home is a feeling i barely know
a feeling i barely remember
although it is still scented with salt-tears
and hazy, like a bad novel
i am wading through a sea of disappointment
drowning, but still filled with hope
i am opening my eyes to my wildest dreams
to see if i could ever go home
or maybe only dream
but the water quickly falls back upon my eyes
turning the sea into an ocean
my hope into a plead
i look to the stars wishing i was dead
yet the stars are cold and dim
and my world black and fluid
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i wish i were anywhere but here
but i can`t tell you that
i can`t make myself feel better
it`s not hard realize neither can you
so it hurts me that you
you and your arms are so cold
but if i left them i`d fear
i`d fear that i would die
will you please just hold me tonight?
i`m asking, can`t you see?
hold me although it kills us both
so violent and terribly
but we need this
i hate your beautiful fucking heartbeat
for throwing mine off course
but i can`t think anything about that
or i might choke on my words
but i`m willing to learn
learn your beautiful heartbeat
if you`re willing to give it up for me
but this mind is full of doubt
and your face is full of regret
but my pulse is slowing down
now rest my head on this wood floor
and watch as you drop me
watch my head crack open before your eyes
this guilt you feel is nothing new
hurry now pick me up
caress my cold cheek
say your sorrys
tell me you miss me
i`m colder than i ought to be
while you whisper into my ear
saying i love you i miss you my dear
you exhaled your life out into that sentence
as i slip from your lifeless hands
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i`m scared that i might never get to say goodbye
so i take this razor out of my wrist
before my head hits this floor
but am i planning on staying forever?
no, i`ll walk straight out of that door
not looking back to see who`s crying
because the results i might find
could possibly tell me my fate tonight
and as i leave that house i live in
i start to walk not run
because the world is making me dizzy
the houses are blurring away
the faces are scaring me more than i need
and i`m on the ground in seconds
i didn`t know that tonight was such a wonderful night to die
until i took that last breath
and died with a sigh
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i don`t care about the world
i wish it would drown in a sea of blood
because this whole entire earth
should be taken over by a flood
i wouldn`t care if my friends
got shot in the head
`cause for all i know
i am using them instead
i put all my emotions aside
as my mind fades to black
watch the explosions in this sky
as i felt a stab in the back
but as for now i will follow anyone
who will bring me to you
because i`m beginning to hate you for your face
not only the things you do
