
My given birth name is Walter, but i have chosen Winter SwiftWolf for my name, I like it, and it fits many aspects of my life. I am 25 years old and a divorced father of two wonderful and bright boys that live with me [see the goddess does love fathers to =-)]. They seem to take more and more of my little time every day, but I wouldnt have it any other way. I am a solitary pactitioner, and have been for a little more than 3 years now. Is it hard being a single father and a single practitioner?..yes, but we all make do with what we are given right? I like to read alot, if it has words/ pages Im in it.. dont know why, I'm just funny that way. I also like to be outdoors (no desk job please) and working out when im able to. Im also into Tattoos and Body piercings, and am currently learning the ropes of the piercer. I'm also told that I am a good listener of my friends, and also just people in general. I just have this overwhelming urge to help people if I'm able to. My best friend Thomas describes it as the "Shining Armor Curse" Im not sure what it is, but I was given this gift amung a few others for a reason, havent figured it out yet though.. but I have them all the same. Well, is that enough about me? I hope so, well for now maybe, most of that is more than my own family knows, mainly in part because I know they wouldnt understand what I was saying, and part because Im not sure how to tell them. Did I mention im afraid of my emotions? LOL Well, as I learn more about HTML, I might actually try to move this elsewhere and add to it in the future. Well I have been learning more about HTML, and DHTML, and have helped my friend MEKA with her site, I think I'll add a link to her site on the links page. Yes, I still keep asking my friends to look at my site, and tell me what the think, even though some may read this page, and ask..What does it mean? Well the thing is.. and not to be rude or mean, if you tell me you dont get it, then you probabally wont even if I tell you. Im not really a bad person, all it takes is for you to get to know me. On that Note, I will end for now, take care, and Blessed Be. OH YEAH... THANKS FOR THE HELP SKYCLAD, AND MELL THANKS FOR THE GIFS AND LINKS TO STUFF TO HELP!
June 27, 2001 Well Im back. I had to take a week to go to NY for some personal family reasons, dont feel bad if i dont tell you why I went, just know I'm alright with it. Not that I was missed by anyone right? I guess this page is turning into a kind of personal web journal of sorts. Oh well, who cares right? Its mine, and this is what I want to do with it..=-)~ Why do people insist on showing people one side of thier being and then as soon as u look away they turn to a demon? Ah.. I love family..HAHA! Oh well. I just found out that my VERY BEST friend is preggo. My best wishes go out to her and her unborn, and I will do what I can to help, she knows why... dont ya Sticky..=-)~ I'll pay for that one later...LOL Ok I guess I can expect some of my family that is going to see this to jump my ass about it being to personal, or "Having Spelling Errors", or ask me "Just what Do You Plan To Do With This?" Attack me all you will.. you will just find that I am a rock to destroy yourself upon.... THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO DO, DONT LIKE IT DONT LOOK AT IT! Sorry if I offended any one, but hey.. I try to tell it like I see it.
July 8, 2001 Well Here I am agian. Adding to a page no one looks at ( I know.. I know... I have like close to a hundred hits... but hey.. I see things about myself differntly ok). First of all I want to take the time to say something. Well I can.. its MY SITE..LOL The saying goes there is a twin for every person on this earth. Be it man women or child somewhere there is a twin. We spend our lives looking for this person, but we never know it. I have been lucky enough to find my twin. I was suprised to learn that it wasnt a man, of my age, and looks like me, but a women, who is just a little older, but just as young inside as I am old on the inside. We are the same totally, through and through, almost to the point of thinking the same thing at the same time. Is it scary, yes and no. Its kinda like the feeling you get when you see your reflection for the first time, only this goes deeper than skin. This goes to the soul. Not only has she proven to be a real person to me, but a friend as well. So now I would like to tell her thank you. Thank you Karen, you have helped me find things I thought I lost, and I hope I can do the same for you. Now that I have said that, let me continue Well, I'm going to be relocating soon to upstate NY.. thats where i was born, and have been trying to get back to for almost 6 years now. As luck would have it, I have a good chance to have a position as a body piercer in a tattoo shop in the town im from. Great right?? Only time will tell. Why is it the youngest child can do no wrong, and the oldest is nothing more than a "Fucking Idiot"? I try and try, but to no avial.. oh well, im about done, and when me and my "clones" move.. we wont have to worry about the little family "power wars" any more. My Birthday has come and gone, was it good?? I guess, all I did was stay at home with my boys, I didnt mind though. They may have thier quirks, but I love them, and enjoy ALL my time with them. Fathers day is another day that really doesnt have any meaning for me. Hasnt for a long time either, I guess it must be for the lack of an actual father figure. Most of the father/son things Ive learned in my life i have taught myself, or from friends fathers, and sometimes friends. There was one friend in paticular that has giving me alot of skills, Thanks agian Thomas. The Marine Corps helped fill alot of the cracks as well. WOW, I went off on a rant here didnt I? Im sorry to those who are reading this... I do that sometimes. Well I guess it is time to end this entry. So now I bid you Merry Part, and dreams of peace. Aug 9, 2001 Well, here I am in the great land of snow and ice. Ive been here since July 31st, and I love it. Yep, thats right, I'm in northern New York. I was born here, and I love it here. I'm talking to the owner of a tattoo shop called "In The Skin Tattoo" about being a body piercer there (FUN FUN FUN). Wow, it's been so long since I did an update to my site, Im not sure what to put in it. Oh well, Ill go with what I know, it's gotten me this far in life right? You know something..... It still amazes me how much things change when you have been gone for a long time, but at the same time stay the same. My hometown is basically the same, but the people are differnt, but many of the younger people around ( it feels weird to say "younger people") still do ALL of the things I did when I was thier age. I guess it just proves that people change, but fun is forever. One thing i feel I need to do now that I have moved is restart my studies. I know, you dont want to read about my personal bullshit about my "studies" but hey...it's MY site..dont like it... you can just click yourself right out to another site. As I was saying, I have this feeling of urgency, a need to study agian and go further than I have before, and frankly, its making me nuts. I think I'll feel better once I get settled, and feel comfy enough to do what it is I need to do. Who knows. If anyone reading this has any advice or comments about anything I write on this page, feel free to email me (link is on the first page) I'll do my best to answer in a timly fashon. Well folks, I think I've wasted enough of your time here, I'll add more later this week. Merry Part and peacefull dreams. Sept 1, 2001 Yes, I know... its been a while since I last added something to this page. Is there really anyone reading this shit I put in here?? I doubt it, but the visitor counter thingy says otherwise. Oh well. Lets see, whats been happening? Ive been fucked over by the guy I was supposed to go do piercing for, keeps putting me off, not wanting to let me work. can you say BULLSHIT???? yeah thought so. Oh well right?? its his place, so he can do what ever he wants right? Hmm I guess Ill go do some freelance stuff for a while. My oldest starts school this week YAY!!! Cant wait...but at the same time Im kinda feeling worried, but hey..its the curse of the single parent. Im not worried about my boy... Im worried about the rest of the world at large..LOL He will do fine im sure, and Ill be there to help him along the way when he needs it. Well, Im kinda sleepy, and I had gone out with my aunt tonight, so Im kinda YAY!!lol I think Ill leave on this thought... We all walk throught life as if we were in a dream wishing we would never wake up....then we have a dream and think its real, and wish we could sleep when will we ALL ever learn to put our toys back where they belong???? Sept, 17, 2001 Yes I know its been a while since I had added to this page... What can I say.. Ive been having fun, and meeting new people. Before I get into that, I would like to send out my deepest thoughts, and feelings to those who had lost loved ones in the tragic happenings of last week. If they decide to call me back to the MARINES I would go back in a heartbeat, just to try to make better the wrongs that have been done. I know that I am not a violent man any more, and that revenge is not in my beliefs, but something like this is just something that cannot be ignored. Hmm now that has been said, I guess I should get down to what is going on with my own life. Maybe later, Im still in a shity mood, so maybe later. Nov, 4, 2001 Hello. I know it has been a while, but ive been busy, kids in school, doing the job thing and ive met someone. AWWWWWW i said it.. ive met someone very special, and i would like so very much to keep her, and if the gods and her are willing, i will. Lets see.... you are dying to know something about her right?? well tough, im not ready to let the entire world know everything about the person that holds my heart,( yes people.. those few that come to this site as it is are the world to me..lol) She is warm, loving, caring, understanding, patient (although ive been told by her shes really not) and supportive.. the things i need most in my life right now. She makes me believe that those things really do exist and were not just part of a sick game my exwife liked to play with my mind and emotions. Oh yeah.. a bonus... SHE LOVES MY CLONES!!!! I know she is reading this right now, and im wondering if she will read this as i type it. Wouldnt that be neat?? LOL I do Love her, and i tell her as much as i can, but im not sure if its enouh..only time will tell right? Im not sure what else to put in here tonight, im kinda messed up right now because i cant sleep, dont know why..just not tired. Only bad things happen when i dont sleep, lets see what happens ok? Im including a new link on my links page, it is for a man who is going to cut off his own legs so he can get fake ones. He was in a accident in the 80's, and was paralized. Check it out if you want.. i think this guy has bigger balls than me.. LOL When we all go through life with someone we are still looking for that "special someone" why is it that we always forget to look in our own back yard first??
Nov, 9, 2001 Here i am agian, doing yet another update to my little piece of the web..like people actually read this shit right? Lets see... yes im still doing the job thing, and yes im still hopelessly in love with someone. No names yet.. thats my little secret for now. neener neener =-)~ Well a friend just called ( dont u just LOVE callwave) im bailing for now.. ill finish this later
Nov, 10, 2001 Ok... yeah yeah its the next day.. sue me..LOL. Im kinda feeling "odd" because im at the library working on my personal webpage, and will probabalyy be working on another web page for someone else as well. If they only knew what i do on this thing huh???? HAHA Im feeling kinda wierd... i saw my gurlie today OH YEAH!!!!! She is so sweet, and understanding, its almost to good to be true. Now i can tell that you r starting to think.... wait.. has our guy Winter turned to a softie??? No, im still me, just that someone has helped me be able to let out some of my emotions, and "play" a little instead of being just a mature father. Granted it is what i am, but it is good to let go sometimes and be a "person" Well, i think ill end for now, maybe more later who knows.. i sure as hell dont..lol. Toodles
Jan, 11, 2002 WOW!!! its been a while hasnt it?? Sorry.. my puter is still in the shop, and im STILL at the local library and hating it. Granted i now only live about 10 blocks or so from it, it still sucks. Yule is come and gone. i trust that all you you that read this, (is there really some that do?? LOL) had a good one as well as your family. Personally im not to keen on this holiday.. Christmas that is, but hey...its good for the clones right? Im constantaly finding others in this world around me that just refuse to understand me and my beliefs. Granted that is thier choice, but i do wish they would be atleast tolerent of me and my beliefs like i am of them. Oh well... i guess one cant expect everyone to be openminded right? On the lighter side, i have found some other practitioners in this area, and am thinking of maybe trying to become good friends with these persons so i can have some to talk with and share ideas on our common and preferred path of life. One problem im faced with in this area is that this is a STRONG Catholic community, and wiccan and pagan practitionarsare not to welcome, or tolerated if they are public about thier beliefs. They are regarded as "evil" by some, and as satan worshipers by the rest who refuse to understand and keep an open mind about things they are not informed about. i try to explaine to people i meet so they can make an informed decision about me, but it usually ends up backfiring on me. Well i guess i cant be condemed for not trying right?? Hmm well i guess i have taken enough of you time with my rantings, so i will be you good by and Merry Part..... Blessed Be!
Feb 5th, 2002 Greetings once agian, its been a while i know, been busy being a father and other fun stuff like that. Not much is new really, got a contact to try to start my own business, try working for myself.. might be fun... but what if i dont like the boss? Well, im still here in the great frozen north, its currently snowing outside, and as cold as death i think. The outside temp was 5below..18 below with the wind chill. I wouldnt have it anyother way. Not really much to type about... pretty boring untill i get things going with the business. Drop me an email, let me know that there is actually pepople comming to this site to read what i have actually put on here.. the link for my email is on the home page.
March 13, 2002 Yes i know.. its been well over a month since my last entry...sue me, im sorry. =-) Alot has been happening and not much time to myself. i just got my computer back home about 3 weeks ago, and then got cable modem, so im back online. still working to getting my own shop opened, its taking more than i thought, and im looking for something to do untill i can open it. computer stuff mainly, or anything that will pay more than 6 bucks an hour. clones are doing good. i bought a pen cam... takes remarkable pics considering its no bigger than a highlighter, and runs off of 2 AAA batteries. it stores up to 25 high res pics, or 99 low res pics, AND it can make mini films when not connected. so yes you can expect to see more pics of me, the clones, and other stuff that intrests me..lol i wrote a letter to Silver Ravenwolf a month back, thought it would be nice for a change to tell someone other than my readers how i feel about tings i do, and how my experience has been going with magick. im still waitng for her to respond, but i understand that she is a very busy woman, and if she does respond, it may take a while. well, i have to go, im off to get my anatomy coloring book, and my memory upgrade so i gatta run. Walk with hate in your hear, and you will draw it to you, walk with wonder and you will explore the world like never before done.
May 1o, 2002
WOW.. almost 2 months have gone by, sorry, ALOT as happened. For starters, my boys have been taken from me, and given back to thier mother. Why do you ask? Well it seems that the state of Missouri said i didnt move properly when i relocated to NY with the boys. Since i didnt have a lawyer when i went to court, the judge saw fit to return my boys to thier mother. The same woman that abused them, neglected them, and abandonded them. The same woman who was being investigated for drugs, child abuse, and charged with domestic violence. She is currently a student at the Excelsior Springs Job Corps in Excelsior Springs Missouri. She is a residential student, which means she lives there 5 days a week. Where are my boys during this time you ask? Living with her 75 year old Grand parents in a small 2 bedroom house. Not bad? Guess agian. My children have to sleep on the floor because there is not a bed to sleep in for them, due to the fact that thier great grandathers son stays there during the week and sleeps in the spare bed in the spare room. They were taken from a stable environment and thrust into something not right at all for them. With me they each had thier own room, a bed, friends to play with, and a set schedule for things. I tried to plead with the commishioner (commishioner Beamen, circut court 8) but he would not hear me because i did not and could not afford a lawyer. So now i am getting ready to move back to missouri to see my boys agian, and try to start the ball rolling agian to get them back. Thats whats going on for me. If you have any questions about this, or want to help, feel free to email me (link on first page). Well that is about all i have time for right now, evjoy life, and dont rush forward with closed eyes, open them and watch the ground rush up to you as you fall, but remember.. we cant live and grow without falling a few times.
June 30, 2002
Hello agian, I know its been a while, but I have good reason. I have been forced to move back to Missouri to be able to see my boys since the courts deemed it ws better for them to be with my exwife, boy were they wrong! Im having some trouble $$ wise, but i have some leads, I need to get this done so i can pay this lawyer that my ex doesnt know about so i can get the boys back and get back home to NY. I miss Nickey ALOT, but right now our relationship is one of a friend type, and i dont want to ruin it by telling her how much i miss her. HMMM delemia. She has called me once, but i was gone. I spoke to her briefly, and it made me feel better, but all i fgelt after was that i wanted more. I dont know, am i just being a silly child? Who knows. I promised her I wouldnt tell her how i truly feel anymore, and that i would bury it. She will always have the key to unlock them if she wants to, but right now all i can do is be a good friend... She might read this im not sure..i kinda hope she does, but i think she knows how I feel.
July 18, 2002
Something happened yesterday, Nickey called me out of the blue. I was very suprised, and wasnt expecting it at all. Thefunny thing is I was actually thinkingof her the prior day and that night as well. I told her of the chance that I maybe comming to NY with mymom for a vacation this weekend, and she sounded VERY happy, but was also like she was trying not to sound happy about it. I guess she and her friend have not been going to well, and she is tired of him, or atleast she tells me anyway. I wish her to be happy, she deserves it. I asked her in an email if I wasnt able to make it to NY this weekend if she would be willing to come here to visit for a week or so. Ill pay for it of course. Im waiting for her answer, I might call her tomorrow. I still cant see my boys, and its driving me nuts. I can talk to them on the phone, but thats only when they are home....which is rare. Sometimes I feel like Im going insane because of whats going on, then Ill feel ok about things. Its a rollercoaster, and I really want off, but I think Ill ride it out and see what happens. I do miss Nickey, not only being with her, but seeing her, talking to her, everything. Im trying to keep my promise here, so bear with me ok. Its the hardest promise ive ever made, but I havent broken a promise yet, and Im not going to start now. Im back online..kinda.. its my bros account, they dont have Road Runner in the town im living in ( damn hillbillies) so no cable, and my bros connection is a dialup...which my PC hates to no end lol. Oh well, atleast i can talk to those i know right? Im currently at the library..30min time limit...it sucks, but I didnt feel like driving 20 min to usemy PC and come right back to pick up my mom from work at 3pm..its 210 now lol.
Aug 4, 2002
Hmmm seems to b getting longer and longer between updates LOL. I cant figure out what the deal is with my picture box page. Some of the pics show, others dont. Its frusterating. I went to NY last month, and saw Nickey. IT WAS GREAT! We had made plans for her to come visit me in missouri, but had to kill that plan untill i get things going with my boys. She understands, and is totally understanding. I told her some of what i felt while i was in NY, and that went well. Only time will tell how things turn out. If we could see in the future, there would never be war or anything wrong with society. I miss her alot, but i miss my boys more. She s a major part of my life, but not more than my boys, everything and everyone will ALWAYS take second seat to them. Now if i can only get them back real soon. Im going to show everyone that i can have them back, and when i do, ill never let them go agian. Im tired of feeling lost, its time to let the inner wolf guide me now. Hmm.. im rambling i guess. Ill end on that note before i go off on some wild tangant.. even though i can since its my site LOL. Pleasent journys to all that happen across this site and happen to read of my life as it is. Blessed Be
Aug 17, 2002
Here I am agian, adding to a site that no one reads. Thats ok.. this is supposed to be about me right? I got an email from Nickey the other day. It seems that she has found a boyfriend in someone that was her friend for sometime, and is happy and he gives her what ever she wants. Am i upset abou this? Kinda....but all i really want is for her to be happy, and if she is, so be it. She knows how i feel, and i know she still cares for me, she told me so herself. I made my promise to her agian, and i mean to keep it. I have a feeling that we will find each other agian soon enough, might not be next month or even the next after, but we will eventually, when things get worked out. Im also having trouble deciding on whati really want to do right now. Im thinking of going to nursing school.. or going back to NY and be a corrections officer. Either way, it will be for the boys, and help me get stable. I will have to wait and see what happens with either one. In the mean time, im working as a concrete worker with my brother. Yes its manual labor, but i get to workout, and get a killer tan...LOL. Im not afraid of manual labor, as long as the pay is ok, and i dont have to travel. BAH! i get so confused on what i want to put in here sometimes. I think it would be a good idea if i ended for now. Peace be to you and yours on the journey of life. Blessed Be
December 31, 2002
Well I guess its been a while since I added anything to this huh? Oh well... shoot me lol Ive had ALOT going on. Lets see.... Im still working at the same place doing concrete (yes it DOES suck) and am seeing the boys every-other weekend. Im still talking to Nickey on the phone, and thats wonderful. We both enjoy talking to eachother on the phone, to the point we each look forward to sunday ( thats the day I call her). Im currently "under the weather" right now and Im hating it. Mainly because I hate being sick, but also I hate not having anyone to "baby me" while Im sick LOL. I remember this time last year I was sick, Nickey would call me everyday and check on me and even came to see me to be sure I was ok. Im trying to get things going so I can get into school, and Im trying to get back into piercing alot more than I am right now. My mom came to my apt and woke me up at 1230 am this m orning and I cant go back to sleep, so I thought I would do a MUCH needed update. Still not many people come to view whats in my head , but thats ok, more room for me to move around.. there are enough voices in my head as it is =P Ive been having alot of odd things happen lately, everyplace I go, I have been seening Nickey. Even been hearing her voice. Whats up with that? Have I finally gone off the deep end? Or am I in a way making myself know I love her very deeply still? If its the later, I already know, and I need to repress it more. Its just hard... every moment Im breathing, part of me is thinking of her, I may be working or sleeping, but Im ALWAYS thinking of her. Now hold on, dont get me wrong, I am ALWAYS thinking of the clones too, but thats a differnt kind of thought. Yes I love them more than anything, but I do the same for Nickey as well. Understand now? If not email me and tell me how insane I am or something and we can talk about it LOL. I know what my emotions are eventhough I choose to deny them alot. Oh well. My brother's girlfriend gave birth lastmonth to a baby boy..... Im an uncle now. It was rough going at first, because he was early and had to stay in the hospital for a week before he could come home. Hes home now and T-jay love it. I think it will be good for him to have the baby, will make him grow up some. Now if he could only get rid of his girlfriend and keep the baby he'll be just fine. Oh well. Thats a fast rundown of whats going on with me, now Im off to try to revamp the other pages, and maybe add a link or two, we'll see. Untill agian, may you walk in the light of the great mother always. Blessed Be
April 11, 2004
Yes it has ben a long time I know. ALOT has been happening. Well lets give a fast review. I had a good job, quit it to work for landlord, ended up getting screwed bad on the deal, found love.. lost love, found love and lost it agian. Benn fighting for my boys all year, even got a lawyer, but I need to come up with more $$ to give him before he will finish. Ill add a link to his website on the links page, hes a good lawyer. I have moved, smaller place, but MUCH better I think. Im currently working at the pasta plant here in town untill something better comes along or I can get into school... which ever comes first. Not much time to really put alot in this time, its late and I need to get off to work, but I do promise that I will keep this current from now on. LOL. Blessed Be
Jan 20, 2005
Hmm I seem to be slacking a bit too much on this site, and Im sorry. Alots been going on, and keeping me from it. Lets recap here, Ive seem to have fallen out of sorts as of late for some reason. I have been walking in the shadows and struggling to find my way back to the warm silvery light of the moon. Its slowly opening back to me, and its going to take alot of soul searching to do it, but Im sure I can. Im still trying to get my boys back agian, its taking alot longer than I thought it would, but thats one of the little suprises that makes life interesting right? I have to take off now, time for work. Ill try to add more often. The light of the goddess will guide you, all you have to do is trust your heart.
Sept. 27, 2006: Well Im @ school now, got tired of going nowhere. So now Im learning a skill that I can actually use. LONG time here yes? My brother was killed this past week on the 20th in a car accident. There is alot of controversy surrounding the accident, in a nut shell, IT STINKS.I may post more information about this subject as I get it, more than likely I will start a whole section dedicated to my brother and everything. I am learning new things, and as such, THE SITE WILL EVOLVE! First things first.. the fromt page.. needs a facelift of Joan Rivers porportions! Then will come the rest.