I am not happy

I am never happy

Either hyper or depressed

I don't like to smile

I don't like to be touched

I cannot make eye contact

I have defensive posture

There are too many choices

Neither right or wrong

Always thinking left or right

One way, but could be the other

I don't like to be disturbed

I am passive-aggressive in anger

I get a whispery voice and intense eyes

I am mostly bluffing

I like to hurt people to prove their love

Showing worst side of me to test them

Beginning friendships with hostility

All so they can stay away

I like to be with people

But I am quiet and still

They don't know who I most like

I want to show myself to others

But they are all like him

I will not let him hurt me again

I am not Mom

I will not make the first step

They won't like me anyway

I am not good enough for them

I am unworthy of their attention

Other people are loved

I am tired

I am jealous of outgoing people

How can they be so friendly to all?

Where do they find that inside themselves?

I cannot smile

I don't like to be touched

I pull away from guys

I am skinny and ugly

I do not blame them for staying away

I m not worth their trouble

I have a bad personality

I am not psychotic

I have coping mechanisms

I am an easy target

I make others laugh for their ego

They feel better because of me

That is my role in life

I accept but do not like it

What is energy in others is psychosis in me

That is how others perceive me

I am at times withdrawn

I am at others manic

I have panic attacks

I have many personality flaws

I am doing my best to correct myself

But it is hard

I am sorry for my faults

I am trying best I can

I am angry

I am nervous

I resent authority

I want to do it myself

But I want to be protected too

I preach things I don't understand

I am a hypocrite