Something's I think about...

 

What's on my mind today?

Have you ever felt that something you have always worked for has just been taken from you. Something you worked long and hard that you just care so much about isn't appreciated any at all. Nothing worth doing could make up for what is lost. The hurt just stays like a very bad cold that won't go away. Times do change, along with everything... To get something something else has to be taken, well giving and never receiving seems to have no point. It there a greater purpose here? Or is something wrong? Why do some people that are so kind and want others to feel good have to be hurt because no one gives back? At times have you ever felt forgotten, or lost, wanting to ask what happened or why? Sometimes things are meant to be left, even if it's really hard, even if you know you can help and will never be helped in return. Is there anyone out there there in this world like you? I would think so, but is there anyone who will listen besides me... none that I know of....

Old Mind

One Angry Dwarf and 200 Solemn Faces - Ben Folds Five

September '75 I was 47 inches high
Mom said someday I would have
A bad ass mother G.I. Joe
for your little minds to blow
I still got beat up after class

Now I'm big and important
one angry dwarf
and 200 solemn faces
are you
If you want to see me
check your papers and your T.V.
Look who's tellin' who what to do
Kiss my ass good-bye

Don't give me that bullshit
you know who I am
I'm your nightmare little man
Vic you stole my lunch money.
made me cry.
Jane remember second grade
Said you couldn't stand my face
Rather than kiss me you said
you'd rather die

You'll be sorry one day
Yes you will, yes you will
You shouldn't push me around
Cause I will, yes I will
You will be sorry when I'm big
Yes you will be sorry

Green Day - Stuart and the Ave. 

Standing on the corner of 
Stuart and the Avenue 
Ripping up my transfer 
And a photograph of you 
You're a blur of my dead past and rotting existence 
As I stand laughing on the corner of insignificance 
Destiny is dead 
In the hands of bad luck 
Before it might have made some sense 
But now it's all fucked up 
Seasons change as well as minds 
And I'm a two-faced clown 
You're mommy's little nightmare 
Driving daddy's car around 
I'm beat down and half brain dead 
The long lost king of fools 
I may be dumb 
But I'm not stupid enough to stay with you 
Well destiny is dead 
In the hands of bad luck 
Before it might have made some sense 
But now it's all fucked up 
Well destiny is dead 
In the hands of bad luck 
Before it might have made some sense 
But now it's all fucked up 
You're all fucked up

Sucker - New Found Glory

you're more than tongue tied this time
well I can feel it in your lips
nobody told me you were a sucker for a kiss
music low
we're all alone
being wrong never felt so right
tell me about your first kiss
tell me or have you already forgotten it
tell me about your first kiss
what do I have to do to get through all of this?
I'm writing it down
I bet you thought this song was about you
you're more than just mad this time
you've got that look in your eye
nobody told me you were a sucker for a kiss
music low
we're all alone
being wrong never felt so right
tell me about your first kiss
tell me or have you already forgotten it
tell me about your first kiss
what do I have to do to get through all of this?
I'm writing it down
just leave me here and tell me to my face
what you think about
can we figure out
what happened to our happy ending anyway?
how you feel about
leaving me here
with a lot more left to say
music low
we're all alone
being wrong never felt so right
tell me about your first kiss
tell me or have you already forgotten it
tell me about your first kiss
what do I have to do to get though all of this?
I'm writing it down
I bet you thought this song was about you

 

Well as you all can read I hope... Hehe these three songs have been on my mind for a while. They have so much meaning to me, and I can't really say why. Songs always bring back memories whether good or bad. I think they always fit into moods some way or another. Songs in fact are moods, wow fancy that. Darn, sometimes I wish some songs will go away but they don't they will always be there in some way, which to me and some others sucks. Don't get me wrong it's good to remember but it hurts. I hate having feelings because people don't feel the same way or do but there bitches and don't say anything. Hehe. In the end songs as skippy cool! Listen to them, feel them, be one with them. Support your local rock/punk/ska/emo band!

Old Mind
So I figured it out, you know how everyone has the ideal person, the one that they look for, want, would love to be with, well some think that they are meant to be friends. The way they see it, would you rather try and go out and then break up a good thing, or be great friends and keep it. We all look for the right person and are afraid of them in many ways.

But he did not understand the price.
Mortals never do.
They only see the prize; their heart's desire,
their dream...
But the price of getting what you want
is getting what you once wanted.
                                -Dream

No one wants to hurt or be hurt. You find the one you really want to be with but you don't want to be hurt by the person you truly want to be with. So you don't try anything, you only stay as friends and you're happy. But you could be so much more happier with them but you are afraid. Sometimes people push there feelings aside and forget. the pain goes away but it also takes good memories and some experiences. Why limit yourself? There are millions upon millions of people in the world and all of them can be you friend, but only a quarter in the world fit what you are looking for in a person, in a mate. What would happen if you put every person as your friend, because you were afraid of getting hurt. This is STUPID. Everyone gets HURT. It happens, so live the moment. Make everything worth wild. Don't pass you the quarter. Who knows maybe the one you pass up is the one that was not going to hurt you!

 Love belongs
to Desire
and Desire
is always Cruel.
            -Old Man

Life is cruel but it does make you stronger, don't you like saying been there done that? Or saying I've tired that before? But then again people are true, some are fake. Who do you trust? The true ones care for you and never see you in a bad way. The fake ones don't see or hear you at all. Which do you have? When you know who is true don't let them go and be true back. When you're sad do they comfort you? Do you comfort them? Why do you keep friends that don't comfort back? Everyone one has potential and I see it in everyone even if they do not. I'm not going to turn my back on someone just because they might. Everyone needs someone, and if I could I would be there for everyone.

We do whatever we do because of who we are.
If we did otherwise, we would not be ourselves.
                  -Dream

When you have a good thing don't let go. If you meet that quarter your looking for, take a chance. Don't worry about getting hurt. Time heals all. Even if it takes a long time. Everyone of your friends care about you don't be fake. Listen, talk, and be true. Be a handful. Don't let a good thing go that is the last thing you want to do. That person might be the one that truly is for you.

-Anthony-