Dissapointments:

Through the life it's been the same
Every time I begin to believe
That I might find my fortune changing
When things are sure
Or so it seems
They fall apart in front of me
At night
I lie awake, wondering
Which dissapointments await me the next day
I've learned to stop
Looking forward to things
Because I know
As much as I want them to go right
They'll take a turn for the worst
With a tick of a clock
When I'm praying for rain
I'll get nothing but sun
If I don't do somethng
I hear how much fun
it was and how I should have been there
I've learned to accept that life isn't fair
And that there's no one out there
Who really cares
So I keep my mouth shut
Let my pen do the talking
You're driving your car
I know I'll be talking
I wish I could get
Just one fair shake
I broke my arm
The only time I tried to skate
My parents, they love me, but they treat me like crap
They ground me or slap me if I don't take off my hat
In a building
And if there was no way in hell that I could go
I know someone would ask me
to homecoming or prom
But I've got no life, so I'm just sitting alone
Lying in bed
Listening to tunes
Thinking that things will be better soon
Maybe someday I could fall in love
Find happiness, be peaceful as a dove
But for now I guess I'll stay in this cage
Frozen by anger, blinded by rage
Maybe someday they will open their eyes
See me for who I am inside
Bot the way I always appear
I live every moment with the fear
of being alone til the end of my days
Although I'm not even eighteen
I guess it's just part of my social disease
The one that makes me sick of it all
When I'm alone, my skin starts to crawl
I saw a fortune teller's crystal ball
It gave me the vision
Of me on a couch, watching TV
Asking the same question
What's wrong with me
Why can I never fit in
Why am I so queer
When I'm invited, why don't I dare go near
The place that I think that I want to be
But whenever I get there
The grass turns from green
To the wicked brown
The past I live in
I guess in the end
I'll just have to grin
and bear it if I ever hope
to break out of this permanent mope
Hanging from the celing and finally cutting the rope
Being free to make foes and make friends
with ease
Let me out of this nightmare
I'm begging you, please
Release me and let my life run through
Reverse my fortune
so I can find a love that is true
Or whatever it is I was destined to find
One thing I know, is I'll be there in due time