I began to crave you,

I don't know exactly why...

Your exquisite beauty, your humour, those soulful eyes.

The part of me you took, when we last said our goodbyes.

I thought - just for fun and a much needed break,

my frustration, my passion, my appetite, you’d take.

But in stealth crept through slid under my skin

straight to my heart, where traces of hope begin.

Cruel deception, self-forced naiveté

Thought it’d be easy, craved what you do to me.

The love that we made and things that we shared

Tied me in closer, to you, raw and bared.

Barely past the emotional gale

Of what I thought was love, turned cold and stale.

Questioning me and my right to exist

Taking self-inventory, assessing the list.

While I wasn’t watching, you got way too far

Into me and opening up my cold heart

Once deep inside me, you started a fire

A passion for you, I denied even higher

Stupid and hurt, anger filled tears

You laid with her, sharing fleshy moments made of years

My bonding, newly-born, shredded with pain

My soul, my heart, seared through to the veins

I lay here recoiling, bitter and sad

One minute I want to call you & the next I’m so mad.

You got what you wanted; at least that’s what you said.

All I know is I miss you, but I hate you so bad.