Saturn in the 1st House 
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  Of all the houses for Saturn, this can be one of its more difficult placements, 
  particularly if it is close to the ascendant. Saturn is the Lord of Karma, and it 
  often represents restriction or, at best, consolidation. The key to working with 
  Saturn is to focus on its power for consolidation. The First House is the rising 
  sign house and the childhood house. Saturn in this house under stress (square, 
  opposition or inconjunct to other planets), will often reflect a karma with yourself 
  or with childhood. This usually means a lesson with self-esteem, appearance, 
  even vanity. In other words, a personality karma, a character karma, or an 
  identity karma, and especially during childhood, leading to unprocessed 
  experiences. Some of the common experiences, but not always, are the loss of a 
  father or a father who did not provide the necessary parenting for you. There 
  may have been little or no encouragement to develop your ability to express 
  yourself and as a result your creative drive was dampened. You may have been 
  burdened with certain problems that were overwhelming. Many experience a lot 

  of rejection in youth.  
   
  You therefore approach life hesitantly, full of mistrust and expect the worst. It 
  seems that you must keep proving yourself, and an element of perfectionism 
  creeps in. You take life very seriously and want to remind people and society of 
  their irresponsibility. Whatever you do does not seem good enough. The 
  resultant frustration drives you deeper into a problematic hole. Although you 
  think that others are constantly criticizing and correcting you, it is really you who 
  is doing it, and your self-criticism is really your biggest problem. Aided by any 
  challenging aspects from other planets, your self-esteem probably has the 
  greatest opportunity in the world!  
   
  You perceive your personality as inadequate and your social behavior awkward. 
  As you find it so difficult to be easygoing and relaxed, you may appear to be 
  inhibited, stern, and reserved. You dislike making a fool of yourself and 
  therefore take pains to behave in a dignified fashion. When your fellows start to 
  interpret your inability to trust others as coldness and unfriendliness, it is high 
  time to start to working on that self-love and self-esteem. Basically, you want to 
  prove your worth and be respected, and you should use your strong sense of 
  responsibility to achieve this. You can be ambitious and show an iron 
  determination to make something of yourself. This means that you are prepared 
  to work hard.  
   
  You need to get to a point where you can let go of all the negative baggage of the 
  past. Hypno-therapy techniques can be useful for some individuals. If you have 
  any support from other areas of the chart, look to some of those qualities that 
  can contrast the stern and rigid effects of Saturn. Experience more comedy and 
  be open to the numerous techniques that will allow your inner love to radiate in a 
  powerful and consolidated way. The deep pain from youth and the resultant 
  growth can ultimately be used to assist others in a similar predicament.