Suicides Prayer
~Amen
Melissa Marie Dorking 1997
Untitled
I'll leave this life,
Melissa Marie Dorking 1999
Untill we meet again
You draw me close
Melissa Marie Dorking 1997
Together
I try to explain how I feel,
Melissa Marie Dorking 1999 Missy
Good Bye My Love
I finnially spread my wings
Melissa Marie Dorking 1999 Missy
Untitled
I lay in your arms wondering what will be
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking 2000
Gold
I sit and remember days of old
just something little
I run like a child
L.O.V.E
Looking
I
~m~ 2000
Final Good bye
Why did I do it?
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking 2000
Thoughts at Wege.
The dinner was bad,
~~mm~~00~~
Untitled
I haven' decided what to do
Untitled
Who would have thought
I was right
Melissa Missy Dorking
Your arms
After a night in you arms
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking
Trophies of old
You rub them in my face
response:
No you wont, don't you see?
Melissa Missy Dorking 1999-2000
Giving up
I've given up trying
~melissa marie 2000
Evil
Guys are evil
Melissa Dorking 2000
Plea
Don't go
Please stay
Don't love her tonight
Love me today
I'll forgive
We can make it
We'll just forget
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking 2000
You were a Jerk. What did I do?
I thought we were friends
Missy Dorking 2000
Learn to write good-bye to Jake
Why do I write
Why do I yearn
Why do I cry
What will it take
So why must I
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking 2000
Forget
Will I forget?
Forget what we had
Forget what we shared
Foget what we made
Forget that it hurt
Can't it start over
Forget the end
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking
Love Me
Love me
I hate you
I miss you
I Love YOU
I'm sad
I'm mad at you
Hold me
Love me
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking
Can it? Can it please?
Can love ever again be fore me and you?
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking
what to do what to do?
I don't know what to do
Melissa M. Dorking 2000
Cars
I learned love in the back of a Lumina
Melissa Missy "Cherry" Dorking
iNsAiNe
I don't know what to think anymore
Melissa "Cherry" Dorking
With these pills I will not weep.
I know I'll die before I wake
I pray you hold open your Holy Gate.
I want to live but I can no more
So please don't close your Holy Door.
I know its wrong and I won't lie
Will Saint Peter let me by?
Its all getting dark, I can not see,
Is that an angel trying to help me?
"Do not worry, Do not cry,
You do not have to die."
Sings the angel in the light.
I am too weak to put up a fight.
Help me God he is right
Let me live through this night.
Let me start this prayer again.
Now I lay me down to sleep.
As angels begin to weep.
I tried to die this is true.
But know what I did was for you.
My love for you is too strong to let it be,
So from my sins set me free.
From this day, I'll go on,
And change my life from what
Is wrong to what is right,
In your light.
Now it is time to say good night.
As I glorify your name,
Please deliver me from this sham.
I'll leave my home,
To find a place to call my own.
I'll leave my friends
All those familiar smiles.
While I travel all those miles.
To complete me.
So from my childhood
set me free.
you bring me near.
You push me away
you make me fear.
you used to love me
with all your heart.
But now we've begun
To grow apart.
We loved like the sun
which now has set.
Please forgive me
I'm glad we once met.
How you make my life seem real.
But no words come, when I try to say
How your smile makes the bad world go away.
How your arms hold me and I feel like I could fly
How in your imbrace I could forever lie.
Your smile makes me happy, your laugh does the same.
And they both seem to take away a world full of pain.
Your eyes look deep into my soul.
I am under your controll.
If you can love me as I love you.
We will never be apart, we will always be two.
And I will not cry.
I finnially spread my wings
Now I must learn to fly.
I thought I would love you forever
And you woauld love me too
I thought I would love you forever
I thought I needed you.
My wings are fully formed
And now I'm ready to fly
My wings are fully formed
I will fly from our last good bye.
Up into the clouds
I will soar away from you
Up into the clouds
I will meet someone new.
You taught me the basics of flying
I thought you knew it all
You taught me the basics of flying
But your name I will no longer call.
Good bye my love
I call as I fly away
Good bye my love
Are the last thing you will ever hear me say.
Good Bye My Love
If you are here if you really love me.
If the tables were turned would I love you?
If the tables were turned would I expect you to?
If I decided to tell you the love I thought wasn't there
What would you do? Would you even care?
How do I tell you? How do I go?
How do I leave? I do I know?
How do I know I'll go on? And not hurt another?
How do I know you don't love me? Or should I even bother?
Should I bother caring, should I bother crying?
Even if I know part of my heart is dieing.
Those memories are made of gold.
Golden sunlight and golden rain.
Golden joy and golden pain.
Tarnished now, from a love warn out.
Do you understand what this is all about?
It's about you and it's about me,
It's about the love we used to see.
Melissa Dorking 2000
I sing like a bird
I swim like a fish
I love like I can
~mmd 200
Over
Various
Expectations
missy 2000
Would
Never
Love
Him
For
I
Could
Never
Love
Myself
Why did you?
You could have stopped
But I could have too.
I thought I had found new love
You said you thought the same.
Now you try to put my life into this shame
Telling of what we've done.
Well I regret doing any of that
I wish I had done none.
But we were different
From the very start,
Maybe that is why I let you
Steal my heart.
You don't believe the same this as I.
That is why I must finally say good-bye.
The food was worse.
Why is my life such a curse?
I don' like it here,
I don't want to stay.
Why can't I just go away?
If time were different
If things were to change
Would my life seem so strange?
If I stopped worrying
And took time out to cry.
Would my heart live, but my soul die?
Or would things get better.
Changing from bad to good?
Would things finally be how they should?
If I should "yeah" or if I should "boo"
You've taken your bow
But I'm reluctantly taking mine
Afraid for the curtain to close
For the end of time
The play was of two people.
That had known each other for a few years.
But it ended in silent tears.
The question of the story was,
If a person cries and their heart dies,
And no one hears.
Does that mean they are silent tears?
As the curtain closes and the stage goes dark
I cry a few silent tears and hope for a little spark.
A spark of light, so you can see.
The tears for you, that are from me.
missy 2000
That this love could be?
I knew I loved you,
But did you love me?
A childhood passion I had for you,
But then friends we were through and through
I thought you were cool
But knew you were not my type,
I learned hearts were cruel
And people not to trust.
Then somehow my wish came true
And I hope and I pray that I have you
For trusting of you I am.
But fear of love is a must
For all of those who I have loved
Have left me in the dust.
Melissa Missy Dorking
Your love left me in the night
I keep wishing you'd hold me tight
But you are gone now
This play of love is
Over so take your long awaited bow
But I won't clap, just cry,
Because this means we must say good bye.
You know I never sleep
I sit and think and wonder how
I could have gotten in so deep
Every night a tear falls
Not a tear of sadness or a tear of pain
Just a tear of happiness that I'm in your arms again
There is so much I want to tell you,
There is so much you need to know,
Of how much I love you,
And want you near me, sun, wind, rain or snow.
I never want to leave you,
Or share a nasty word
I want us always to be happy,
For my heart will sing like a bird.
Like trophies that you had
Don't you realize how it makes me feel?
Well it makes me feel bad,
I love that you want to shear it with me,
But don't you see, I don't care,
So let them go free.
For I want to be special.
Not one in a line of many
To feel your arms and
Know you love me more than any.
You threatened me with her
Did you want to make me hurt?
Or just feel like dirt?
I hate to think of the others you've loved,
Saying the same to me and them.
Will I ever be top of the line
The one you love for all of time?
I can never love you as you lv9oe me.
My heart isn't open for love
Yours may be, but you can never be my dove.
I keep looking for others, I'll never settle for you.
I'll hurt others as I did to you too.
I'll just start dyeing
My body will live forever
But my heart will love again, never.
I've tried enough
Decided it's too rough
I'm sick of being hurt,
My heart dragged through dirt.
I'm tired of hurting people
On my unending search for the steeple.
I've given it up
I'm not going to fall.
I'd rather shop at the mall.
Love is overrated
Who needs it?
I've dated.
I don't need love or a man.
I can do without, really I can!
What? You don't believe me?
Who do you doubt?
Do you not believe
I can live without?
Well I can and I will
I don't need any Harry, Larry or Bill.
Guys are bad
Why do I let them
Make me mad?
Love is tender
Love is Joy
Why must I
Love a boy?
I search tehm out
I search for pain
Why must I do it
Again and Again?
I cried last night
I held on with all my might
I said when i was sad
Cause when you do I am glad
If you forget
We'll be strong
All we have done wrong.
no matter what.
I thought we shared something
But it feels like you punched me in the gut
What happened to the Lumina where we found love?
The love that was sent from God above?
I know I don't love you like that anymore
Because I know that He has something better in store
I thougth though I still had a friend
But then I knew that was the end
I don't know what I did to make you mad
But I don know you made me sad
Not abecause you ended our almost four month fling
That wasn't what made the sad bird sing
Its because in the end I knew I couldn't count on you
So now I know our friendship wasn't true
I moved on, I don't want your love
My love has move on flown off like a dove
Why do I ponder why I feel hate
Coming from you, a guy I used to date?
I want to learn from my mistakes
And give the next guy all it takes
But not all my love for no one can take
I've already given some of my heart to you and Jake
Jake is another story, I'll tell you sometime
BUt it just will take another little rhyme.
This pen and I fight
I write by the light
That gives me sight.
Yearn to learn
With no concern
For that feeling of burn
Let my soul die
For one guy
Who said good-bye
For me not to be fake
Must I forget Jake
For my own sake
Write by the light
With the yearn and concern
So I can cry and die
For Jake's sake.
forget that we met?
So I wont get mad
That nothing was spared
wehn and where I stayed
Like rubbing my heart in dirt
From the beginning
So both of our hearts
May finnially mend
Don't go
Go away
come back!!!!
please stay
You're not here
F*ck off!
I'm going to cry!
damn it
Love Me!
Or must I accept that we are through?
I've treid letting go....
It wont happen you know...
I miss you!
I know I don't love you
And you don't love me
Does that mean I'm allowed to see
Teh guy who called me today?
I will see him if I may.
He and I had a nigbht
A night that brought me delight
And he wants to stay
But he won't stay here
he probibly wont even be near
He'll never love me, and I don't care.
I don't want him here
He won't want me there
But was it love I learned
Or just love I yearned
I treid to learn love again in a Jetta
He and I listening to Dar
We drove near and far
I thought love was many different things
But now I know all it brings
Is crying and tears
Anger and fears
Will I ever find the love I looked for in those cars?
Or will they just drive on by?
I must be going insaine
I wish that you could feel
the depth of my pain
Sleep no longer comes at night
Because I'm always thinking of you
But knowing you no longer care for me
Is waht is making me so blue
Did you meet someone else?
Someone you love more?
maybe if you did, it might help me
close this final door
You said you loved me though
I knew that it was true
I know you wouldn't lie to me
Cause I'd never lie to you
Or are you trying to hurt me
For some wrong I must have done?
If theis it what you're trying to do,
I have lost and you have won.
I lost my heart
I lost part of my soul
I lost the feeling
of being in controll
But what is done is done
I only lost, I never won.
