The Beginning
Mood:  down
So, this is the start of my blog. Let me up-date you on my life.
Lately I haven't been so happy.
About two months ago I finally found out how my dad died, after years of being told that I was too young to understand. I had always pictured him dying of an illness, which he nearly did. When he was ill, he felt that the pain was too much to bear, and that his time had come. So finally he comitted suicide. I haven't been coping so well with this information for the few weeks i have known. After I found out, I broke down in PE, but the only people who noticed were two girls from my form: Steph and Aaishah.
Ever since I found out I have been having either trouble sleeping or sleepless night, and some nights I have been crying myself to sleep.
I haven't told any of my family or friends about this. I can't even tell my best friends about this. I am scared that if I do thay will never look at me in the same way again.
I am also having trouble when I am out having fun with my friends. I feel like its wrong that I am having so much fun when my dad must have been having the worst, most sad and depressing time ever. Enough for him to kill himself. And here I am living my life like normal and no-one has any idea what is going on in my life.
I can't even tell my best friends, and here I am talking to people I don't even know.
But I am hoping that if anybody is going through what I am going through, or a member of family has dien recently, I want you to feel free to e-mail me, and I will reply if you want me to.
Thank-you.