500 before hand with which to bid. The cool part, in my opinion, came toward the end of the auction when the host guy (Rick?) pulled out some enveloppes with letters from home. Now, this one girl, Chrissy, hadn't been able to win any food by this point. She had watched everyone else devour cheesecake, chocolate, burger and fries, potatoes and steak... while she just sat there (salivating, I'm sure. Maybe plotting revenge aswell...). It was completely fair and just that she get her letter. But then this girl Jenna, whose mom has cancer, starts crying, so they auction off another letter and everyone lets her win. Everyone looks happy, right? Wrong. They get back to the camp and the two start reaing their letters, but the undertones are grim. Jenna is trying to hide the fact that she hates Chrissy for bidding higher than she (Jenna) could afford to get a letter from home, and Heidi sides with Jenna. I just don't get it. I mean, Chrissy was nice to everyone from the start, AND she has an obvious disadvantage because she's deaf. So why pick on her? Maybe I'm the only one that cares about this, and maybe I'm wrong to judge, but seriously... Chrissy was good from the start, she never wanted any trouble. Jenna's just there to equal things out so girls don't look too perfect. Grr. So then aside from getting me worked up, it got me thinking. Here are these people stranded in the Amazone who are willing to pay $320 for a letter because it means THAT much to them to have that reassurance that someone back home cares. Then I thought "hmmm... I have a pen and piece of paper... why don't I write a letter telling one of my friends how much they mean to me?" Sure my friends aren't stranded in the middle of the Amazon, and they have an abundance of friends surrounding them daily, but it's still always nice to hear someone actually tell you how much you mean to them, instead of it just being "understood". I doubt any of you will give a second thought to this, but I hope that at the very least it makes you think. Maybe it'll convince one person to write a letter to tell someone how much they care about them, or call a long-lost friend. Probably not, but here's to hoping :) That said, don't forget to check your mailboxes :) -MB- Wednesday April 23rd, 2003 10:43pm Oh yeah, I meant to add some quotes and anecdotes of my day... 1. (from the show on tweens) "I buy things cause they look good on me" ask this kid to define "good" and it'll tie back to society and "what's cool" some way or another... I doubt "good" is REALLY based on *truly* personal opinion here... 2. "our future is in very interesting hands" (Kevin Newman) that's poetry. putting the best words in the best order to produce the desired effect. 3. (not a quote) studying for our drama quiz on the unit of mime we just finished, DF turns to me, smiles and does the mime for marriage. Does he think I'm stupid or something? Oh man he's precious... lol 4. me: "47.5% of stats are made up on the spot" Danielle: "that's stupid, you could have just made that statistic up just now too then!" need I say more? 10:04pm GAH! and double GAH! You have no idea how excited I am! I was channel surfing tonight when I came across this show I had been meaning to watch. The whole 1-hour or something special was on tweens. Pure gold. Now I say that alot, so for those of you that know me, that may not seem like a big deal. You could not be more wrong. Ok, I won't lie to myself, I know I make a big deal about it now, and by the end of the week it'll probably be long forgotten... but for while this feeling lasts, HOLY COW THAT SHOW WAS GOOD! (note: if anyone's parents taped it, I would love to borrow and tape a copy of it) For those of you that didn't watch the show, it was all about the new generation, "tweens", the things that influence them, how they are different from kids and teenagers, the rationale they use in justifying the things they do and choices they make, etc. It was like prodding the "tween" mind, figuring out what drives it. That show was like everything I've ever wanted to say and express, but it did so in a way that tweens and kids who think they're tweens could relate to and understand. It was like putting a mirror to their faces and showing them their true colours, but it did it so that instead of angering them, or making them feel like they were under attack or scrutiny, it was like "oh wow... is that really me?". Well, I hope so anyway. Then again, maybe I live in a world of unfounded hope, oblivious to reality. All I know is that I get annoyed with my younger sister (she's 12) about every day over issues raised in this documentary but when I sat there silently watching this show, she followed suit, and I'd like to think it gave her some things to think about. Just to even things out for those of you who hate me and think I am the more childish and annoying person ever: I do realize the hypocrisy of this rant. I talk incessantly about how much certain things annoy me, almost as though I am denying the fact that most (if not all) of these traits are present in my personality. So here you go... 1. I AM A CHILD! not a teenager (well, aside from the fact that physically I am 16 years old), not a young adult (as most grade 5 and 6s seem to think they are *shudder*), nor anything else of the likes. I realize that on many levels I am immature or childish by your standards. I am proud of this. 2. I DON'T THINK I'M COOL. In fact, I pride myself on being the biggest loser ever. All things considered, I think it's the safest social group for me to belong to. Plus, dorks will save the world... yep... artists and dorks... So yeah! To conclude, here is a quick fact I picked up from the show: - teen suicide rates more than doubled between 1979 and 1991 you know you love me... ;) -mb- Monday April 21st, 2003 9:06pm *sigh* and triple *sigh* Today was actually a pretty good day, although you probably wouldn't be able to tell based solely on my current mood. Bah, no one cares. Actually funny stuff happened today now that I think about it. When I woke up this morning it wasn't to the sound of birds chirping, or my dog snoring, nor to the lovely sunlight pouring in through my "barely there" blinds, no no! The first thing I saw this morning as I opened my eyes and reached for my glasses was my mom and two people I didn't recognize, staring down at me. At first I was a little shocked, but I answered their questions with the most coherent mumbles and grunts I could manage considering the time. Took me a couple of minutes, but I finally remembered they were some family friends. I love how my parents warn me in advance about visits, lol. After that odd little encounter, I knew it was time to get up, so I dragged myself over to the bathroom and into the shower. To skip the rest of the boring bits, Matt P and I ended up meeting up for ice cream, chillaxing in the park, playing on the swings, exploring the area around the train tracks, jumping fences and chasing ducks, talking about relationships and junk, etc. Quite a fun day, all things considered. Plus it was super-cool meeting up with Matt again... we haven't actually talked in about a year, so yeah! OOh! And I also went and did some more damage to my bank account today by splurging on two lip glosses: M.A.C. FloraBundance (which I am in LUV with!) and a lip d'Votion Latte Love (which smells good enough to eat!) as well as a magazine. I'm turning into such a shopaholic, considering the amount I've spent so far this month... Oh well, sometimes you just need to treat yourself :) You'd think that after such a great day I'd be feeling rosey and bubbly... things are odd. I'm still feeling REALLY bad about last night (this morning)'s little fandango. I feel like stamping *BITCH* across my forehead in big red letters... Ew. Ew. Ew. Ew. Ew. So here's my plan for tomorrow (back to school!): 1. Wear my new lip gloss (haha sorry couldn't resist!) 2. Talk to Nick Morra, say "sorry but I really have no time for ultimate frisbee, as much as I'd love to be a part of the team and I feel bad for you with the lack of female representation and all..." Well, ok maybe I won't say that, but you get the idea 3. Talk to Laura Stec at lunch Re: the "situation" 4. Calm down... maybe do some yoga in the Coucil Room :p 5. Talk to Alex Martin or Lise about the Heart and Stroke Foundation event stuff. GAK! and double GAK! someone has just said something quite odd/interesting/painful/exciting/pleasant/confusing/upsetting... not sure how to react... must... force... smile... BITTERSWEET REALITY gah! -MANGOBANANA- Monday April 21st, 2003 12:34am I am the world's biggest bitch. It is official. Holy cow what the heck have I done? I've gone from being all hurt cause I thought I was useless and wasn't helping my friends at all... to... well let's just say I was right about the second part. I tried to help, but it seems I've ruined two people's lives because of it... wow... what a way to launch a fresh start (both with the website and with myself). argh. On a brighter note, Wes rocks. Not only is he the sweetest, most precious person ever, he also helped lend me some of his HTML and JAVASCRIPT expertise to make this website a little spiffier than the last couple of attemtps. GRAZIE! Anywayz, I've done enough damage for the night, I'm off to bed. A great day with a great friend tomorrow is what I have to look forward to :) (not that I deserve it...) My friends are amazing, eh? They put up with so much from me... Kudos to you all, you rock my socks :p -MANGOBANANA- |