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My Senior Year

Whew! Talk about a year of ups and downs!
I guess I'll start at the beginning. I was excited to be starting my last year of High School. I was looking forward to the "best year" of my life and all the excitement I thought I would be having. I was a Youth Minister at my High School. That means I helped plan masses, retreats, and liturgies of my peers and I was sort of a counselor too. It was really fun for me because I like deadlines and challenges, not to mention I would be doing God's work in my community. To become a Y.M. I had to apply at the end of my junior year. I went to an interview and made it! There was a super fun retreat in the summer and I met the other 20 Y.M. who would become close friends. I worked really hard as a Y.M. and would consider myself successful. Until February...

On my birthday in February, I found out I was 17 weeks pregnant. I couldn't believe it. Me, Miss Role Model, was PREGNANT! Wow, I still can't believe it happened to me. I knew my days as a Y.M. were limited--the rule was, if you are caught leading an un-Christian lifestyle, you'd be out of Y.M. This included drinking, doing drugs, or having sex. So, yes, I was unofficially kicked out (they never actually said I was out, I was just not included in most of the activities). I thought is was SO unfair that only I was kicked out because I knew for a fact that I was not the only person in the group to act in an un-Christian manner. But, no one ever came forward and admitted that.

My High School is in the teen pregnancy capital of the country, so been a teen and pregnant was not a big deal. In fact, the administrators were very supportive and kind. The other Y.M. were too, everyone of them gave me a hug when I announced it to the class (it wasn't my idea). In Y.M. I was demoted to making posters (I guess they thought it would make me feel included, even though I wasn't), but that's OK because I'm creative and love to do things like that.

So, since I was in High School, of course everyone was gossiping and looking at me. I was never very popular, but it seemed like everyone was purposely avoiding me. I think it was because they were scared it would happen to them, not that I was contagious or anything. Only one person who never really talked to me before came up to me and said she was behind me (THANKS BRIDGET!) Out of my class of 134, only ONE person came up to me and was nice. Everyone else bugged my friends about what was going on. It sucked to be pregnant in High School.

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