Writings of May 28-29

You're breaking me down I'm broken down by you You're crushing me without intentionally doing so And I'm hurting more and more Wanting you here to take my pain away Misinterpretations are killing me I just want to be near you Feeling burning yearning for you I'll be here waiting crying dying until you help me <<<

Take it away I don't want to feel for you Getting ripped apart tear my heart away rip my soul away change me in every way so you'll never see me the same again everything's so false except for this hurt <<<

I case you with lemons you burn my stomach fill my bloodstream disillusion my system Yet you warm me from the core And so addicting <<<

Everything's so wrong You're so wrong And you make me feel Please don't do this anymore Screaming to be let out of this routine Not wanting to give you up for anything <<<

All I want is to be near you <<<

I break the rules for you Change myself Push everyone away Crawl into myself and hide Waiting for that one day that you'll finally come and save me do you know my pain can you heal me you are to comfort me And I sense you are here to help me will I ever matter to you please save me tell me what you'll do walk away as I cry take my hand and guide me <<<

And I'd give it to you in a heartbeat <<<

I do not want to fall for you not to even have feelings towards you I never want to see you again I know you're gong to be the one who brings me down And once the happiness is over you'll be killing me But whenever you're around I can't help to smile A fearlessness never felt before You protect me from my demons Shoeing them away Saving me So come close to me but never let me fall In the end I'll hurt again <<<

Hold on Just let me hold on to this emotion Take in this moment Feel the real me come out <<<

Don't judge me Stay undecided until we speak again then don't judge me on what I say Cause I'll probably say the wrong thing So stay undecided about me until we can really get to know each other <<<

So afraid of you Scared as to what you're going to be like fearing to fall harder and be crushed deeper into myself <<<

You poison me The drugs you give me turn my stomach You make my heartbeat quicken Fill me with useless energy And when I'm coming down you make me cry and hurt myself even more <<<

I felt as if I had come out of my confusion state for the past week Monday through Saturday And then Sunday had to come what happened left me in this haze of confusion Now I'm lost again not understanding my feelings I knew what I wanted Now I have no idea Once again you've blown me away I feel so far from you Just when I thought that I was getting somewhere <<<

Have I hallucinated everything were things heard, seen, and felt just a mirage was I taking things for more than they were your warm friendly smile curing me on the pain It it was just a hallucination then I am the biggest fool of all Because within the past week I have fallen for you help me get back up on my feet so I'm not the fool on your floor begging you to save me <<<

You throw me possibly one of the worst endings for one of the best weeks of my life <<<

Others should judge up upon what they don't know about us therefore not judging us at all <<<

We spend all year hiding within ourselves Then when it comes down to the last weeks We open up, meet new people then have to let them go After that's over we sit and try to figure what would have become of our relationships if we would have met before <<<

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