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Jason's Grave

Notice the quote at the bottom? The night I came home from San Diego, Cassidy and I had gone to bed and she started to cry. I had been gone for almost a month, but she wouldn't talk to me about Jason on the phone. She let out a lot of feelings she had kept inside until I got home. When we were working through those feelings, she asked if her Dad could make a piece of concrete and we could write on it with a nail. I told her that they made those, they were called tombstones. Then I asked her what she wanted to write, she said "We'll miss you, Jason and we'll see you someday." So we got out of bed and I had her to write it down. I took that paper with me when I went to have the tombstone made. They took her signature and enlarged it, then put it on the stone, so it would have a piece of her heart with him, forever.

Isn't the tombstone beautiful? I also took a photo of Otay Lake with me when I ordered his stone. An artist recreated that photo in pencil and it is the image engraved on the stone. I am very pleased with the way it turned out. When I go there, I never can resist touching the surface, it is like sliding your fingers down a piece of glass on the 'shiny' areas (like the water). But when I slide my fingers over the 'dull' areas (like the trees) it is like touching sand very lightly, so as not to disturb it.

This is 'Melody'

Yes, there is a story behind this guardian angel at the foot of his grave. I have not been able to tell that story to anyone as yet, though. I am still not ready to share that story. The depth of the meaning for me is indescribable, even still. For now, she gives me a bit of peace when I leave him there. (I didn't put her there until later.) I drive by the cemetary every time I leave the house, for a long time I had this almost uncontrolable urge to go cover him up. I would be cold and worried that he was cold. Since Melody is there, however, I have not had those feelings.