heavy heart, soul full of tears,
where have they gone, all those years?
head hung low, with shame and with fear
regret is now so passionately clear.
a baby girl, precious and new,
a life created by one who had so few
skills or knowledge, of what lay ahead.
hindsight reflects to her, so much dread.
snakes and liers line the path,
trodding, she's oblivious to their wrath.
sunshine and smiles make little way
in a world so large, so wraped up in decay.
and as reflection time draws near,
she stops and wretches her final tear.
the things she stood for crumble away,
leaving bare the mistakes that cost a price too high to pay
not for only herself, but her prodegy too
so many things done she can never undo.
acceptance is easy if its only one's self who's been tore.
but how to forgive, when its hurt so much more
to pick up the pieces of one's broken life,
smile with pride and put down the knife
aimed at her heart, tearing it piece by bit piece
She does not want sympathy, she only wants something to help the pain stop to bleed,
into her everyday, cutting away
at the inner core which was never that strong
the part that tries to say she still belongs.
