omg today is fucked up beond anything. my baby is kicked out, no where to go. I've called millions of places and people, no luck. My VERY last option is Austin. (my dads friend) i hope that works out..god i hope that works out. I'm crying and iuno weather to call him..or just sleep. Sleep and pretend this isnt happing. I mean shit, he's leaving in 4 fuckin months for the fuckin army, why cant his mother be a fuckin mother and just support him till then>?? i guess ill never understand._________________________this song is like my theme song_______________________________________________________________________________________________"Serenity" As I sit here and slowly close my eyes I take another deep breath And feel the wind pass through my body I'm the one in your soul Reflecting the light Protect the ones who hold you Cradling your inner child It's serenity In a place where I can hide I need serenity Nothing changes, days go by Where do we go when we just don't know And how do we relight the flame when it's cold Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing And when will we learn to control Tragic visions slowly stole my life Tore away everything Cheating me out of my time I'm the one who loves you No matter wrong or right And every day I hold you I hold you with my inner child It's serenity In a place where I can hide I need serenity Nothing changes, days go by Where do we go when we just don't know And how do we relight the flame when it's cold Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing And when will we learn to control Where do we go when we just don't know And how do we relight the flame when it's cold Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing And when will we learn to control I need serenity [x2] ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________man..that song! i love it! well anywho, school was ok, i had like 3 tests. I hope i did ok. I studyed real fuckin hard. I walked to dairy queen after school n started to read somemore. Then julia n dad came, n dad droped me n julia off at burger king where i filled out an aplication. uhh but i dont member turning it in lol..uhh then i went home n called my baby..n looked all fuckin after noon for a place for him. Till now. Now i got to wait and hope for the best. I prayed. Boy Katie would be proud. lol well anywho, im bored as fuck and im waiting on my step mom to get here..tho im mad as fuck cuz she got smart with me on the fone but ya kno..what can ya do? today sumone told me maya did kandi..and im like WOAH buddy cuz a day or so ago she told me she only did sum lil pill called "k" i should have figured it out..K..KANDIE..but ya know. The point is she lied to me. Someone i thought i could trust. OH well right? Mom is ok..she hates me i think who knows. Dad is sweet his birthday is coming up. Two days. Julia is ok she's at a football game and rach is always sleeping at moms..anywho ima go so i can get all my fuckin shit together and crap. SIGHS..i hope things turn out ok..