*p r e t t y h a t e m a c h i n e*

~now i've changed

now i'm right

now i'm strong

forever i'll fight~




I know that I will never be "cured."  I know that 

every day is going to be a struggle with me.  Yet, I 

know that I am LUCKY to be alive, I know I am blessed 

to know God and to have the chance to fix my life.  I 

don't believe that I'm a bad person, I don't think I 

ever was, I was just a really good person who thought 

that she had to be perfect and learned her lesson the 

hard way.  




For every single person out there who has felt 

hopeless, pinned down, terrified, voiceless... for 

every person who has cried and cried but never knew 

why... for every person who has had to pull over the 

car for fear that (s)he would either cause an accident 

or drive him/herself purposely into the guard rails... 

for every person who has thought that they were on the 

outside looking in... for every person who can't find 

that courage inside... for every person who has 

concluded that life would be better off if they were 

dead...  THERE IS HOPE.  I have been to hell and back, 

and I want to sincerely tell you that it IS possible, 

you can regain your life.  It's not easy, and, 

actually, it's downright painful- but it is worth it 

in the end.  You may have to fight for yourself every 

day, you may have to prove yourself to your own self 

and others, you may have to cry and scream and peel 

away the layers of hurt, but you CAN do it.  You CAN 

get better, you CAN live a full life.  Life is 

precious, and you only know happiness to the extent 

that you have known pain, and I know you have known 

more pain than many people, we all have.  But it is 

possible, there is a light at the end of the 

darkness.