Wow. It'w wierd how things change. Last time I wrote it was football season! Well, haha, we lost that game, and now Winter sports are almost done with.
Alot of shit has change din the last few monthes. ALOT of shit has changed. I barely talk to the people I use to anymore, and to tell you the dog-gone honest truth, I'm not sure why. Things change, people change, feelings change. Jesse....doesn't wave to me anymore in town. We don't talk to eachotehr anymore on MSN. He doesn't talk to me in school, and his locker is right next to mine. I was taking it pretty hard at first, but I'm starting to get over it. I've had some help tho...
My sophomore year, me and my friends went to a movie, THE GRINCH THAT STOLE CHRISTMAS. That night changed alot of stuff. We met some boys there, we didn't think anything of it, cuz well, we were dumb and younge back then. My cousin who is also my best friend has balls, and looked some of them up, and got to know them, and we started to hang out with them. I remember the first time they actually calledu s, M Was screming cuz, well, I dunno why to be honest. It was just exciting. We went to a basketball game over there, and afterwards we talked to them in their parkinglot, and they told us to come up to this one guys's house, we'll call him "B". That was an interesting experience...I laugh just looking back on it. We sat there, and didn't say a thing to anyone! THere were so many people there, and odn't get me wrong, they weren't rude to us, we were just shy.
Two years later, we are the best of friends. We still see B,TD,J,D,T, and now....M and D.
Me and T have some history, some of it's good, some of it not. Long story short, I liked him, Not sure what he felt for me...but he did like my other friend, so I kinda let that go and after that (back in 10th grade) I got over it fast. But he is the nicest guy. He's a good guy. And I know that now for sure.
The thing is now, I'm starting feeling osmething again.
TD starting talking to me one day, and asked me if "B" had told e about a "plan." I said no. I finally got it out of TD that B and T told D that they knew a girl who was hot and who would be good for him. Me.
T,TD,B and me. got it? and now a D.
So I start tlaking to D. and I like him, and I thought he liked me. I think he sitll in a way does. It's confusing, I get confused easily.
SO
NOW, I officially ahve feelings for D,and T. and J. But I really don't know him. Should I not get into this right now? Ok.
I'm not going to prom. It's too much of a hassle. I can't wait till school's over sometimes, but I'm gonna miss these times, I know i will. School is a pain in the ass tho.
Are you officially confused? I think i just confused yself. Seeya.
October 28th, 2002, 4:18pm
"Honk for a Tiger Victory!" it's all happenin, man3 Days, man. 3 days and 4 quarters untill my boys go to state. I'm excited. Fuck that i'm estatic. THEY'RE MY BOYS! I'm scared and nervouse for them. We play the number 5 seed. WE're number 7. I kow, strange, usually you'll see the number 1 seed play the number 3 seed er something. But look. We played the number 2 seed, and beet them 21-7. We then played the number 3 seed, and better them 18-13. We are still winning, altho but smaller margins, but we are still winning. Now we play #5. But ya know? we could be playing #1 seed. Yep, number 5 beet out number 1. BY ONE. So we might have to watch our backs a bit. But we can do it. I KNOW we can.
Day by day school is getting a little more exciting for them, even the signs around town are supporting them. It's just awesome to see.
Good luck boys! We're right behind ya.
August 31, 2002, 12:05 am
i fucking love football season. i lvoe it. It's senior year, and all my favorite boys FINALLY have a chance to show everyone what they are made of. i sat with Jay's gf tonight, she's really night, and i sat with casey too and alot of other people. Mitch....wow kid. He shocked the hell out of everyone. He had 2 touchdowns, an awesome interception and like 4 tackles and hes like my size (not that big..) this is a guy who barely played at all last year. he won the entire game for us! and we beat the defending state champions in our first game. my sister she she saw jay being interviewed after the game, can't wait to see what he said in the paper. he was interviewd for a football thing along with my pal d. after the game i was driving around with some friends and jay was with his gf and one of my gals rolled down the window and yelled "GOOD JOB J!" and as he drove by we could hear him say "THANK YOU!" it was just funny.good night in all man, good night.
August 4th, 2002, 9:55am
hey. well...i know i haven't writting in a while, but to tell ya the truth i've been kinda bummed lately. Nothing big has happened really...just really depressed cuz of working so much...my summer just isn't going the way that i planned.
I'll tell ya something else too, but you can't tell anyone. I like a guy. well, i've liked him for a long time, so you can prolly figure out who he is. We use to hang out ALL the time, talk all the time on MSN....but we just don't anymore...because one of my best friends, Casey and my pother firend Mitch, well they are togheter now. Mitch is best friends with this guy, and this guy has a girlfriend. So now they are out together ALL the time. And I'm never along and it hurts alot...I'm sure he doesn't do it on purpouse....but he doesn't even talk to me anymore and it scares me cuz I like him alot...not saying i'm breakin up with brandon for him, i just feel so excluded. I don't want my senior year but be like this and that's what I'm scared of the most. I hpoe to god it changes for the better.Then another boy. God forgive me....but one of my best friends ex boys.I was always really good friend with him because of her, i always helped them thru their probs...but now they hate eachother, and we spend alot of time togehter. One night me and him sat in my backyard on the swing from 12- 1:30 just tlaking cuz he ran to my house. he use to go to work in themorning at 4 so he would call me at like 330 to tell my happy birthday...and call me EVERYnight... so i'm starting to dig him....but he's sitll gettin over his ex, and likes kinda this other skank...so i might hafta do somthing about that.
I guess i don't like him as much as, well, lets call him F...cuz i've like dhim for a long time ... like really long. i have a boyfriend and this is what i'm like. god. I bought the new avril cd, (GET IT) and this song on there is exactly how i feel, it's called "Things I'll Never Say":
if i could say what I wanna say
i'd say i wanna blow you....away
be with you everynight
am I squeezin you too tight?
if i could say what i wanna se
i'd wanna see you go down....on one knee
marry me today, these things i'll never say
June 20th, 2002, 8:41amSup peoples. I know it's been a few weeks since i've lst writted. My appologies. So how is summer treationg everyone? I've been surprizingly busy. I've been working at the pool and now swimming lessons have started this week so I've been getting a few more hours which is nice, unless i work days like today, which is 9:45am to noon, then 12:30 to 5, and then 5:45 to 9. It gets to be kinda long but I do need the money.Summers going kinda fast in a way, Although I'm not really keeping track of the time. I always do that and then i fret about how much summer is left. I don't know why but this year I don't care so much, which is unusual because my senior year is coming up and all. In a way, I kind of wish next year is over, because all I am going to be doing is saying "oh, this is the last time I'll be doing this and this and this and this." and You know how that goes. It's all kinda sad. I hope my senior year is a good one, that's all.
Well I've been going out with friends lately. Me and my boyfriend have been spending alot of time together which is good. I'm in a lot of sports and he usually comes to see me in (vb league and ASA softball) But when I don't I'm usually working or going to other softball games or baseball games. me and Jesse went to one softball game togheter which was alright, it would ahve been more fun if these two idiots weren't there that I can't stand. oh well. Oh, speaking of jess, We got to be really good friends considering it's summer. We usually never talkduging the summer time. But we do alot of MSN.
Last night it was kinda shitty out but me, CAsey, Mitch, me and jesse wanted to do something together cuz we haven't since the last day of school. Sooo. We get a hold of everyone finally and the two boys come up to my house cuz that's were and we just talked. and we get our poop in a group and got in mikes car and went to hardees cuz they were all starving. then we came home and playe dcards the rest of the night with mitch'es parents. That was so god damn fun! They are just like a couple of us kids....they swears, the give shit to eachother, it was great. But casey had to be home at 11. so mitch dropped us all off at my house cuz that's where all there vehicals were and it was fucin pouring and storming and yeah tjhey all booted ass out of there. it was fun. hehe. well that's all. talk to you all soon, have a great summer and enjoy it whiles it's here ;)
lindsay
May 30th, 2002, 12:03 ntHey everyone. Well, I made it out of another year of highschool. THAT IS SCARY! i remember specifically coming home last year and writing about my last day of school...cuz I was obvsessed with Jesse. Well I spend the entire night with him and two people tonight and it was boring, but very interesting in a way, which i will get to in a moment.
But anyways, it is scary to see how fast time goes. Last year at this time my sister was graduating. Next year at this time, I'LL be graduating and it's wierd to think about.
Anyways, tonight. Well me and Casey (friend) and mitch and jesse were tgonna do something. Well Casey and Mitch are kinda togheter these days and I don't really like it cuz she's my best friend....and yeah i had my last best freind taken away by a guy...even tho i have a boyfriend, yeah i sitll hate it. Anyways we were waiting for the boys tonight to be in town (note- feelings for Jesse...still pending..yes, i've kinda wondered about it this long and STILL have a boyfriend) so me and her just drove around. Anyways...Casey goes to me out of the blue- "sometimes I wonder you and Jesse would just go out." and I'm like, WHA? and hse's like yeah that would be so perfect cuz us 4 are always together anyways. An dI'm like yeah but I know he would never date me and he's like I bet he would! and I'm like, nuh uh! he comes to me with all of his girl problems and he's like eyah probably soy ou know what to and what to not do. So OMG. I do NOT know what to think. I don't. This one is too wierd.
Anyways but the rest of the night was boring. Some highlites were shooting Jesse's gun , going to DQ and MCD's looking at cars, walking thru a field, seeing drunk people...oh yeah. It's all been done.
AND tommorrow is my first day of vacation, YaY. No more stress..at least for a while! I just hope Jesse and me can sitll do stuff and I gotta figure out what's gonna happen. Night all!
May 26th, 2002 11:49 pmhey kids. just got home. well tonight was pretty fun. i went to my town's baseball game with some friends and it was fun, although it did start to pour and the game seemed to take FOREVER! one of my friend's lil sisters kept us entertained tho. it was fun! Nicole came after she got done workin and then she went to a party. I had graduations all this afternoon. My boyfriend's cousin who is one of my good friends so i went to hers... but that was my day! pretty borin memorial weekend so far.saw jesse in town a couple nights ago. i haven't talked to him for a bit, i hope i see him this summer tho. HOPEFULLY!:) anyways, gg. have a good one!
lin
May 23, 2002 4:01 pmSo I come home afterschool. I read my horoscope and now more than frakin EVER DO I LIVE BY IT. it's so on. now, read: "When you feel like quitting, think about how great a job will done will help your career. (in this case, me working so fuckin hard last night and wanted to quit SO BAD...but it woulda hurt my grade.) Appreciate everything that's going right in your life. (a-hem....my friend...) Tonight, you'll have a chance to be vulnerable and let others take care of you." I hate planne don bitching tonight to my cousin!
You might all thing this is wierd, but i assure you, it ain't. I just got off the phone with Nicole...we had a chat and i broguht this up and she read hers and she was like, OMG! and she read what's his face's....Jason's? Oh, ok, this is what it said:
"Forgive a family member; it may help everyone. Teach a child to forgive him or herself. You know better than to form a romantic attachment with someone who cannot make any kind of commitment. Give a friend more privacy."
The whole commitment thing was actualy really wierd if you read her journal alot. anyway, go to her diary, i'm sure something will be in there. ;)
later! luv, lin
May 20th, 2002, 11:07PMHAD TO WRITE THIS QUICK: (also from another horoscopr TODAY!)
You're oozing confidence today, and your love life is thriving. Keep your head high and everything will continue to go your way. Don't be surprised if someone confesses they have a crush on you!
oh my dear freaking dog.
May 20th, 2002, 10:03 AMRead This:
You'll win over your love interest with ease. You can get along with a difficult person if if you choose to stay positive. Tender moments shared between friends may bring issues that have never been talked about to the surface this evening.That's my horoscope. WHAT THE HELL! This is scary. Now my horoscope is usualy really accurate, somedays, EXTREMELY ACCURATE! Ok, I have a boyfriend. But I may have a "love interest" and I think we all know who that is. This is scary...This could be bad...I'm gonna spend the whole day wondering what the hell now!
Oh, I'm home right now by the way...I didn't feel like going to one of my classes, so I forged a note and said I was going to the dentist. Ain't I sneaky? So I'm taking a lil break. but I better get goin soon, but I'll write and tell you if my horoscope is right or now....But i'm not sure if i want it to be or not...this could be interesting!!
-lin
May 18th, 2002.
12:07pm(am, whatever)So how's everyone been? I've been good, school's done in two weeks, wow! Prom was 4 weeks ago and that went by SO fast, so i'm sure these next two will just fly by.
I talked to Nicole today. We were just talking about how she's done with school, she'll be a little more active on this site, and hopefully I will too. It's just another thing for me to worry about durin the year, and I have so much to do already!! She also was givin me crap about my journal. she told me it was "blaah." well go to hell, Nicole. haha, I'm just teasin. But ok, yeah I'm sorry my entries have been so ugadsf, haha, (new word i guess.) but I will start filling out a little more thoroughly from now on. It' sjust that I'm usually in a hurry when I write, so I write things, and then I kinda leave them there without putting any real thought into it. But I'll get better, I promise ;)
So anyways, my weekend wasn't too bad. I got out of school early Friday because I was suppose to go to a wedding, only to find out that I wasn't invited, haha. So my parents actually ended dumping me and my lil sis off at my big sisters. It was pretty fun actually, I as expecting to do a few more things, but all in all it was pretty fun. I like her appt, so that was all good.
REmember last year how I always wrote stuff about Jesse in here? Well I know I haven't for a while, but yeah. I dunno, this year we just got SO CLOSE. I mean, I thought we were pretty close last year, but it was nothign compared to this year. I mean, everything...I wore his jersey for homecoming, we started hanging out more, going to movies together (with other ppl too) um, going to basketball games, I dunno. It's just fun. Sometimes it's like We're with eachother forever and then we don't talk for a few days and it totally creeps me out, like he's gettin sick of me. And he says thats not the reason, but sometimes I have to wonder. He liek tells me stuff abouat his gf, me about my bf, so we're good buddies and he's like lin your one of the few damn friends that i have. But then like, for two nmonthes we stopped hanging out, and kinda stopped talking. like he always use to talk to me on msn and that kinda stopped. Thank god it's better now tho...i dunno why but he started to talk to me again...and me and him went cruisin thursday together and he talkedo to me on msn when i was at my sister and said he dind't know where i was cuz he was gored and wanted to go drivin... I dunno I just like the feeling that he likes me as a friend c(he just signed online..but he prolly won't talk to me cuz it's late) anyways where was i...oh and then tonight he was in town and he liked waved to me and everything cuz he was with mitch...so after a few whips i pulled him over and we talked...cuz i was with some friends too so it was good. I just don't wanna make it seem slike i'm to into him cuz i think maybve that's what scared him off before....I don't know, you might think that I'm a little too into this, but the truth is, I use to be in love with this kid. I mean obsessed...like since the end of 7th grade until....well it's kinda never really ended.. i've always had a crush. But i've gone thru some majorfriend changes over the years...so back then, me and him never really talked... i mean i had sh with him in 8th grade, bio in 9th, health last year and this year no classes and we're so tight. I dunno! This may sound corny but I serioulsy feel blessed to have him as a friend...cuz i've wanted that since 7th grade and i got it. and not manyt people get that chance and actually get what they dream for. i'm really lucky.
Ok, so that's my corny journal entry. HOPEFULLY it's good enough for Nicole standards, haha. night all!
May 9th, 2002.
10:52pmOk so it's been since 2001 since i've written! MY JUNIOR YEAR IS ALMOST GONE. It's amazing. i'll be a senior next year and holy shit. Well Things have been a little rocky with brandon...we almost broke up twice but thigns are better now. I love him, he is just so paranoid.
I went to prom :) last 20th, if that makes sence. I went to Brandon's prom that day, and mine on the 27th. It was fun... my dress was sky blue, a halrter and it had this silver design on it. Pretty rad. haha.
Sooo i'm sorry i'm tired and i'm not gonna write longer. haha how's that for strait forward? seeya yall!! i'll write soon. :)
February 15th, 2001
11:35Oh my wow. I know i have no written in so very long and i'm sorry but my puter has been a abitch.
But anyways. Life for me is just so wonderful right now...honestly. EVerything is just fun. tonight me and my friends shane michael sandra and me went to our girls bball game, went to hardees, came hom and drove, and laughed really hard. (little kids on the corner) "WERE GOING ROUND IN CIRCLES!" it was great.
I'm jut excited for everything. Prom is coming up and it' gonna be my first and i'm all exciting. i think i'm going to nicole's on sunday and monday to dress shop (no school- presidents day) so i'm pretty stoked.
anyways that's jut a lil of whats happening. seeya!
DEcember 8th, 2001
9:47amWell, this week was a fun one! I did alot of stuff actually. Ok, on Monday there was the band concert thing I was suppose to go to with my friend dani. well i was talking on msn to jesse and mitch, and i got them to come along with us. I didn't think jesse would at first, but i finally got him too! Anyway. So jesse picked me and dani up, and then we went to pick up mitch. well, we decided that since we were all togheter, we should just fuck the band thing and just dick around. So we did.
So, we decided to have osme fun with some people's snowman. WE knocked a few down around town. It was hilariouse. Well, mike did most of it, jesse couldn't cuz he had just had surgery that previouse thursday. Oh yeah, we went to visit him too! Haha, that was kinda fun...he's so damn cute. And Funny! like you wouldn't believe. Anyways, inbetween knocking over snow and stuff like that, the mentioned to us that they wanted us to come to their wresling match the next day.So, the next night it was so FUCKING fogging out i couldn't believe me eyes, but we went anyways. We were suppose to bring jesse a 9 piece chicken nugget from mcd's since he couldn't wrestle, and hew as gonna sit by us. So we got the food and got to the school....but we had to shove the bad of foon up Dani's coat...everyone thought she was pregnant! I laughed sooo hard...it was great. We finally gound jesse's sister who cheerleads and she got him for us while we waited outside the gym cuz we didn't pay yet. So he startes talking to us and he's smileing, and he comes up to me and puts his arm on me and talks for a bit, then we finally pay and went inside and sat by him.
It kinda sucked cuz when Mitche wrestled, he got his ass kicked... and he was so pumped too! It was too bad...and he takes things like that so hard. So when he was done, Jesse went over and talked to him and I could see he was showing him some of the things he shoud've done...That's what I love about jesse, he's so admirable, I mean, some people think he's the biggest cock and asshole, but he really is the nicest guy and the nicest friend anyone could have! It's so cute, those two are like brothers.
We did win the meet tho! Y a Y us. Jesse's like gime high fives, we fucking won. It was funny. So we talk4ed to jesse for a while after the match and then to the cheerleaders, then we headed home...but not after a few laps around their damn parking lot! haha, it was funny! Then when we got home, I had to pick up my sister@ school..and we talked to him again, the coach was pissing him off because he was complaingine about his stiches coming out of his leg....can be an asshole I guess. But anyway, that was that exciting night.Thursday, me and my friend Bridgette rented Pearl Harbor. I love that damn movie! I love it but I hate it. We bawled, of course.
Last night was fun as hell too...Me and danielle went up to our boy's basketbal game, and Mitch, Jesse, my friend Matt and this one wierd girl were working in the concession stands. It was funny cuz they weren't taking it seriously, surprize surprize. So their like giving us free shit and everything! It was funny.
They asked us what was going on, and we said we didn't know, so we asked them, and jesse's like, well that's why we're asking you. So they said there were done working after the theird quarter and then they were gonna leave. So we left and then went ot the store cuz i needed some bandaids, but then ended up buying a shitload of candy. So I left my keys in my car.
Big mistake.
So we get out of the store, and I didn't even see anyone take my car. So I walk out, and we parked RIGHT in front of the damn store! So i'ml ike "Dude, where's my car!?!" haha it was funny. Then I'm like, ok those dicks took it! I didn't think they'd be done so soon but they were. So i look to my right and in between these shiity old buildings, I see jesse and his car shipping shittys, and then i HEAR my car. So i'm like, GIVE ME MY CAR BACK!!! so they eventually finally stopped. So we talked for a bit, and tried to find something to do cuz mike had to be back early cuz of wrestling this morning. SO jesse's like, why don't you guys follow us for a while, then meet at yourhouse. So they led us on a wild goose chase for a good 10 minutes, then finally went to my house. WE took my car and I drove, and they just about had a fit. THey always make fun of my driving! So after like 5 minute, they made me sit in the back while mitch drove. I got out of the car, and jesse kinda laughed and was like, ok she's pissed. so i went in the back and slammed the door! and jesse's like honestly, i am scared to drive with you! I put my damn seatbelt on! and i'm like, are you really scared to drive with me!? and he's like YES! so god manit! haha anyways we got back to town and dropped mitch off and it was just dani me and jesse and i was just driving us around town. Then it was wierd cuz like no one talked really. well me and jesse did, dani really didn't. jesse yelled at me again for going to fast up main street and for my stopping, and he woudl just look at me and laugh, like, "see..." so after a while he's like, ok let me drive and i'll show you what you do. So he did and while i was getting out he lokoed at me and just smiled and laughed cuz he knew he was making me mad! but yeah, then he drove for a while, then he had to go. It was pretty boring, but at least it was something to do!!
November 18th, 2001
8:24 amSO I kinda went out on a date last night with jesse...not really a date. My friends cassie and mitch are kinda toghetr, not really tho. anyways, he's cassie's bday so we went out. it was so fun!! they make me laugh so much. I don't know anymore if I like jesse or what is going on, but yesterday it was his 1yr and 9 mo. anniversary with his gf and he was out with me instead. As for brandon...he was gone.
The night all started when we called the guys and we were wonderig what was all going on, and they both had to shower and shit from hunting, so we figured just to meet at my house. now, jesse lives 10 minutes away and mike lives like 5 blocks away, and jesse got to my house a half hour sooner than mitch. anyways so jesse came and we watched tv...well, football once he had the remote.
My sister was on the phone iwth me when he came and she was giving me all this shit..it was kinda funny but i thikn he knew she was taking about him. ANYWAYS. Mitch came and we figured out that cassie wanted cecream, so we drove a 1/2 hour away to go to mcdonalds. we went in and me and mitch werne't hungrey so just cassie and jesse ordered stuff. Jesse's a pig dude! he's so cute, he got a 9 pc. chicken nugget and a mcflurry and zip just got a mcflurry. mike was like, I need a nickel. and we are all like, um, yeah, for what?? so he showed us. he would spin the nickel thing and then slam the salt shaker on top of it so it so it would break. and it worked after the thrid time. they got a kick out of it anyways. then came storytime! mitch goes to us, yeah one night i sucked on one of these things. and jesse would just crack up. and me and cas were like, ok we don't get it... so they went on to tell the story of how they were at section wrestling and how they were running back from mconalds to their car cuz it was raining and it was icy outside. so jesse slipped and fell on his ass and he icecream went flying everywhere, and all of his friends gave him shit, esp, mitch. ("cocksucker!" ) so that night when they were back, and mitch was brushing his teeth or something, they gave him back his mcdonalds spoon. and then all the guys started laughing at him...and one of them said that it was down his pants for the last two mintues. ("You shoulda seen his face..") It was hilariouse seeing them laugh so hard...it really was. oh yeah, the guys at mcd's wante dout numbers too and i think mitch was going to give them outs....but he didn't.
Anyways so we left there and the boys wanted to look thru some carlots. so they got out and liked and we took mitches car for a spin. it was fun. then i don't know what they were doing, but jesse told mitch to spit in his spoon and he was gonna fling it out the window. so he tried...and it went right by the window. We thought it was gross but they just thought it was hilariouse. Then we headed over to walmart to dick around. jesse cell started rioning and it was his friend ryan. so jesse answers and he's like, "WERE JUST FUCKING AROUND IN WALMART....WHAT? WE ARE FUCKING AROUND IN WALMART RIGHT NOW." and all these people look at ghim. it was hilariouse, but we just kinad walked away. anyways, when he was done, we heard this voice like a little kid saying, "WAIT FOR ME! WAIT FOR ME!" and it was jesse and he was literally running toward us like a retard. then he relizaed that he had spit on his jeans so he tried to wipe it on me. didn't work tho. so were were lookin at cd's and stuff like and me and cas just wondered around by outselfs for a while. and then we spotted the guys talking to some other dicks from our town, so they went outside to talk and we paid for out cool keychains! yeah dude. after that we took a lap around the town and tried to figure out what to do....then we found something...we went bowling. yeah i know. it was so freaking funny that we did that cuz it was the shittiest bowling alley ever.it was like 2 bucks per game!! so anyways we went in there and talked to the guy and got our shoes and we had a practice round for the guys to see who was better. then jesse's like, lets have teams! and mitch is like yeah us guys vs. you girls. and jesse goes, no, me and lindsay! so those were our teams. it was fun and i actually din't suck! i got alot of striks and spares and everything. i know. Jesse is actually a good bowler. he says he profesiional i guess. but anyways, he ended up getting 144, i got 122, mitch got 101, and cas got 52. so yeah we won. we were giving hi fives and everything. haha it was fun. us girls had to pay for them cuz they left their money in the car...hmm, on purpouse perhaps!?
so after we left that place we went driving again and we found some of mitch and jess's friends that we don't like and some ugly chicks right in burger kings parking lot. so mitch was gonna get out and he slams his fucking finger in the door. it was hilarious and jesse could not stop laughing. mitch gets out and is like goddamnit! lol it was so funny. but me and cas got cold and she wanted a hamburger so we went inside. it was funny...
Anyways so we lefdt to go back to town where jack shit was going on. we drove around for a while and i was like, we don't have to drive around we can do something else so mike parks his car next to this building just to be a udmbass and we all just sit there. we were tired! so yea after that i had to be home. that was my night!
November 16th, 2001
11:53pmWell overall today was a pretty good day! My best friend's brother Dustin was home, so afterschool us three went out to lunch. He is so funny! I miss him like crazy. He is a hottie and kinda like a brother to me. So he was telling me about his ex girlfriend and how she is a bitch now and all of this. He has gotten mighty fine lately tho...he's growing his hair out and everything!
Anyways. So then I got home and I signed on to MSN. and my friend Mike started talking to me and he said, What up doc? And I was thining, that sounds like jesse cuz it's exactly what he wrote to me the night before or something. anyways, so they had to be at this party for a while and then they told me they would call me. So me and my friends bridget and cassie waited for them and we went cruising and found my friend randy and josh, so they pulled us over and got in with us. It was so fun! they always make fun of the way I drive and my car... Know why? I'm a goo ddriver damnit. I am. So they wanted to see how fast my car would go, so i went into this open road and went really fast. so we see this cone. bridget wanted to get it so i flipped a shitty so she could get it and everything. it was hilariouse...
So jesse and mike finally get a hold of us. at about that time we were up at my house just chillin and getting drinks and stuff so they came up. so we watched tv for a while and they were chuckin stuff at me and it was funny. then we somehow got onto the topic of dogs. and their barks. WOOFING and RARFING. it turned into a big "lets make fun of Lin," kinda night and they went at it all night long. it was pretty fun tho. anyways so they all wanted to get in my car again. so we went out to the country for a while and shit arounded. Mike was driving my car and he scared me by telling me that the transmission was going out. so he would like put the car in nuetral and would rev it up just to scare me. the dicks did a good job too! it was freaking scary! so we got out to take a breather cuz we had 7 ppl cramed into my lil car and jesse came up to me and put his arm around me and was like, andrea settle down! and i'm like no! it was scary! but it was all in good fun. He would say something like, I swear thi sis... and I'm like, dude, how many times have you told me thaT!! "I swear there is such a thing as blinker fluid...I swear there is a muffler belt..." and he just laughed. He is SUCH A sweethart tho. We have had some really really good convos.
So after al of that excitement we went back to my house and sat around. We "kinda" layed by eachother...oh man how i was feeling that.
Boys smell so good...they do!
Have a great night!
lindsay
November 13th, 2001
9:44 pmI just got back from my friend Josh's house. It sad, he's moving on Thursday. He's always been kinda of a prick to me but in a good way, ya know? I'm gonna miss him. He leaves on Thursday.
Me and Jesse have been close lately. It's all good tho, i think...
That's all that's new, I think. If i remember anything else I'll be sure to update. :)
November 11th, 2001
8:56pmYou got it bad when you're out with someone, but you keep on thinking of somebody else...you got it bad..."
Something's up with me lately. It seems like all I do these days is be with and around Jesse. I don't know why but I am. We're always talking to eachother on MSN for hours and hours...he came to my house the other night too... I don't know if he likes me or not though? It's so hard to tell because he's like this with alot of girls...ugh who knows.
I went to my first college party. yup...i know. Me and ash and bridge after state vb. I got kinda drunk. It was a wierd state of drunk tho...I like, cried. To my friend Jusitn who's party it was. Me and branda are having problems...I love him honestly, but all i do sometimes is think about jesse. I know it's so wrong but i do...I don't mean too! It's just that Brandon gets so mad at me and I don't know why. He doesn't like my friends that much so I lied about who I was going to state with and he got pissed. then he found out i went to a party and i got drunk. it's a big deal to him because his dad was an alcholic...so that night he went out drinking. it's so scary.
life can get so complicated. :/.
October 12th, 2001
12:39amI've been eating so much lately. Honestly. We got out frozen food orders in and all I have been eating is mozerella sticks and sthit like that. plus candy cuz tonight we had a football game. We lost by ONE! it sucks cuz we've only one once this year and that was the very first game way back in august.
Nothing much exciting has been happening tho. Today in the library after lunch me and Jesse were looking thru these candle magazines where yiou can order stuff and he used me as his footstool. It was cute. He got to play again today! (two weeks ago he got hurt). Somthign with his knee...so he played a bit tonight which is cool.
other than that not much is happening here. talk to ya;; later!
October 3rd, 2001
4:17pmIt's our homecoming week! it has been AWESOME lately!Lately I've been really really good friends with Jesse and it has just been a blast. Sunday night, I was was suppose to go cruising with about six people, but 2 of them had to go to this one thing at their church. So me, jesse and out friend mike went driving around and around and around that whole night! it was so fun! They were being so nice to me...jesse asked me if i wanted anything and everything..it was just fun. We went into the gas station like 2 times and it was just fun...we looked at some cars. I found out that he likes those one "lego" cars as I call them. Then he said he needed to fill up with gas and i told him i'd give him some but i only had $4. he then laughed.,..prick, haha. so i insisted that he took and and then i bitched that he was steaing from me. it was funny! we chased around this one dork from our grade, too. it was funny. we actually had a civil talk to about this one girl who we both really don't like but we pretend we do. sn't that nice?
Well of course they had that one song "Put it in your mouth" blastin and Mike (who is a bit perved) was like, Lin, would you ever like anyone blow it in your mouth? and i'm like what? and he goes, would you like anyone blow it in your coochie?! and i'm like what the fuck kind of a question is that? and then him and jesse said something....and I'm like ohmygod, they know something they shouldn't (long story) so 'm like, you fuckers know something! and they both looked at eachother and started laughing, and they were like, WHAT?! and i'm like oh shit! and i'm like ok nevermind and their like no what the hell id that mean? you gotta tell us! and i'm like it's ntohing! so they kept bugging me about that, and then they said they weren't gonna talk to me for the rest of that night, so they were actin like retards and were beign like mimes just to piss me off..jesse put on his sunglasses pretending like it was bright outside even though it was like 9:30...we kept driving past that one church too to see if our friends were done there. Well we got pissed of waiting for them so mike wanted to be taken home so jesse dropped him off and i got in the front. and he's like, do you wanna play racecar? and i'm like um no! so he floors it untill he got to a stopsign. then he's like, wanna play racecar again? an di'm like ummm and then he floored it again. it was crazy. so he starts driving kidna by my house and he' slike, you said you'd walk home right? like he wasn't gonna stop. and he's like, i'm jk. oh, he also yelled at me for slamming his door to hard or soemtihng, so i'm liike i'll try not to break your door off this time. it was fun.
Now, last night was corronation. It was so funny! the skits were funny. They ahd all these little kids making fun of our one math teacher. it was great. then they did something new for the homecoming royalty,they had their parents share an embarassing moment about them. omy friend adam who was up for king (and also won king, go adam go!) his favorite thing to do when he was little was "to sit on the curb and wait for the garbage man to come. He admire the guys who rode on the back. He wanted to be a garbage man when he grew up because he couldr ide on the back of the truck too." it was hilariouyse! everyone clapped for him.
anyways. When i first got there, i sat by my friend heidi and by mike and jesse. THey started giving me shit about my little "thing" the night before. I'm like, jesse do i get defensive? and he's like, yeah!!! i'm like whatever! then mike asked me if we ere going to perkins afterswards. i dind't know so i asked him if he was, and he said he would if we did. we had powder puff after the ceremony first though.
So we played football..that was an experience in itself. the seniors won ofcourse..and afterwards we got our poop in a group and got in mikes car.
We beat everyone outta there! he was going like 75 the whole way there (it's a 1/2hour drive) and when we got there there was a sign on the door explaining that it was closing at 11 that night. it was 10:45 when we got there. so our waitress was nice and seated us, then some old bitch came over and told us that they ere close at 11. Jesse goes, "no your not." haha. he's like, well theres about 30 other people coming here in a bit. and she's like, we are CLOSING at 11. we're likeoooook bitch, settle. then the two morons ask us what we would give them it they drank all of those little cream things on the table. Jesse downed one and mike chicken out. so we owed J 50c. It was fun just going and eating with them...it was quite amusing. some of our other friends started to come and we takled to him after they litterealy got kicked out of perkins. so everyone that was going to go there had to go to McD's or somewhere. most of the people went back to the bar/resteraunt in our town. the way home was funny, we were making fun of all the people walking! it was funny.
we got back to town laster and a lot of other stuff happened on the way ghom ei'm sure, but i just can't remember. but yeah. it was a good time!
That's all that' happening right now...I'll update soon!
Septbember 21, 2001
12:27amI had the best day today! It was awesome! Ya know how I never see Jesse cuz of classes...well 2 period I would around te school picking up attendance and I saw him and a bunch of people from SH going to the library. I didn't talk to them all but when I was delivering bulletins I saw him in there...then I had to go back upstairs and do this whole other hallway where his studyhall is and he came out of the bathroom just smiling like he always does when he sees me...I'm thinking he went in there so when I came up there I'd get to talk to him. anyways, he was just msiling...and i'm like ok what! and then i asked him if I was wearing his football jersey for homeocming both on the mponday night and on the friday night and he's like, i don't give a shit! and i'm like well your so darn popular! and he's like year! then I had to go deliver the rest. then at lunch hour we always go back into the library after we're done eating. I was in the the whole lunch time cuz lunch is gorss and i was looking thru one of my friend's photobooks. so he sat down RIGHT next to me and was looking at the too...i wouldnt let them see any of the bad ones of me tho. so he' slike give me them! and im' like ooooh what are ya gonna do? and he's like you won't have a football jersey to wear! and i'm like no you won't do that! your not that mean! and he goes well everyone else thinks i'm an asshole. and i'm like you aren't an asshole! and then later he saw something about him being an ass and i don't know why! then after that we started walking back to class and i was wakling with my friend mike and we weret alking about when we wrestled on the tramp and jesse like stopped to see what we were talking about and asking all these dumb questions...it was quite funny tho!! THEN. after school i was just cruising around cuz they had a football game tonight, so I knew they'd be around. anyways I was going down main street and i saw him and mike turning off mike's street onto main so they were 2 cars behind me. i was on the route now and i must have taken a corner kinda rough. so when i turn again I met them and he's like putting his arms out like a stopp motion and he's like, holy shit you drive like a bat out of hell! and i'm just like yeah ok whatever! and he' like you do! and i'm like no i don't! and he's like well your tires squelled before and i go really? he's like yeah...i'm like cool. so i sat there and he was eating something that looked like a cookie and then he goes well theres a guy behind so i'll seeya later so we drove off.
THERES MORE (you know who you are who wants to read this) I was just driving around later at like 5ish cuz i had to pick up my sister from volleybal practice. I was downtown hioping to see him and i did...then he went strait cuz they talked to mikes mom. So i went around the long way and I came up by the grocery store and I saw them on main, and then all of a sudden they turned. i was like yeeeees! so i rolled down my window and i had a sucker stick in my mouth! and he goes, "hey what are you doing? what are you eating!" an di'm like, nothing! and he's like well what do you have for food in there? so i'm lookign around and i'm like, ummm nothing! and he' slike ok seeya! and he drove up a little bit and i'm like, god! jerks! so they laughed. and i'm like well i have suvkers back at my house and jesse goes that's ok i gotta go get mike's shit and gotta be at the football field soon. so i'm like ok, goodluck guys! and he' slike, yeah thanks! and drove off. god it was just the best day.
I watched the first half of their game and then went to my bf's fb game...it's was hard to concentrate! hehe. talk to ya later!!
September 19th, 2001
4:49"Everybody wants you, Everybody loves you..." Wow it's been a while! School is going good...everything has been fun!! Hmmm. The friday b efore school started I went to a football game like an hour away with some friends...that was pretty fun. After that we came back to town and I drove around with some of my guy friends. Their so much fun!! I spent the weekend after that getting ready for school. I can't believe we've been in for two weeks already!! Not last frieday, but the friday before that I had to work at a football game for HOSA. It was actually my boyfriends' school because We have joint classes for HOSA. I got together with some of my friends from softball and it was a mighty good time!!
Ok. I've been kinda confused lately. Ya know that one guys, Jesse? (read below for history). I don't know what I feel for him...I think i'm starting to feel something for him. He's just so irreresistable. (sp) I don't have any classes with him in shcool so when I do see him I try to make the most out of it. I don't know if he likes me...the way he acts I'd think so...just the way hewaves at me when he drives by me and everything...it's different from other girls. I'm wearing his jersey for homecoming...I'm sure Brandon won't care....as long as he doesn't pick up that I liek him. The bad thing is brandon's team and Jesse's team is the team we play for homecoming...not good. but this guys...its like in mandy moor'e song cruysh, everybody loves him and everybody wants him..it's so true. He's just one of those boys.
Another dude I've been getting to be close with is this Mike dude...one of my best friends likes him and he likes this other girl, crissy. We've been hanign out alot and he's just hot and cool and funny! I love hanging out with him, he makes things so fun. (don't get any ideas in your head.)
Friday our guys had a football game an hour away so my friends Heidi, allison, and Julia went and Jules drove. That was quite fun!! it was awesome actually. We had some good talks on the way there. It was all cold and drizly out (which i think are the best for fb games) so we had home chocolate and blankets on the way up. When we got there it was raining but it's so fun when it rains. At halftime we were gonna go get some consessions and Julia was suppose to be getting 50c back and she dropped her change in the relish for hotdogs!! it was so funny! so she was fighthign with the guys in there...then Allison accidentally order 4 chips and cheese instead of hot choco...so we just left and ran back to the field!
The ride home was hilariouse! We followed the bus home and we requested songs for the QB from this bitch in a grade beliw us, cuz she has this crush on him and they actually played it on the radio! it was awesome. Then that night, me heidi, got in with our friends johnny, mike and randy and frove around...then it was me heidi and mike, then just me and mike. I didn't get home till 1 that night! whoops!
That's about all that's happeneinng!!! I'll write again soon and keep yall updated :)
August 24th, 2001
11:48pmTonight was so much fun!! holy shit. ok, well I was driving around with my friends ashley, heidi, bridget and me. I had to drop ashley and bridget off early so it was just me and heidi. Bridget's bf bryan was with my friend jesse and two other dudes after this one football cookout thing. anyways, we were cruising and we thought they were in a fight with some dudes so we drove on. then we were turning out of ot school parking lot (our cruist route) and they stop and bryan was driving and jesse was in front. so people were behind us so i was like, meet me back there and we'll talk. so we went around the block a couple timesna dwe couple find them so we went around the route. we see them talking to a few people in the corner. so we kept on driving. by the time we got back by the school, we were coming right by them so they told us to go in this one parking lot. so we got there and we all got out. heidi was putting bry's number into her cell phone. anmyways, i was talking to the guys about some dude in a green truck who had been chasing them. so then a cop pulls us and bry's like, we can't loider here? and the cop goes, no here. go to Len's. (a busness place) so I'm like fuck that, just go to my house cuz we could talk there. so they followed me to the short drive to my house. anyways i flipped a shitty in my big drivieway which is covered by trees and i came close to bry's car and he's like, watch it! so i parked between some trees. we all got out and started talking. now I don't remember if you know the stuff about jesse and me...at the end of the year. if not, scroll untill you can read it. anywho. so we're like all talking and jesse goes to me, when are ytou gonna get a boyfriend and buy a car with him? i'm like isn't that so pathetic! (BIG INSIDER) then they started talking about football and these tshirts and how some idiot wanted to print"come out and see what happens" on it. it was hilariouse they way they told it. anyways so they started looking into my sisters car and someone goes, i think it was jesse, he says, "i wanna go for a ride." i'm like, in my car? and he's like sure i don't care! so six freaking people get in my litte car. i was drivign and heidi was in front and then the boys in the back. it was cramp. it was funnny cuz they were telling me to chase all these people. oh i had to drive through my lawn and they were like, dude this little car has guns! anyways bryan wanted a pop so we stopped at some pop machines and they all get themselves some pop and then we started dribving. we got to this corner and bryan's like, just let me out. so het gets out and we're like ok! so we're at a four way stp and no one was making a move to drive. so i just gun it. i was driving around and jesse said he wanted to drive my car, so i'm like ok. so he getsin and he' slike holy shit how could you drive this thing! i'm like yeah whatever! so we were going around this curb on this street where these railroad tracks are and he almost runs into them so i'm like holy shit dude! and he's like waoh yeah i better watch this. it was funny. after that we went and tried to find bryan and we didn't for a while, and then later we found him by the corner again. so he gets in and i'm fucking byt he Ebrake. now we go past this cop and i'm like shit! so i tell jesse to drive our asses back to the fucking house. and then bryan is like, i'll get in the fucking trunck right now! so jesse startes turning and we're like go home! so we went back to my house and their' dicking aroudn with my trunk and they were seriously gonna ride in it...so bry goes, ok lets take my car cuz the trunk is bigger. so we took their car, and sure as shit, they were in the trunk. it was so funny! i had shotgun and jesse was driving. god it was funny. we could hear them laughing and singing along to our songs and stuff. then dusty (on of the guys with him) farted and so he's like oh shit! so we pull over on this one block and then these other two guys came and we all got out and talked...then some other people came and then they started to leave cuz the cops were on their ass. after we were talking to them we all squished in the backseat and cruised for a bit....it was so freaking fun.
July 30th, 2001 11:00 pmWell I just got back from out annual town festival. It was so gay. I wanted Nic to fcome out but she's out at her cousin's "Water Days" Exciting...hehe. Anyways. Some girls from my softball team came over to my house to pick me up. We had some time to spare so they stayed @ my house for a while. We just talked in my room for a bit. I showed them my froggie and my fishies on my desk. anyways. brandon called me a few times and told me we should probably get goiong so we did. He was being kinda of a dick to me. He like, would ignore me and not touch me or rarely talk to me. He got kinda mad when I was with my friends. I don't know what his problem is. Maybe he feels unwated or something but it was like this the whole night. It just confuses me. anyways, i was kinda sick of putting up with his bullshit so i went on this retarded ride with my friend jon. that was semi- entertaining. hmm. Anyways.
My mom's at indiana at my grandmas. thought you'd like to know.
My dog's "about dead" lol.
bye! lol
July 27th, 2001
9:54amI know, I haven't written forever. There IS a reason! Everyday this week I had to drive my little sister a half hour away so she could get in her hours for behind the wheel. *(She claims she's one of the dude's best drivers. Whatever. I am. lol.)* Also, I've been spending some times iwth my cousins. The other night we played basketball with my cousin's and their boyfriends, and then played Battle of the Sexes. Then the night after we tented out in my friends tent.
Damn't, Today I gotta work. ARG! It sucks!!
July 1, 2001
11:01 pmHoly Crickets!
Woah, huh? That's the funniest thing I've ever seen. Justin Makes a pretty ugly girl...Hmm Britney doesn't make a bad boy...lose the lipstick and the eye shit..she'd be a regualr Michael Jackson!
Wow. It's July. And what a dull July so far... Last night I had to work. It really sucked...we were PRAYING it would rain so we could close the pool. Well...we got our wish. In fact...we got HAMMERED. We couldn't exactly close until we saw lighting. But we were running around like chickens with our heads cut off trying to find the umbrellas that hook to our chairs, controllers on the slide...it was a mess. My manager left the top of her convertable down and she was all freakin out, and i forget i had my windows down. ahh well, we closed early none the less.
Today then I got called back to work. It was cold as hell. We all had "torpeado nipples" Lol, right amy, bridge, and casey? Oh yeah.June 26th, 2001
Hey everyone. I haven't written in a while. Tonight I had a softball game. well to be honest, our team sucks. I did pretty well thoug considering the team we played. i actually slide too!! with shorts on. it was kinda cool and i was safe!! yay me. anyway, brandon was there. he was talking to some of his other friends. he was joking with me on how i owuld be complaining the rest of the night sayign my leg would hurt and my boob would hurt and how i would want a massage after that slide. i do,...but i won't admit it :)
Lin June 13th, 2001
How's everyone? Summers been treating me pretty well. It's been kinda stormy lately but it's cool. lets see what have i been up too. on Monday my sister was registering for college...i had the WHOLE house to myself. they left at 5:15 in the morning and i couldn't go back to sleep that morning so i got up. i went outside and sat. Why? i don't know. then at like 6 i started to make pancakes for me and my little sister. lucky for me, it was the time where all the timothy mcveigh shit was on tv. so i watched it. it wasn't very fun. later on that day i did nothing practically. drivign around. i saw my boyfriends car at his friends' mike's. they went a-campin. hehe. anyways yesterday i went to the dntist. my fucking mouth hurt the rest of the day! if ya think they cold be a little gentle when they floss ya. then me and my sisters came home and my lil siswent rock picking for my cousin. i was suppose to go but...i just didn't feel like it :). they came back and i got to see my little cousins while jill went to the doctor with her daughter.
it's been crappy out lately. kinda stormy. it was lightling real bad last night when i was wathcing "meet the paretns" at my friends' house. this morhing i had to get a shot :/ for my job at the pool. so did my sister. we've been getting along really well lately...i think because of college comeing. anyway we both get to work today, yay. hehe. well i gotta gets goings. bye!!!lin
June 7th, 2001
it's hard to believe i've been out of school a week already. Today was the first day at the pool. i was still in training so it was pretty easy. actually it's probably the easiest job i've done in my entire life! I saw jesse a couple times today, he just dorve by the pool a couple times. i think now that schools out and i don't see him as much it takes my mind off him more and i can concentrate more on brandon :)Graduation was sunday. my sister graduated so we got up early and we saw thatt he tent was up in our yard, and we had to set tables and everything.
Her speech was good, everyone's was. it was pretty good graduation. At the reception i saw ALL these peopl i hadn't seen in forever. My old babysitter came. it was awesome to see her again.that's about as exciting as it gets around here. hope those who are out of school have fun this summer ! :)
Lindsay
June 1, 2001
WOW.So todays the last day of school. It's over with! God what a day...It was just awesome.
I'm a bit confused tho... I just feel wierd right now. I think I'm falling for my good guy friend Jesse. He's just so...irresistable. I don't know what is up with me? I mean I have always thought he was hot..since like 7th grade. But it's like he's starting to notice ME now too. It was just an awesome day...We spent it being by eachother and flirtin. and god forgive me, I have a boyfriend who I adore but there is just osmething about him. Here is what we all did together today (as if you care...hey, gimma break..i acn't TELL anyone this from my class or they'll get on my back)2nd period (my first class with him)
This was computer class...It was awesome. A bunch of us friends were gonna play cards cuz our teach was awesome and we couldn't use the internet today. So we all played Phase 10. I really didn't know how to play but I told everyone to deal me in anyway. So Jesse walks in and is like "Phase ten..this game is so easy" so I'm like "jesse come help me then!" so he comes over and helps me for a bit and then is like, "I'll be back, I gotta do my homework for that class" so he's gone for like 2mintues then comes back and hands in his folder. Hmm...Could it be he just wanted to play with me? hehe. So he pulls up a chair RIGHT next to me. (keep in mind he was wearing a beater ALL day ;)And he practically kept me winning...all I did was practically draw for him, but he kept my name under the score. Ooooh yeah. This one kid he HATES, like, split his pants. (we call him fatty) that kid was such a bully tho, he totally deserved it. so He looks at me when everyone was laughing and is like, "yeah that fat ass." it was so funny! Then It was my turn to deal. and I was like, I hate shuffling! and everyone though I said shoveling...whatever. so I wad dealing amd this other dude, josh was taking all of my friend anna's cards. So jesse's like, "can you go any faster?!" like just teasing me. He's just so cute. Then he was just explaining to me what I all need to lay down and what phase I was on and everything. It was just perfect. Then after playing for like 25 mintues, he said he got sick of playin cards, then went to talk to some of his buddies. That class hour soon ended :( I LOVED THAT CLASS! WE ALWAYS BONDED DURING IT. *sniff*. anyway.3rd period (english) Well first, we have this huge bitch for teacher. I mean we ALL hate her. anyway she made us do this worthless worksheet. then the rest of the hour was practically ours to do whatever we wanted. So after I handed in my thing, I was talking to my friends randy and andy (no joke...) and just drawing tatoos on them and stuff. They're obsessed with them. And eveyone else, like Jesse and his friend mark and Justin are always playing with these rubber band things as slingshots. So we all move by my other friends so we have this huge circle going. and Jesse and mark were just playing with their rubber bands and they were RIGHT behind me, so i wasn't surprize when I got SHOT by one...so I turned around and jesse was facign the other way, acting all innocent and mark was just kinda laughing. so i'm like, k, who did that! ya know..and mark said it was jesse and he SWORE it wasn't him. even in history he was saying it wasn't him. but anyway i went back to the convo i was hacing with my friends, and I was joking with randy that he could get me a puppy for my birthday and he could name it "Bear". Then jesse comes out of no where and says, why don't you just get a "dog and name it dog?!" and I go, "why don't I just get a dog and name it fox?!" (BIG insider) and he's like, "why don't you get a fox and name it dog!?" then he went back to shooting rubberbnads. then I was drawing and writing on Andy again and Jess goes really quitely to me "write, 'I have a small penis'" on his arm. so I wrote "I have a small one" and j's like, do you know that's that's permenent marker?? it was just funny. That was pretty much the end of 3rd Hour.
4th period (my last class with him :( Histoy)
This was the hour that we cleaned out lockers and everything. So the first thing we did was turn in books. (keep in mind,my four clsotest bf's are also int this class)After that he shot a rubber band at me and I'm like "ok jesse! thanks!" and he's like, "that was for accusing me for hitting you last hour!" and I was like "you did!" and he' slike "no i didn't...but find don't believe me." It was kinda cute the way he was kinda sulking that i dind't believe him. Then we went to clean out lockers. So he had this huge garbage can thingy right by his locker so he could just throw all the stuff over there. So We all had to trapes over there everything we wanted to throw something away. I can't remember what he all did, but I just remember we were both throwing stuff in the garbage really fast. so I said something about him shotting something at me so I flicked him then he just punched me lightly. (that was cooool). We did that a couple times. Then we we got ours checked out, I was gonna have a pic with me and my friend and andy, then Jesse comes in right behind and gets in. That's what I wanted...on picture with him and me in it at least. Then we went back into the room...we were in there alone and me and brigette, andy, and jacob were in their spraying this citrist stuff all over. so we had to get all the drawings and stuff off of our desk. Now, this water we were using was GRAy. it looked exactly like he just pourd paint in there. it was nasty. So I was like, washing off my desk and all the guys were around us and I was like, this is getting soupy! i need a dry rag! and he's like, "this is why you rince out the rag so it's dry!" so I finally did and he made some cute smartass remark to me. but I sitll needed more soo i went to the bathroom and got some PT's, then came bakc and started to wipe off my desk. and Jesse's starts laughing at me and is like, "no wonder it's not coming off, your scubbing your desk with a bunch of paper towels!" and i was like "YOU have all the rags!" so yeah. once we were done with that nonsence we once again had this big group just conversing. and He starts putting this tape on his eyes and it made him look really really wierd and funny so I took a picture of it. it was just all so cute. then a bunch of us were talking about this "barn" fire we were gonna have tonighti nstead of a "bon" fire. who knows what we'll be doing tonight.
Anyway, that was the last class I had with him. :( sucks yeah. But after lunch I was coming up the stairs to our hallway, and once again there were all the boys shooting stuff formt his fucking huge sling shot they made and they were all just lauging cuz it broke something or something...so I'm like laughing and I look and him and just shake my head and go, "you morons" and just laughed. and he's like "You moron!" and I then I said it back and we did like untill he couldn't see me anymore. Then was fifth hour...nothing too exciting.. then to STUDYHALL. Now, I don't normally see him there, usually on the way back. but he was getting a drink from the fountain and right as he was done I was RIGHT THERE! yeehaw. so he started giving me this stare that he KNOWS I HATE! cuz it's so freaky! so i'm like NO!!! STOP! so I flicked him for the times that he shot a rubber band at me and then he punched me and we kinda beated at eachtother, then finally went to class.
That was the last time I talked to him today.
Sucks? fuck yeah, I miss it already. I just don't know what I feel anymore. I feel like I'm falling for him...but he has a girlfriend too, so maybe it's just a friendly flirtin thing. hopefully. Anyways, I'll write later maybe and tell you about my night tonight.
May 31, 2001
10:10pmWell It seems as thought I have made it out of this school year alive. Surprised? yeah. anyway can't write much... I'm pretty excited about tommorrow.. my sister is graduating so probably no big parties or antying tomo night...possibly next week some night...and god does that feel good to say.
I AM gonna miss these school days for some reason. Just my classes and stuff...and everyeon in them. I've grown to love everyone this year. I havge it all planne dout what i'm gonna wear tommorrow (white turtlenext tank w/ old navy jeans, hair down) hey, gotta look good for end of the year pics.
I'm gonna miss school weekends. As much as I hate school, tihs year and it's weekends have been fun. Actually my whole school year period was pretty fucking awesome...which is kind of a switch. hopefully next year is even better! i'm praying so anyway.
"Here's to the nights we felt alive."
Have a great last day, everyone!! (whenever yours may be :)
lindsay
10:14
May 25th, 2001
4:02 pmWell, today was our senior's last day in school. I'm having mixed emotions about the whole thing, for some reason. I'm jeaslouse cuz their out of school and I'm not, I'm sad because my sisters a senior and I'll never be in school with her again, and I'm worried cuz we only have 4 days of school left. Why am I worried? Because I LOVE my schedule that I have had this year. It was perfect. I have classes with all of my close friends and with my *favorite* guy friend, Jesse. We are just starting to get to be good friends now, and if I don't have any classes with him next year, then I don't know what I'm gonna do! I think I am just gonna miss school all togheter. Like today, we were working on these projects that were do, and we were all in the computer lab. And he was just being nice to me (sometimes I think he likes me...) like he let me copy his bibliography (OMG...how 5th gradish do i sound..) and then, I spilled glue all over the place and he was just laughing. so he like whiped it all up with his finger and the rooms smelled like skunk for the rest of the day. I just have fun when I'm around him. Which reminds me of this one day in health class... we were doing First aid and I did it all wrong and he laughed so hard. We got along so well there, I kinda hate to see it end, cuz i didn't see him at ALL last summer. I'm kinda feeling like I wanna impress him for some dumb reason. I shouldn't be feelin like that cuz I have a boyfriend and everythign...hmm. Oh well I guess! Maybe it'l fade out or something.
I've been up late late late the past couple nights. I have MAJOR projects that are due, well one I can cross off the list now. This three day weekend should be nice, then four days of school and then I'm a JUNIOR! wee wee. Then I have other shit to worry about next year...but I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.
Actually, whats wierd is I've been obsessing over wanting to go see the movie Pearl Harbor, and that's what our whole history project was on. So my friend Jon and Carey are gonna take me tommorrow night hopefully, but it's also my cousin's birthday..So Who knows what will happen. Well I can't think of much more to write. Til Next time...
Lin
4:11
May 22nd, 2001
6:02pmHey everyone~
Today was a pretty dull day. I think everyone is getting so sick and tired of school they just don't care anymore. Everyone is slackin...incuding me :) hehe whoops. Anyways. Today afterschool me and two of my friends, Anna and Lance worked on our computer projects.I ADORE our teacher. She is SUCH a sweatheart! She made cookies for her senior classes so afterschool she gave tons of them to us and had a can of frosting for some of them. Anna at like the rest of what was in one can, so she got us another one. It was so funny. Now, we aren't suppose to have food in there OR drink, but we brought pop. That was pretty much the highlite of my day.Oh yeah, you can't forget those end of the year fights. My friend Steph broke up with her boyfriend, Randy. Well, actually they broke uo ALOT, but now she's seeing this other kid. Well not seeing...their more like fuck buddies. Whatever. So now Randy and his best friend Mark are after this other kid and his fat friend. It's not cool. we saw them getting pushed around and everything and I can just tell they are gonna so get into it.
anyways...if I make it out of this schoo year alive, I'll possibly write again. :) Later!
Lindsay
May 18th, 2001
11:53pmWell I just got home. It was quite a busy day... had school all day, an in school rehearsal for the concert tonight...blah. And then right after shcool I came home and ate spegetti. Why spegetti? I dunno...Had this wierd craving for it. and Since I figured since i woudn't be eating till 10 tonight, i would stock up. So yeah. Then my galpals called me and told me to come over and do their hair. So I went to my friends Sara's house, and did my lother friend's Natalie's sisters Katie's hair... then are OTHER friend, bridge came over and took pictures. It was quite.....fun. Then we had our concert. It went pretty well I think...We messed up one part only that I can remember. ANyways....after all the fun stuff I came home and ate french fries....hmm...while my mom and my aunt headed to the bar (they hardly ever go...:) So. after like, a half hour, my girls showed up finally and we went out to Bridget's cuz her bro was home from college, and her other brother dustin was suppose to give me a big senior pic of him..So he did. AHHHH it was some nice shit. He's friends with brandon (my bf) and his ex- gf is b's cousin...So we use to go out alot, but not anymore since of that.
God I can just FEEL myself getting fat. We cruised for a while and got some pop (CodeRED...the best shit.) And I can just feel myself FAT! haha i know. Anyway that was my exciting day today. Now tommorrow I can look forward to my first ever pool meeting. Word is I gotta wear grubby clothes cuz we gotta clean that thing out...which won't be a fun job I don't think. Nic was telling me the other day how she's ont sure if she's gonna be working at the pool in her town this summer...if not, nic, come visit me!!! :) well I better wrap this up. talk to ya soon!! Take care!!
May 16th, 2001
9:18pmWell I just got back from my little concert rehersal. It was quite amusing- (the choir&band in my school have a concert at the end of the year called the "pop concert" where unlike other big concerts, this one is HUGE, with choir dancing and everything...)There is this one part where 3 "surpreme" girls are suppose to walk out and sing. Well the main girl wasn't there...so this guy brian comes out and starts singing...it was THEE most hilariouse thing I have ever witnessed in my entrie life. Me and my friends were laughing so hard we were balling.
Tommorrow I don't have to go to school! I shadowing my uncle, it's for these retarded grad standards projects. There SO POINTLESS. It just pisses me off, but if it gets me out of school, then it's not so bad.
Well school is almost over and ya KNOW what tha means....Finals.. I better go study now. C-ya! :)
May 10th, 2001
8:57pmHey everyone! Well I got my way again...I get my own journal. hehe. The sad thing is I made Nicole make it for me...Am I being lazy? No, Just BUSY! But yeah this is kinda cool. Nic just informed me a little bit ago that all of her previouse entries to her just got erased and she can't get them back. She's a bit upset about that. HOPEFULLY she'll deal.
Well I guess I can tell you people a little about me right now, since that awesome survey Nic made me fill out didn't really tell ya much. Well I 16 years old, and soon will be a junior in highschool. I'll get some pics up soon. :) I play volleyball, basketball and softball, whick kinda takes up alot of my time, but I love sports. Lets see. So yeah, I have a boyfriend, his name is Brandon. He goes to a different school then me, but he only lives like 8 mintues away from me. We've been together a year and 2 monthes on the 17th.
School's ending pretty soon, and I am honestly kinda sad about it all ending, like Nicole is. There is this one guy in my class, Jesse, who is um, extremly hot, (don't worry, I love my bf :) and we are just now kinda starting to get to be better friends. I used to have health class with him last triemester, and now I have computer with him. He's such a dork. I love him to death. Everyday in Computer class we just dick around. It's just fun.
So that's basically all that ius happeneing in my life right now, isn't that exciting? I thoguth so, lol. Well I better get going. Till next time.
Lindsay
9:04pm