Everthing..
Ok here it goes..
Ashe was destraught when her mam stopped her taking cole to Arizona, her world must of collapsed on her i was so helpless to help her, i knew she needed me and i was not there for her and that hurt.Then i was being such a jerk towards her nagging her with all these stupid ass comments like is it me ? Grr what a bastard i was.. I hope she can help cole i know how much it means to her, you could say without her , a bit of her soul is gone..

College is coming to an end and i think thast the last for me , plain and simple i got sick of it its views and morals suck.. bla bla...

Sensei told me to live closer to my sword, by that trust my instincts like i trust my sword because with my instincts im nothin, without my sword im beating so trusting my instincts will prevail all.He has been right , he seen my potential , he gave me the Samurai creed to me and that was an honor, he has been there and been right so many times, i know he knows so im humbly greatful.. Im thinking about spending more time at the dojo rather than living here, i should train and practice a lot more, no mindedness. Id love to teach ashe, me holding her, her kicking my ass thats a nice picture id want to hold and cherish.

today
Well today was a normal day , Um Newcastle got beat 2 - 0 of Marseille :( we almost reached the final :(... Been online with Ashe , again shes lovely and cool , she sent me three very thoughtfull things , she gave me a love poem which was nice and touched me , and she sent me a collage of moths swans and scott summers which was nasty but a lot of thought went in to it so it was nice all the same she sent me another very sweet collage of me and her a nice view a heart and shameless that was so so nice see i told you she was lovely !!! :):)

She sang aswell not only is her voice beautiful but she sung a preety oppriote song for us , getting my cam soon so i geuss that will be cool ... um this innovator of violence guy ripped me to ashe , il speak to him and see what his problem is, probabily he's just a lil kid whining cos he has to be in bed at 6pm but hey im not gonna diss him behind his back..

ahe well thats me done oh by the way did i ever tell you im crazy about Ashe !!?? :)
laters max :)

Heaven & Hell
Hell

My friends well frined Kerri - she is just such an evil two faced bitch !!! She is such a dirty cow, she got home drunk and said it was my fault grr ive allways watched my friends back everytime we go out im the cautious wolvie of the group all ways keeping an eye on my buds , well she got home and she was sick and she told her mam a pack of lies and got her mam onto me , im like WTF does that have to do with me fair enough i had my fair share of whiskies and rums but i can handle my drink and dont get drunk cos im watching over my buds.... Grr im too pissed to mention the words her mam called me but they both have very short memories who came down she managed to ring me when she was in trouble ?? ME , who saved her when she was getting raped outside of Dougies Tavern when 4 men had pinned her down and took off her top - who cleaned house and kicked so much ass then and even risked my life for her and dodged a knife attack , who beat all 4 men within an inch of their sorry lives ME !!! grr things ive doen for her... and she calls me worse than shit !!!! GRRR FUCK THAT IVE DECIDED SPAIN IS A NO FUCKING NO !!




Heaven

Ashe.
need i say more ??

Well im gonna , she makes me feel so god damn good, he singing melts my heart and shes the only person ive let get to know me really for who i am since sarah but we were together for 4 years and such but enought about her its Ashe who rocks not her so once more im addicted to Ashe she totally rocks, cheers me up when im down melts my heart and i know she will allways be there for me , because im allways here for her. Besides who woould call me a stupid brit and me smile..... I never want to talk when im mic i just want to listen to her , because she means so much to me a moment with her is never taken for granted because it hurts me when im not with her, plus the distance thing sucks but good things come to those who wait... besides when we do get together were gonna swap tags and shes gonna come with me to get a tattoo.. i think we should get a small heart on our wrists so when we hold hands the hearts match up and fit into place ... that would be so nice ...

journey
well today is today , different then others , ive came to a conclusion that come 4 oclock my life stops and i drop what im doing rush home in a mad frenzy and get onto the chat just so i can see, speak to her same comes to night times, i hope i make her smile and make her happy and stuff cos if i can give her just a small amount of what she gives me then she would be happy for life. Missing Ashe, wubing her , thinking about her all the time .. need i go on ...

Me and steve ( appleby) came to the conclusion that being poked inthe eye is better than being kicked inthe balls but only just.. Um college fucking sucks i see it falling flat on its arse, one minute were camping out with the army the next minute were fucking being told that college is going bye bye , i mean if they were so persistant in telling me and steve to cut our drinking out and spend more time there than the tavern - were like no tavern rocks duh....

Fucking hypocrital bastards college is ran by fucking senseless monkies who lick balls and get their balls licked of fucking blind astronaughts!!!!


Grr college !!!

Um me had a carrear idea , i could be a blind dog or guide dog which ever one it is cos i get confused .. but anyway i can bark sniff and shit and walk so id be a perfect dog .. just gotta get an application form and il be all set hey i wonder if i get a pension with it.

all donations for the get max to usa are all welcome .... please give generously

saved some chicken
OMG !!!! me and Ashe !!! she is like sooooooooooo coool and stuff and im even saving her my food , so when i leave for the usa i can take her a massive suitcase of my food over. Ashe is like the greatest thing to of happend over this year, what with my nana passing on and all the injuries tourment and hell which ive kinda been through , my sensei practically almost died , seems like everyone i love has gone sooner or later im gonna be all alone , maybe she can hold my hand when i cry ....

- dont want to tell anymore incase i freak her out

sumer sausage
Damn i gotta have some of that !!!, I need ashe to teach me all about her culture , food etc .. she has to take me to so many places its unreal... she said she'd would like to dance with me , now that would be an honor just to hold her in my arms and to dance wow thats like real nice of her
I played pool and i won 7 games in a row that was pretty cool but i sure as hell came back early enough to catch ashe on her breaks god i miss her, never mind a few hours times , like whats that ?? its so small so woohoo

Um me thining of doing a few fozzy songs that would be cool there version of eat teh rich is mint and so is happensatnce - i kinda like H-I-M's style too - my music sense is all crazy .... gonna right more and more songs.. but wouldnt mind doing a few solos.
Spain is coming up in liek 5 weeks or something i might sneek to america instead but id probs get deported lol just my luck !
Appleby is all liek go ahead max go for it, save up tehn get out of here dude, and he is right this place sucks im just waiting till i have enough muhoney saved then im away woohoo WI here i come, but ill probs get lost along the way but my wolvie sense will guide me tehre hehe.

Me and ashe are gonna swap tags but that spoilt my idea cos as i was gonna leave to come back home i was gonna hide them inher pocket or something and she would find them and think of me :) that would of been so cool !! but when im there im gonna write stuff about my travels cos that would be cool and neat to look back upon, and if there is any jobs ill apply
missing ashe like crazy, she is my addiction, i need her i thrive her wub and miss her.
she got a friend or socalled frined called rachel i think she should go all wolverine on her ass , ive come to think of how lucky i am that i have ashe in my life !! what can i say she is my shining star - yeh thats the poem i made her
gonna go for a whizz , so take care y'all and remember if it itches it will be scratched ! =)

Dear Friend ( Ashe's song )
ok im writting songs now for our band , this is a little one ive made and thought about it and im dedicating it to ashe , cos after all it was written for her .... Its called Dear Friend

Dear friend, your the face that ive came to trust,
You allways helped me out when things were bad and not all there, So Ive been thinking about you and how much you care, I couldnt live without your laugh and your ways that make me smile, what a gift you are, my one single loving star.

Chorus
( Ooooh Thinking of you melts my soul, im never gonna leave your side, gotta let you know that im here and your my friend, How i love you so, just wanna kiss you and never ......... ever let you go)

You ditch everything for me and i owe you so much, the care and affection you give is a gift from above, so would it be wrong to say i love you , would you want to hear those words... ill hold my breath cos you should allready know that i do, i dont need to tell you those 3 simple words, as you give them to me without knowing, i hope you know i love you .... i hope you know i love you .... i hope we never meet the end....... Ill never stop loving you, my dear old friend .....

( Choros )
then fades out .....

Well thats my song about ashe, its only short but ive said everything i needed to say.. now at this point im hoping shes not gonna hate me for saying all of that but i cant hide

Ashe, Ashe and more Ashe and a lil college
what can i say about her that i havent allready said, she is like a breathe of fresh air - when she sings i cover my face cos its uber nice and i just feel like melting away and crying but im not allowed to hide thats what Ashe said , so i gues yeah i cant hide,shes like what happens if you meet a spanish girl or something and im like IM NOT im totally not into that kinda scene id much rather play pool in bar than club around. All day ive been praying deep inside my self that Ashe is ok and that im gonna talk to her to night and again its gonna be uber nice and my smile shines through , i just wish she could see it.

ok ive been telling all my buds at college about her and there sick or me , im talking about her constantly and its driving them nuts he he, steve said she must mean alot if your talking about her this much .... and im like yeah you wont believe how much i care about her

Colle sucks full stop GRRR !! i went at 9 am and wasnt supposed to be there until 1 pm grrr so i waited around chilled played pool and talked to james and tedius , we all think Overload is a cool name for our band but its just random thoughts for now ......

Ashe
This is beautiful even though the pond seperates us , we both have the same thoughts and i totally understand what she goes through as i have the same thoughts/feelings/emotions... She brings comfort to me , i want her to meet so many people - my sensei for instance how kool would that , me and her could walk along the beach to my sensei's house , the three of us could sit and have tea and share endless stories, I want her to meet my friends play pool and have drinks with her , i want to take her skiing at Sunderland, do a thousand different things together and grow old with her - he he 2 old rockers ! well im a rocker in training... she's more of a hardcore rocker, but hey i can learn =) Ashe has touched me alot since i have known her but none stronger than we actually talk on mic, it warms my heart and touches my sould and leaves me unable to rest my eyes and mind because even when im asleep im still thinking about her, she is permeantly embedded in my thoughts, life wouldnt be the same without her - lets face it it wouldnt it would suck so so bad - i dont think i have told her ?? who knows maybe i will but that might scare her away so ill just wait. The softest beautifullest touch she gave me was when i grrr 'ed at her and she turned to cole and went awwww he grrr 'ed at me =) , that melted my soul. Wow this so called mysterious guy is showing his feelings see the effect she has had on me..... im thinking that we both wub each other otherwise these feelings wouldnt be there but there so i guess its true there is love bewteen us
Its kinda like that elton john song " I guess thats why they call it the blues "
Ashe if your reading this THANK YOU if you ask why , then its for everything :)

Shields
yeah we all went out down shields everyone from college were there and my 3 best and closest friends , tanya,kerri, and aldy. College class , nato, james, ryan , amanda, laura , steve etc...
we went every where and finished in escape, me and aldy were the last to leave , and aldy having quite a short a fuse for temper decided to totally blow up after a few blokes decided to give him a little stick - just random shit name calling anyway he got a bit miffed and decided to throw the first punch, i got all mad and knew it was gonna boil over so i jumped in and sank in a choke on a dude who punched lee so i crancked it tighter and said look lest all settle down and keep the peace , so they backed off , but im going away on holiday with him and me being gentle in my ways is wondering whether going on holdiay to magaluff is such a wise idea with a hothead - he needs to chill more and relax for mine , kerri and tanya's sake