FROM: Jeremy TO: Kyla
This is a Site for the sweetest of the sweets, My Beautiful Wife Kyla... My sweet you make me feel like no other, You understand me, You make me feel like I am special, And the one thing you gave me that I think is the best thing in the world, you gave me your love when I thought all hope was gone... Kyla I see you and my face lights up with excitment... I talk to you my heart fills with warmth. When I am down you pick me up...when we first had a serious talk I learned how much you was like me it was like everything I said you understood, and I understood you... The way I feel now I know I could not bare to be without you... I must say if you was to pull out my heart I know indeed it would have your name all over it... my love for you has grown so strong for you it has taken over my body...A rose tries it's best to match such beauty but it always falls short, the sweetness of a rose always falls short of the sweet Kyla... I felt like I had no world but you gave me one, I felt like I had no love in my life but you gave me that love, I felt like I was lost but you found me... If I had a universe to give you would have it, if I had a world to give you would have it... I thought I did not have no love to give but I was very wrong Kyla my love all the love I have in me is yours... All I can say is thank you I feel as if you have gave me my life back... I have never been more happy in my life as I am when I am with you I think of you every minute of every hour of every day... There really is a cloud 9 cause I am sitting on it... I cannot wait till we may sail away on a never ending universe together you and I and nothing but the sky my love my love for you is deeper then the deepest sea and higher then the highest mountian...
I will say you are the reason of my living my everything you gave my heart a reason to beat Your words are as soft to the soul, as rose pettles are to the touch... All I am trying to say is Kyla I Love You !!!
When You said you would marry me I knew in my heart that I was the luckiest man alive... For you as my wife I am truly a king... I want to be there for you forever I love you with all my heart and that my love will never change love always and forever....
UPDATED: Thursday, April 17, 2003I try and try to do my best to make you happy and I always think I don't do a good job of it all I can say is I am sorry for that. I know I am not the best person in the world but I am trying no matter how much you don't believe that I am. I see you cry and if you only you knew how bad that hurts me. I have tried and tried to put it into words what you do to me but I can't I sit and cry because I truly know how lucky I am and how un-lucky I make you. I sit and think of this dream I have to live a happy long life with you and it is indeed a grand dream. But the part of the dream that turns into a nightmare is because I am soooooo afraid I can't make you happy it seems like nothing I do is right but I know I sometimes make you feel that way too but everything you do is just right. The new dream I have is for you to be truly happy you just don't see I would die to give a chance for you to be happy... I know you miss your family and that is my fault everything bad that happens is my fault. I sit and look at other peoples life and wish it could be as good for me and you... Kyla if you only knew how much your unhappiness makes me hurt then maybe just maybe you could understand how much I truly love you. I don't guess that will ever happen though and I am truly sorry for that. But never never never forget that you will always have my heart and I will always love you no matter what... And if there is any way you could ever believe me I will say I would do anything in this world for you... I am sitting here trying to figure out my life I have no-one to blame but myself. I ask myself why I can't apologize and it have meaning. I want to ask for forgivness But I know it isn't deserved, I want to ask for a new beginning but I know it won't be given. I never thought I had so much love to give to one person But then again I never knew I could find Someone like Kyla. But every up-side has a down. The emptiness is about unbarible. The lonliness Is so unforgiving and unrelenting and yet I have no-one to blame but myself Everything I look at, or do, or everywhere I go memories are abound. So needless to say the tears flow unspairingly. I know I lost what I had But my heart won't let go, My love won't stop. I felt like I should take my wedding ring off my finger but I can't I WON'T Because still the love of my life gave it to me...I just Hope she know's I WILL love her ALWAYS & FOREVER !!!
UPDATED: Saturday, April 19, 2003
I Realize now I have lost the one thing that was dearest to me I know it was supposed to be 50/50 but I can do nothing but blame myself. I feel as if deep down where it used to be filled with so much love from Kyla is completly empty and hollow now. I have had so much time to sit and think And I know all the answer's I once didn't. I was always so scared somehow I would lose her That I didn't even see I was pushing her away. I always tried to Protect her and shelter her from anything bad but I never looked at myself. I never realized how much she completed my life because now it seems so empty and lost. It is once in a lifetime that someone feels they have met there soulmate. I can honestly say I did and I threw it all away. I can honestly say I am lost without her. She made way for new ground with happiness and love. Commitment was always so hard but with Kyla I understood it without trying I seen life in a new light... I finally knew the meaning of Love...
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