Sorrow
That deep pool of grief
just below the surface
of the air we breathe.
When she left,
I fell into the pool of sorrow.
I struggled to breathe.
When she left,
you feared the pool.
You had pushed it away
as you had her.
Now you stand near the edge of the suffocating water,
the liquid grief laps at your feet.
You turn your face as you see me
gasp for air.
My frustration with you
encourages me to breathe on.
I drown.
I surface and I am reborn into the air.
You turn your back.
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Cashiering
Ten minutes late for work
again. I forgot to shut off the light
in the kitchen. We’ll talk
about it later because the money
I owe you isn’t earned yet. My credit card
was denied today and I tripped over some carts
when I left the store. The carts
didn’t know I was late for work.
“Can I see your card
please, sir?” He says no and I flash my light
at the supervisor. “He doesn’t have any money
either,” I think while they talk.
I wonder what you will say during the talk
we won’t have later. “Can you move your cart
please, ma’am?” I ask as I tender the money
she digs crumpled from her pocket, making work
of paying for her Lubriderm. My light
clicks off as my supervisor hands me a greeting card
for a coworker who isn’t well. I hold the card
as she lingers, wanting to talk
about when I flashed my light
earlier but she leaves when a customer tips a cart
and a child falls out. “Children don’t work
because they don’t know how to count money,”
I think. I hate handling the dirty money,
and my black fingertips imprint the greeting card
in a spot where it won’t work
to erase. I sit and don’t talk
in the break room as I think about carts
having personalities and eat a light
lunch. I don't sign the card.
I don't talk
but to myself in the controlled place of work.
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