I’m living in this barricade of weaknesses and guilt
What is there left to live for?
All my dreams have spilled.
The tears are crusting on my face,
there’s nothing left to cry.
My feelings and emotions
should crawl away and die.
My hands are shaking more and more
with every passing day
My nerves are on a coaster,
they’re much to my dismay.
I’m thinking that it’s over,
my life has bit the dust
The gateway to my future
has now begun to rust.
I can’t hold back my feelings,
for they are growing strong
I’m running ‘round in madness,
it’s just been far too long.
If I kept track of all the times
my life has took a fall,
Broke my dreams and killed my hope,
I'd crack the fu#!ing walls.
My anger’s built inside me
for really far too long
It’s pouring out in sadness,
My thoughts have all been wrong.
My love of life is hanging,
it’s really smashed to bits,
I’ve lost my sense of humor,
I’ve lost all my wits.
I’ve tried to help the problem,
I’ve tried to cry for help
My voice gets lost along the way,
it’s seemed more like a yelp.
The people that I’ve cried to,
they take it as a joke,
I’m longing for an answer,
my spirit must evoke.
I run away from trouble,
I cower from my fears
I need to overcome them,
I need shed no more tears.
I’ll walk right in to trouble
if I can’t get away
My fears and troubles chase me,
can I stand one more day?
The anger that I’m feeling
explodes at any time
My head just keeps on spinning
without reason, without rhyme.
My days are growing shorter,
my sleeps are short as well
I need to get away from
this life that I call hell.
I will surely rid myself
of struggling for breath
I’ll keep an open mind
when I come upon my death.
