i dunno.. lately i've been upset, depressed, confused and scared bout a lot of things. i think im goin through that stage of my life where im growing maturely.. i've outgrown plenty of things.. things that entertained me and things i used to do and enjoyed doing.. these things bores me now.. im scared to grow up tho.. i dont wanna leave my childhood behind.. those were precious memories.. the things that i used to do, i cannot do anymore.. im so scared!! i dunno wut life is ahead of me.. i dunno if i can handle it.. i really have to find myself.. i dunno wut i am.. i dunno wut i wanna be.. i dunno who im gonna end up with.. so confused.. but all these worries are out of my system now.. all thanks to God!! last night, i kept thinking bout this and i juss felt the sudden urge to cry.. i prayed and read his word!! i really poured my heart out while i was talkin to him.. and wen i read his word, i found a couple of encouraging verses..
Proverbs 16:3
Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed.
Jeremiah 29:11-13
"For i know that plans i have for you" says the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Me worrying was really wrong.. maybe God was testing my faith.. and i failed his test!! and i really cried and ask for forgiveness.. i shudn't be worrying bout anything.. cuz I have a God who loves me and cares for me.. He loves me no matter wut.. das why he sent his only son to die for my sins.. and das wut u call grace.. sumtin that was givin to you dont u dont deserve.. i dont deserve him, i dont deserve his love.. but yet he still loves me.. He's always there for me no matter wut.. People change but my God doesn't.. das why im truly blessed to have him in my life. i can never ask for anything else.. cuz having God in my life.. having him as my Lord and Saviour i know i can do anything.. i can face any trials and i know he will always there for me.. and if i fall i know that he will always be there to pick me up.. So it was really wrong for me to worry bout my future.. cuz like His word said.. He has sumtin planned for me.. He will give me a future.. i juss surrender everything upon Him.. every decisions i make.. Everything!! I dont need to worry bout anything else.. last nite was really a memorable experience for me..
Posted by mo3/bee-thel
at 12:33 PM EDT
Updated: Friday, 27 August 2004 12:37 PM EDT
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Updated: Friday, 27 August 2004 12:37 PM EDT
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