A feeling of overwhelming sadness takes over me,
My sickness feeding on what I can't see.
I look out over my future, and wonder,
Could what I feel be some sort of fucked up blunder?
And as I try to convince myself its not true,
The only thing I think of is you.
It's eating away at my heart, my life,
I know the pain will come,
Along with never-ending strife.
But still I press on,
Attempting to control what has taken over,
And everything that I'm feeling
Makes my self-control lower,
Taking over my body, and my thoughts,
I tried to abstain, but I never fought,
And my life will never be the same,
With you around, its a beautiful pain.
