02~15~10

Dearest Fran

I sincerely apologize for all the hurt I have caused you.
It is certainaly not something
I intended or wanted to do.
I truly can not remember anything I said that day,

was not swearing or yelling directly at you,
Was just venting my anger with this cancer mess and carried on and on.

I guess I have always gotten overbearing in relationships and become controlling ,
also am pretty jealous and dont like men flirting with my Lady
seems as tho I have ruined all I have had in one way or another

I have always been bad at showing my feelings ,
maybe I am just insecure and afraid of letting go and being hurt or disapointed in love.
I am so sorry for the inability to get sexually aroused as I should, it has nothing to do with you
I thought all was good , but I was wrong and do not know why my desires are weak and diminished

How can I cut costs and not make me unafordable while I am still here
I never meant to burden you with anything, in any way,
I said many times that I did not need things.
I appreciate all you have given and done for me in that respect

I never meant to disrespect or critize you or your husband by things I said or did.


I only wish I could somehow repair all of this and make us one again.
I really want to be with you, I love and respect you and always will

You are always in my heart and my mind

it`s true ..you are my:
" Forever Love"

I love and cherish you with all I am
Jim

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Midi playing:
Unbreak my heart