Hey you guys-- thanx for coming to read my poetry. There aren't many here- but I'll keep adding them when I write more- tell me what u think :)
*Love and Frienship*
So many feelings
but no way to express
how I felt when you touched me
simply a gentle caress
The way that you looked at me
and wiped away my tears
is better than anything
because you took away my fears
I know now that we weren't meant
to have an everlasting love
but i know that you'd still be there
if I ever needed a hug
You made me feel so special
you alwayz were so sweet
and because you were the first
theres a place you'll alwayz keep
I know now that its over
but I hope its not the end
and because you are so special
I'd still like to be your friend. :)
*Living For Love*
Its so hard to forget
the first one that you kissed
Because you felt those feelings
and then there was something you missed
I let my heart go open
I allowed myself the pain
I just knew it wouldn't last
So why do i feel its me to blame?
I should have never let him
touch me like he did
'cause thinking of it hurts
like falling as a kid
It hurts to think of others
who are so happy and blessed
but my life has taught me
that I am not like the rest
I must learn to stay strong
learn to move on just despite
Even if i'm all alone now
I don't have to live in fright
For even if that special guy
who I wait for is far away
I guess it'll all be worth it
I just have to live each day
- I guess if any of you haven't realized, these poems are related to what has been going on in my life and these first 2 poemswere written about a month ago- and this next one is my way of closing that chapter of my life-
*Moving On*
I always seemed to blame myself
for what happened to the us
And now I simply realized
What the hell was all the fuss?
I thought for so long
that the problem was all me
it's so clear as day now
I was just to blinded to see
It was never my fault
I did nothing wrong
The only thing I blame me for
is the fact that I waited around
I hoped that you'd call me
I hoped you'd say it was a mistake
But now its so easy for me to see
that you were never worth the heartache
I wasted all that time dreaming
that we'd find another way
but that was just a waste of my time
a waste of thirty useful days
But the thing that made me get over you
was nothing that I did
it was that you were so stupid
and acted like a kid
I had to find out thru someone else
that you had found someone new
and the fact that you didn't tell me
took away all my pain and blue
It made me realize something
that i never thought i would
and now it is so clear
i was just so misunderstood
You gave me my first broken heart
and now its just began to mend
And I'm just glad that I can finally say
I'm happy being "just friends"