“Seventeen”
Crazy how it is sometimes
Life just pulls you one way
And you end up tailing behind
One day seems like a year
As a moment seems to disappear
Like an hour-glass slowly depleting
A feeling always remembered
And memories never forgotten
Time after time
The little things that stick out the most
Seem to mean the most
In this crazy game we call life
Nothing’s ever as it seems
As it almost feels like a dream
Being who you ought to be
At only seventeen
Everyone says it matters
What you wear
And what you think
But it doesn’t
Not at all
Not at seventeen
From the months
To the years quickly following after
No one can change that
Especially for being only seventeen
To everyone else you seem so young
But you can’t be
With morals like yours
Always knowing exactly when to say no
Everyone should give you credit
Heck you’re just seventeen
As this day begins to fade
And a new one starts all over again
I wish you the best
With plenty of luck
At being, who you are
You may only be seventeen
But, you’ll always seem older to me
“Dream”
Close your eyes
Fall fast asleep
Dream of me
As I dream of you
Keep me close
As I guard your heart
Understand your mind
And get to know who you are
You may be far from where I am
But the distance is nothing
I’ll always be here for you
Just hold my hand
And let me know
You can be my man
“Little Things”
It’s the little things that get to me
It’s the memories I’ll always remember
It’s the way I always felt
It’s the times I won’t forget
The little things that get to me
The moments we had
The times we spent
The lies that broke me
The times cheating happened
It was everything
Especially the little things
That seemed to change me the most
The little things that get to me…
“If You Only Knew”
If you only knew
What I felt
When your lips touched mine
They felt so fine
Just melting before you
I knew right then and there
I found love in your eyes
Holding me like you do
There’s nothing that I can do
But love you for you
If you only knew
There’s no way I can
Forget you
So don’t ask me too
I love you for you
There’s nothing that I can do
You made me fall for someone like you
You might forget me
But I won’t
Because a girl like me
Will always
Be in love with a guy like you
If you only knew…
I love you for you
“Something”
I felt something
I never saw
I saw something I never felt
It was pure
But it was sweet
It was cool beyond belief
More like bittersweet
The love for a simple melody
I think it was
When you met me…
“Thinking Lately”
If it’s all that I do
Just wondering about you
Kissing someone else
Loving someone else
When I still love you
The way that I do
The way I always have
Baby if you could only see
What you mean to me
Craving your lips
For just one kiss
I miss you beyond belief
I wish you only be
The man I used to know and love
I would give up everything
Just to be in your arms all over again
Just to know you feel the same as me
And know I’m not just loving the wall here besides me
Baby just let me know
You love me
As much as
I love you
Because you just got me
Thinking lately…
About ya
“This Girl”
I met a girl
That was like no other
Sure we was shy at first
While she carried her purse at Jesus Camp
Played her soccer
And talked about TANNER
But there was something more
Something that I couldn’t forget
Something inside this girl that I just had to know
Looking at this girl just makes you smile
Her style throws you
Her stories get to you
I met a girl
That you’ll never know
Cuz’ she lives in farm country
Where the cows go
But then again
I met a girl
That’s a crazy dancer
Knows exactly what to say
Even at the right time and moment
I met this girl
And don’t think I’m bi
But I love her
More than you’ll ever
Cuz’ she’s my very best friend Angelica Adriana
You see
She’ll always mean everything to me
Forever you’ll see
Yes I know I’m corny
Yes I know I’m crazy
But sorry I’m only
Trying to be truthful
To a simple friend…
“Darkness”
The clocks moving
But we’re just standing still
Not moving
Just looking
It’s kind of creepy
But kind of weird
Where did all our feelings go
Why don’t we let it show
You love me
I love you
People talk
People think
Just let them be
Don’t you see
I love you
But the hands keep moving
Time’s not rewinding
Just leave me here
In the dark…
Where the lights go out
Again and again
“Solidarity”
I go to sleep
Just to dream
About everything
Most of all
For what I have
Who I am
And what I believe
Just imagine
If the things you have
Were gone away with
The people you loved
Vanished before your eyes
The race you were
Was left in the dark
Answers and questions spinning out of control
Places and feelings there’s just nowhere to go
How is it we are blessed
But yet we’re not as thankful as all the rest
The pray we laugh
They cry we sigh
The live with nothing
We live with everything
But yet the world’s still collide
“Just Thought”
I just thought you were the one
Thought you were like no other
Pictures it in my heart and soul
Dreamt of it over and over
But something mislead me
Something screwed me over
Made me believe something
But that something just wasn’t there
Now this pain I feel
Is inside me
Deep within my butterflies
Among my shattered feelings, thoughts, and dreams
That; run right through this broken heart
Every time I try to breathe
It just gets harder and harder
Every time I’m in the sight of you
I just get dizzier and dizzier
You’ll never understand how good you had it
I loved you, with everything I had
And with that you screwed me over
Over and over again
“Once Again”
Standing out in the cold
No sight of where you’ve been once again
Everything’s changing from where we’ve been
Thoughts and feelings always adding up
Images of you and me gone and gone again
Only photographs remind me of our times
For this was our prime year
So listen up
Clearly now
This is how I felt
About everything
Once again…
It was as if by light shining through
A glimmer of hope was at my door
You told me you still loved me
I told you I still loved you
But that wasn’t enough
Would you still be true
By being only you
Once again
I can’t afford anymore pain
And I’m not asking to start a game
I just wanna know
Do you think…
You’ve got what I want
What I’ve been dreaming for
What I’ve been hoping for
If so please continue calling
But if not my heart’s broken once again
So thanks again for everything
Once again
I’m not just a girl
I’m a girl that’s crazy for dealing with you
And you’re not just a boy
You’re a boy that’s crazy
For dealing with me
But we love being crazy
So let’s just let that be
Once again
And in the end
You’ll always make me think
Wondering if another heart break is worth it
Wondering if you’ve really changed
For the better
Making me pick if I want you again
But don’t you know
I’ll only end up
Dazed and confused
Once again
“Jordan Baumes #4”
11/10/88-10/21/05
Pictures and visions come to mind
Sayings and phrases are all that’s said
Memories of past times will never be forgotten
He was Jordan, or big red
Always there just being a friend
“You’re buttons undone again, Jordan”
I can hear him laughing in my head
Saying “Ms. Hartnett how’d you catch that?”
The peacemaker of our high school drama
The star of our basketball team
That was Jordan all right
He was more than just a friend
He was our role model
His words linger in my ears
As if he were still here
“Why aren’t you going to homecoming?”
“Because Molly won’t be there”
He loved Molly anyone could see
He respected everyone
A gentleman to be
Always positive, hugging, and smiling to anyone
Everyone knew Jordan
Right down to his big red fro
His last words I’ll never forget
“YO WE CRAZY”
And he was right
“One”
One decision
Can change it all
Your life
And everything else
One dilemma
Can render your future
Set you astray and make you confused
One choice
Yes or no
Or however the story goes
Can make everything
Seem so blurry
Expected to make
The best in everyway
But all you feel like
Is running away
Not fighting the battle
Or learning from your problems
You’re sick of everyone
Getting in the way
You’re sick of life
In everyway
One crossroad
Changes it all
Young or old
We all go through it
Sometimes when we expect it
Other times when we least expect it
But we all know
Sooner or later
We have to face the music
Better said then done my friends
Better said then done
“New”
Someone new
I’m thinking about you
Wishing on this star
For only you
Hoping you are doing the same
But with my luck its
All just a game
“Slowly Backwards”
There you are
Again just as I imagine
There’s everything
I remember
Just how it use to be
Too bad I’m only
Day dreaming…
Like I seem to often
Only wishing
Things went back
To how they used to be…
“Love Letter”
I wrote a letter
Just for you
Telling you how much
I do love you
Letting you know
I’ll always be there
No matter what we’ve better through
I wrote this letter
Just yesterday
When all my problems
Seemed so far away
I dropped the letter
In the mailbox
Said good-bye
And I was on my way
Always knowing that one
Letter will never change
What has happened
To us or help us out
Anyways
I wrote a letter
That did nothing
But only make me
Want you
More that I
Ever did…
Just my luck!
“Stomped Over”
Crowded in a certain place
No way to get out
No way to get in
All you see is faces
Pushing in pushing out
People start screaming
There is nothing you can do
But join them too
Chaos takes a turn for the worst
Shouting clawing
It seems this life maybe over
Before we even knew it
As the fire began to blaze
And face us with this great ordeal
Living or dying at only eighteen
“A Feeling Within”
Times are changing everyday
You’re getting older now in everyway
Realizing everything is for the better
Knowing nothing will ever be the same
Looking around and loving
It’s better than holding it in
Knowing that this is forever
A simple feeling within
“Wake Up And Open Your Eyes”
Wake up
Take a shower
Forget everything
About you and me
Start a new day
Pick out a new style
Be who you ought to be
In a whole new way
Go to school try your best
Letting your mind
Forget about the past
Talk a lot and smile too
Things like this can help me
Forget about you
Hang out with your crew
That never seems to judge you
Let your mind just drift away
And be who you ought to be
Just for today…
“Deep Inside”
Wake me up inside
When I feel like
I need to hide
Deep within my soul
Among my heart and mind
Let me know
You’ll be the one
My number one
Let me know
You’ll be my captain
My rock, my soul mate all in one
Let me know
That you’re there
No matter what
No matter when
Just let me know
I’m you’re number one
Because that’s what you’ve
Always been to me…
“Oh What A Day”
Thinking back to yesterday
Oh what a day
Before it started
It was over
Before it began
It ended
Nothing left to say
Come what may
Oh what a day
Don’t you say…
Getting sick and tired
Of this whole thing
It’s like I’m singing out of key
But then its just me
That’s left again
Kept so deep inside
Might as well just hide…
It’s better than many things
Before I took a breathe it was over
Before I looked up and smiled
It was over
Better said then done
Keep your feelings
Out of the way
Or you might as well get hurt
Trust me been there
Done that like they all say…
Oh what a day
“Seems”
I seem to always think of you
And everything we used to do
When I see you from time to time
I wish somehow, someway
There was a way we’d find
But the more I think
The more I know
That girl who makes you laugh
And makes you smile
Is better than I would ever be
Just trust me
And let that be
See, I’ll always love you
Just like you used too love me…
Or so it seems
“I’ll be gone”
10 more days
And I’ll be gone
Away from you
Who would’ve known
I’ll miss you
I’ll think of you
And I’ll never forget you
Just kiss me slowly
Let me remember
Everything we’ve been through
Baby you’re the reason
I’m smiling today
As our dreams fade away
Never forget
I’ll always love you
Just put your hand in my hand baby
Your hand is mine to hold
My heart is sold…
We can build this thing together
Even stand in stone forever
I love you!
“Do They Really Know”
Do people understand what I’m thinking…
What’s running through my head
I might’ve said what I did
But do they really know what I’m feeling
As I’m dealing with all this…
My grades are slipping
My mind is going crazy
This life I’m living
It feels like it should be over
Over just like the end of a book…
“Miss You”
In class
My mind goes crazy
Just a little hazy
I feel a little dazy
I miss you
I love you
I wish you
Were here dear
To hold me
To love me
To tell me you’ll never leave me
So I can look in your eyes
And tell you the same
It’s not a game
It means a great deal to me hun
I love you Jeremy
“Crush”
There is nothing that I can do
It’s like that saying “you can look, but don’t touch”
You can smile just nothing else
You can’t forget there’s someone else
Who dreams of your smile
Who dreams of your touch
You can’t be like all the rest
Breaking his heart and going behind his back
That’s wrong, that’s not right…
Oh crush, I hope you understand
This won’t work this won’t last
You might as well just pass
Pick your books up
Keep your head up
And just walk pass
You’re a good kid
I’m sure you’ll find a good girl
I’m sorry but…
This girl’s taken
This girls in love
I couldn’t see why we can’t still be friends
It’s better then nothing
I hope you understand
My friend
“Baby, I Love You”
Whispering, laughing, holding
This is what I want
Kissing, cuddling, loving
This is what my dreams are about
I’ve never met anyone like you
I don’t know what I would do
If I were to lose you
There are very few guys that are like you
But, I only want one
And that’s you honey
I love you!
“Lost”
I’m so lost
I feel like I’m caught by a pull
I fought to get here
But now that feels so dim
I don’t know what to do
What would you do
If you were me
And I was you
Would you feel free
Like you can walk
You can stand
On your own again
You can speak
You can say
Whatever you want
And you don’t have to think twice
You have no one to worry about
Nothing to dread
Easier said then done
Oh what a life that would be…
If only you could see
How much you really mean to me
I hope you understand all you’ll ever be to me
Is simply just a good friend
“The Truth”
I’ve never been like this before
But then again who’s keeping score
I lost track back then
Now its time to pay the price
And face the facts
This pain is mine
These tears are mine
No one knows, no one knows, no one knows
I wish I could tell someone, anyone
But I can’t what would they say
What would they think
Maybe feel…about me
For the rest of my life
On my knees I beg
While tears fall like a waterfall
Constantly running down my cheeks and eyes
This wasn’t suppose to happen
It wasn’t suppose to be this way
I have dreams I have goals
But apparently I just threw them away
Like everyone I know would say
If only I looked in their eyes and told them
The truth
Everything would be okay
“Alone”
I feel so alone
No phone call from you since Thursday morning
I just don’t know what to do
Or who to turn too
Your grandma hung up on me
As soon as I said my name
Your friends and relatives say they haven’t seen you
You roommate won’t stop calling me and asking about you
You can’t leave me like this
I can’t do this alone
I thought you loved me
Where did you go
You making me cry day and night
With nightmares I can’t seem to get out of my head
And you promised you’d never hurt me
Just let me know your okay
That’s all I ask
I can’t deal with these days that have passed
I miss and love you way too much
To just let you go so easily
I told you I would never leave you
And I meant what I said
I’ll wait for you
As long as you want me too
I still love you Jeremy
I feel so alone
“Good-bye”
I just want you to know
I was with you a three years
I never once cheated on you
Yes I had many chances too
And you even know that
But guess what I never did
Because I always knew I did love you
In the back on my head
And I knew I trusted you
I won’t let you get the best of me
Not now not ever
You had you’re chance with me
And you blew it
Good-bye I should’ve knew it
“I’m So Over You”
Am I moving too fast
Am I trying too hard
If I’m living to die
Why am I dying to live
If I’m striving to become
What have I become
If I’m lost but found
Was I ever lost at all
But you were always pulling me back
Just like the rest of my past
Now you’re stuck in a rut
And you want to pull me back
No way not this time
You’ve tried and tried
You might as well just pass
Give up, I have its all in the past
You’re not worth my time, at least not this time
I’m just surprised I can still rhyme
It’s sad I know but so are you my friend
One of these days karma will come after you
Good luck with that you’re going to really need it
But whatever what do I care its not like you ever did
Everything is already said and done
Just leave pass, walk away
I’m done with your ass
Worrying about my past and looking back…on all the rest
Or was I just afraid that I let you get away with hurting me
Not anymore
That’s not who I am anymore
So fuck you
I’m so over you!
I hope you’re new girlfriend
Knows the truth about you
You’re a user and abuser
A liar and a deceiver
A player and an asshole
I’m so over you!
But, in the end
You’ll never let up
Just please stop calling me…
I’m so over you!
“From The Start”
Right from the start
She knew right away
Just the way he said his name
Boy, you got this girl going insane
She calls him her prince charming
He seems too good to be true
Holding the door for her
And surprising her when he can
After so long of hurting
What makes her so special
He calls her his princess
Even though she hates to be treated like one
He wants her to understand
That he’s a fan of her everything
But she doesn’t, not at all
Not one bit
She can’t get over the stupid things she’s done
He says it’s all in the past
She regrets them everyday
But he helps her get through them
With a smile and a phone call
Just one look in his eyes
And this girl knows
He’s for real
He’s telling the truth
Like she’s never heard before
She’s thinking she just maybe love this boy
The boy is thinking the same
The girl is me;
You are the boy sir
My prince charming
You are indeed my fairy tale baby!
MRB
“Prince Charming”
This is crazy
Just a little hazy
This feeling inside
It seems to good to be true
But, it has to be you
Prince charming where have you been
You have mended my broken heart
Made me feel like I was worth more
Shared your feelings, emotions, and kisses with me
What else is next
I don’t want to ever part
From the start
I knew right away
Just on that day there was something special about you
From this day on Prince Charming
You will be forever in my head
I love you Michael Robert Brand<3
Prince Charming where have you been all my life
“She’s Just Lost”
She’s been on the other side of the world
She’s done thing’s she’s not proud of
She’s played sports
She’s gotten hurt
Maybe more than some
She’s been the topic of every conversation
She’s been the dork that walked through the door
She’s been suspended from school
The joke is on the principle my friends
She’s been chased by cops
She’s been caught with drugs
She’s been in and out of the hospitals
More than she can count
She’s been tested more than animals
She’s been called a slut
She’s been called for bail
She’s been told she’s no good
But still she proves them wrong
She’s been called a sister and a friend
She almost died in an undertow when she was four
She was in a tornado once or twice
She’s been in love
She’s cried herself to sleep
She’s believed in fairy tales
And watched loved ones close die
Yet the nightmares and scars won’t seem to go away
Pain just stays the same
This girl is just lost
For the cost of it all
As she falls to the floor
Once again
What else is new
“My Big”
Her name is LeAnn VanDaesar
And she’s no Caesar
Most people just wish
They could be her
She owns more clothes than your mother
And drinks more than your father
But she has a great body
Like a super model
She makes
Her sisters of SOE
Look damn sexy
Can’t you see
Hehe
She drives a black jetta
That hisses in the warm weather
Yes she can even drive stick
She probably practices on Ricky’s dick
Gross! That’s sick!
I’m just glad he makes her happy
Even if they both are pretty damn sappy
She likes her MacDonald salads
And mustard on just about anything
We should all make a song about her
Fergalious, Pinky’s Way
You can say anything to her
And she’ll understand
She’s great at advice
Deciphering Disney trivia
And making you laugh even if your
As stubborn as me
She’s close to her mom
Wouldn’t you be
Her mom’s the bomb
And she even works in a factory
Making fishing line
Okay I guess I ran out of rhymes
But hey that’s pretty cool
She’s from Rome
Not Italy, New York
A pretty cool place
If I do say so myself
Overall this girl is amazing
That last poem I was just kidding
Just saying I hated her
She likes sports just as much as me
And Maliee her little doggie
She’s as crazy as me
LeAnn is level headed like my daddy says
She knows exactly what she wants to be
She makes everything look so easy
Geeze now I really do wish I were her
Then again in the end
I’m glad she’s my sister from another mister
And yes I really do love her
Liz and I will just have to fight over her
Even if they are soul mates
“All It Takes Is One Touch”
My hands get all tingly
My stomach sinks
When the butterflies come in
It feels like a sin
I’m taking
But, I don’t regret making
Your eyes see right through me
Like you’ve known me for years
You know my fears, wants, wishes, hopes and dreams
I feel like a little school girl all over again
When you touch me
When you hold me
When you tell me you love me
You understand what it means to be my man
When I don’t see you for awhile
All I have to do is dial you
Listen to your voice
And I can’t stop smiling all over again
For the next time I see you it makes it ten times greater
It feels like Christmas day
All it takes is one touch
And my hands go crazy again
I love you Michael Robert Brand
You mean the world to me
“My God”
She’ll sit here
Hearing all around her
But she’d rather be somewhere else
Not here
Not even close
She’ll look down at her cell
From time to time
Watching the time just pass by
She sighs
My God she misses him…
“Back Again…Bond”
I’m back again
It’s hard to believe
I touch the desk
Close my eyes
And hope to God he’s by my side
Open my eyes
And sure enough
I’m four hours from him
I broke down in tears yesterday
The word good-bye seemed so far away
But when it was my turn to say it
My tears did all the work
I know we’ll meet again
Just not soon enough
I just gotta remember to stay strong and tough
He loves me
I love him
Nothing can tear a bond like ours
A part
Back to school again…
“All Nighter”
I pulled an all nighter
Just sitting there
Thinking about how much I miss you
I sat up all night
Thinking about reasons
For what I love you
I couldn’t stop
Once I started
As you can probably tell
I’m still awake
I can’t go to sleep
Until you know them all
You might think
That is silly
But baby this is who I am
No matter the miles a part
It doesn’t stop my heart
I pulled an all nighter
And I’ll do it again real soon
Just thinking about you
Makes me feel closer to where you are
No miles can keep my heart
From you
Or staying true like I do
I love you
I would never leave you
I see a future with you
My all nighter lover
I just wanted to tell you
You’re worth it all
Michael Robert Brand<3
“The Space Between”
All these worlds are left unsaid
This question is forever running through my head
I read your note over and over
It said you’d wait for me
A month, year, or life time
Will you always be mine
These tears fall down constantly
Down my cheeks and eyes
You tell me you’re confused
But you still say, “I love you”
I’m alone
You’re alone
We agree on that, at least
The space between
Is what’s getting to us the most
You hate when I say, “I miss you baby”
Because, you know you miss me too
I’m sorry I can’t lie to you
Or hide my feelings, like you seem too
There’s no one else I’d rather be with
Than you
I love you more than anything
Those miles between
Have nothing on us
It’s just you and me baby
And that’s the way it should be
“I’ll Take It To The Grave”
Take this shaking knife from me
It’s pointing at my heart
This lie I have to keep from you
It’s tearing me apart
I don’t deserve you
I hurt you
It was a one time thing
Never again
I was never like this before
But lately who’s keep score
You want room to think
Then fine
You don’t know if you feel the same
Then fine
I feel I’m always waiting for you
A day, week, a month, or three
A phone call missed
Isn’t a big surprise
It’s actually something I’ve gotten used too
You’ve been confusing me
My thoughts and feelings
Aren’t helping me
Holding me under
Not letting me breathe
He was nothing close to you
And he never will be
My guilt is my punishment like the Scarlet Letter
I have to wear it on my sleeve
I fear if I tell you
I’ll never see you again
Walk away with your head down
I couldn’t bear to see you that way
With these tears in my eyes
And this visible mark on me
That no one can see but me
I have to be like all the men before you
In this life I lead
I let alcohol get the best of me
Just, please forgive me
Because I can’t forgive myself
The sound of your voice on the phone
Is killing me
Did, I make the right choice
Or make the worst mistake of my life
Thrown away my love in life
I’ll take it too the grave
I’m sorry but I have too
This hurts me more than you know
I’ll take it to the grave
“I’ll Get Pass It”
I can do it
Keep my head up
Act like nothing’s bothering me
Keep strong talk to you when ever I can
Let you know you’re the only thing in my heart and head
The only one I want to hold my hand
You’re in my heart
You’re on my lips
And on my words for these poems and phrases
The one I want to kiss
The one man I miss
I risked losing you once
I can’t do that anymore
I’ll get pass it
It might take some time
But I’ll do it
I have too
You probably never will
That’s why I choose to never tell you
And it’s always killing me in the back of my head
With your words, “I love you”
Always haunting me
I’m not worth your time
Its just better left unsaid
I’ll get pass it
One of these days…
Maybe someday
Or can I just dream
It will all just go away
Like a nightmare
From childhood
I’ll get pass it
“Just Friends”
I did something wrong
It wasn’t right
I listened to your voicemail
And I heard her name
I couldn’t help but listen
I’m sure any girl would do the same
If they knew your password
And the way you’ve been acting
She made it seem like
You were much more than just friends
Like a little school girl
She giggled saying your name
What am I suppose to think or say to you
Of course I deleted it right away
Maybe I was just looking to settle the score
Because, I feel guilty for what I’ve done before
With everything left unsaid
I can’t help deny it really makes me feel dead
Long distance seems to get harder and harder
Day in and day out
I just don’t know what to say
If you feel the same
Or is this still worth it
This just feels like a game
The more you push me away
The more I want to stay
I want to work through this
But I feel like it’s just me that wants it
Maybe it’s too late
I just don’t know anymore
Or maybe you’re right
And you’ve always been
We should be
Just friends
“I Feel So Numb”
I know I said I wouldn’t do it again
But what do you expect
You told me you were too busy
Well what else is next
I can’t do this anymore
Or settle this score
I’ve sinned before
But this is much more
I feel numb to everything
No longer guilty or afraid
I can’t hide this powerful thing
Don’t blame me for wanting more
I never did to you
It was always about you
Never once about me
Respected you did hurt yourself
I was still there
In times of need
This relationship takes it toll
On a mutual thing
Between you and me
You were always afraid
To say how you really feel
Until it got out
And you couldn’t take it anymore
Well it’s too late
It’s my turn to say
I can’t take it anymore
I guess this really isn’t fate
We never really had a first date
Good-bye
This is so over
In the end our story is out
But these feelings are
Forever in my head
I wish you really knew
How I truly feel…
“I’m Twisted In Place”
My emotions have a grip on me
My heart is on my sleeve
I have feelings for someone else
And someone else has feelings for me
I’m twisted in place
This isn’t right
And I can’t seem to face the reality
How can I love another
But like someone else
I’m cheating love
I’m playing the game
I’m doing something
I have no shame in
I’m twisted in place
I can’t pick which way to go
I love him
But I like you instead
What is going through my head
I’m fed up with this mess
I want to fess up
Just confess the truth
And tell the one I love
How I truly feel
But lately he’s been too busy
To ask me how I really feel
So I had the one I like to turn too
Oh God was that a bad mistake
It’s not you
It’s me
I’m not a cheater
I’m a lover
Not a fighter
And I can’t live with myself
I hurt him
I’m twisted in place
I’m twisted in place
I have no one to blame
But the insanity of myself
I take reasonability for my own actions
It’s time to pay the price
Face the facts
And uncover these lies
I’m twisted in place
And I don’t know what to do
Maybe distance will help
I’m twisted in place
Over you
Tell me what to do
I’m twisted in place
I’m twisted in place
I’m twisted in place
Oh my God
This isn’t me at all…
“You Can’t Keep Up”
I don’t understand guys like you
You have a girl
Eating out of the palm of your hands
But still you ask for more
You tell her you love her
Even though you really don’t
It’s like some sort of game to you
You want more than you bargained for
But there’s no buy one get one free on this girl
At least not anymore
Sorry try the next girl
I hear you’re good at that
Maybe Rachel will do
I’m sure her boyfriend won’t find out
I hope your girl knows about you
If not
Sooner or later she will
Karma’s got your back
You better keep up
Not everything’s that easy
Even you should know that
Check out that score
You better keep up
The pace just picked up
Faster and faster
You’re doing this to yourself
I’m just enjoying the game
But, it feels like I have ESP
Like I’ve been here before
Unfortunately I’m just as guilty
My guilt is my own
I grim and bare
My punishment
But you can’t keep up
You made your bed
Now lie in it
Not literately
Figuratively
Of course you’d never understand it
So forget it
You disgust me
It’s as simple as that
For playing along with you
Well not anymore
I’ve retired my number
The coach took me out
I can’t take anymore
My friend’s just laugh at me
I’ll take that
My guilt is my own punishment
It’s sad
You can’t even admit that
What what
Okay I’ll admit it
I got her drunk and wasted
Stoned until she just roamed
Unable to speak
Unable to communicate to anyone around her
I was the one
That crossed out her, “I love you”
On your white t-shirt
It was just for shits and giggles
And yeah I’ll admit it
It was wrong
And overrated
I was immature
And stupid
Sorry to your girl
If she were to ever hear this
You can’t keep up
I was the one you kissed upstairs
While she was unaware what was going on downstairs
When she left
I was the one you called on
To sleep with
Mess with
And dream with
I was the one you cheated on her with
Not just once 5 times now
Who’s keeping score
I didn’t even know
You had a girl
But you knew about my boy
Can you say scumbag
You can’t keep up
I was the one then
And now I’m the one saying good-bye
I’m so over you
I’m so sick of who I’ve become
I can’t keep up
It seems so fake
Your girl may never forgive me
My boy may do the same
Well at least I had the balls to admit the truth
Even if it’s through this poem
I got it out of my head
On to this paper
Relax and catch your breathe
I’m done with this shit
You can’t keep up
Stop calling
I’m no booty call
At least not anymore
You’re sex was whack as it was
You better be falling now
To the ground
Smacking your head on the floor
Maybe that would put some sense in you
Or maybe not you are just Hydro
The water sign
Nothing ever sticks in your head
You can’t keep up
The pace slowed up
Come on your pathetic
I’m walking now
Stop breathing so hard
I blame myself
For getting caught up
That’s my deal
I’ll take it
More than you would ever
What else is new
You can’t keep up
I’m over you
What did I ever see in you to begin with
You can’t keep up
I’m passed home plate
The crowd is going wild
I won the game
And you’re still breathing hard
How pathetic
Lose some weight already
“I Want Him Instead”
I’m famous for the mistake I did
But I regret making
I want him instead
I’m sick of what I did
I’m pass that
I’m over it
And so should you be
You flirt with other girls
But you say you have one main girl
What do I care
You’re hurting her not me
I want him instead
You text
And call me constantly
Hey Hydro
Get over yourself
I’ve had better
Even by a girl
Grow some balls
Maybe a dick
And go get on with it
I want him instead
“I Did It”
I told the truth
I uncovered this lie
But why do I feel so dead instead
I took off the necklace
I cried myself to sleep
I read his note over and over
I looked at old pictures
I miss him more than anything
But I did it
I should feel happy right
I told the truth
I uncovered this lie
And he won’t forgive me
Maybe it just wasn’t ever meant to be
It was always the distance
That we had a problem with
I did it
I told the truth
I uncovered this lie
But I can’t seem to hide these feelings
Or ever get to sleep
I’ll always love him
As you can plainly see
Is it bad that I just want him back
I told the truth
I uncovered this lie
I did it
“Whatever It Takes”
Whatever it takes
I’ll do
Whatever you want
I’ll see it through
I’ll do anything just for you
You say it
It’s done
No questions or hesitations
To hold your hand
To have you be my man
To just help you understand
Whatever it takes
I’ll do
Whatever you want
I’ll see it through
I’ll do anything just for you
You say it
It’s done
No questions or hesitations
I messed up
I won’t hide it
But no matter what I do
I can’t deny it
My feelings for you are true
Michael Robert Brand, I’ll always love you
Whatever it takes
I’ll do
Whatever you want
I’ll see it through
I’ll do anything just for you
You say it
It’s done
No questions or hesitations
Whatever it takes
Sweat and blood
To earn your trust back
I’ll do it
Just to be with you again
Whatever it takes
I’ll do
Whatever you want
I’ll see it through
I’ll do anything just for you
You say it
It’s done
No questions or hesitations
This time and space from you
Is my punishment
Tell me holding on is worth it
Or moving on and letting go
Is what you want
Because baby whatever it takes I’ll do
I’ll see it through
I won’t give up on you
Not just yet
I miss you
Whatever it takes
I’ll do
Whatever you want
I’ll see it through
I’ll do anything just for you
You say it
It’s done
No questions or hesitations
“Decisions”
Yes or no
Should we stay
Or should we go
Mother may I please
Just get you out of my head
Move on with all these
Decisions still going through my head
“Time”
Time’s moving forward
But I’m always looking back
Wondering if what I did was worth it
If this is really meant to be
I love you
Just the same as the first time I told you
Nothing will change that
Time’s moving forward
But I’m always looking back
I did you dirty
I spit on your heart
There’s no way you deserve that
Move on baby
Time’s moving forward
But I’m always looking back
You can do it
Don’t think any other way
You did the right thing
This is the hardest thing for me to say
Time’s moving forward
But I’m always looking back
Wondering if what I did was worth it
If this is really meant to be
I love you
I’ll always be here for you
Time’s moving forward
But I’m always looking back
Was it really worth it in the end
I guess I’ll always be the one missing you instead
What can I say
People make mistakes
I’m sorry
I hurt you
But I’ll always love you just the same
“The Cheating Game”
When I met you
I saw your letters right away
Confused and unfamiliar with LIU
I didn’t care about my feelings back then
I was faithful and hopeful
So deep in love with another
As time went on that quickly halted
I was found at fault
For having feelings for you
Quickly, telling my mind to leave you alone
My distance lover
Left me hanging
As his phone never ringing
You were there
In times of trouble
When I needed someone the most
I wasn’t trying
To cheat it’s just the game
I learned, when we got together
I don’t regret it
Even if I should
Because I really do like you
It’s called the cheating game
You win some and lose some
And life goes on
You regret you change
But your feelings are forever the same
I still love my distance lover…
“I Don’t Know Anyone”
I say I’m sorry over and over
But it doesn’t help
I tell you I miss you
You say “I’m not sure what you want me to say”
I don’t expect you to say a thing
I just want you to understand
I still do love you, I do still care, I’m still here holding on
I don’t know anymore, what more can I say that I haven’t before
I’ll always regret but never forget…
For what we had
Maybe it’s just better off this way
I’m sorry I got in your way for finding number one
Better luck next time everyone will say to us
It’s always the same story
I don’t know anymore
What more can I say that I haven’t before
“Shower”
I take a shower
Twice a day
To wash away my troubles
But nothing seems to help
There’s something about this place
About who I am
Is really getting to me
I can’t seem to deal
With what I’ve done
Or who I’ve become
God help me pull this knife back
From coasting against my skin
I miss him
“Trying”
Trying to stay awake
For the sake of it all
Trying to keep my eyes open
Before I fall fast asleep
Is it bad
That I don’t seem to care anymore
Nothing seems the same anymore
My grades are slipping
And I can’t stop skipping class and everything else
I kiss a guy
The next day I kiss a new one
Nothing else besides with my ex
Which I regret as it is
Trying my best not to think of him
Trying my best to not love him anymore
But you know the truth
Just look in my eyes they don’t lie
You can clearly see
I still adore him
Just like before, I wish I didn’t anymore
Trying to stay awake…
Trying, just trying
“Before She Was My Sister”
I met her so long ago it seems
But who’s keeping the score
I lost track back then
Somewhere between the exs and the sex
Before the long nights
Staying up all night
And cramming for the big test
Somewhere in the middle of all the fights
The hearts broken
The tears shed
The pictures taken
The memories still in my head
The words spoken
The friendships started
The smile made
She was my friend before my sister
She was my role model before she left
She was on my line
She understood what it meant to be on time
I met her so long ago it seems
And now she’s leaving for the Army
Good luck to her and all she does
She’ll always be in my heart and in my prayers
Love you, Jenna!
“Foolish”
Foolish girl what are you looking for
You know you’ve been here many times before
Foolish girl what is up your sleeve
Why must you plead
For the things you will never see
You had the key in the palm of your hands
But you let it slip
You let it slide
Now you watch from the side lines
As you hide away
In dismay
Hoping one day
It will come again and set you free
Foolish girl it’s always the same story
Deception lies, actions never taken
Foolish girl what are you searching for
Disappointment is more like it
Foolish girl just move on
Get used to being let down
Foolish girl hold your head up
And smile like you know you can
Foolish girl just for today
Act like no one can steal your soul away
“Untitled”
He’s a player
You’re a whore
What more are you looking for
He wants the easy things
You want to show him you’ve changed
There’s something about this boy
That has you coming back for more
You don’t know where to begin
You don’t know where to start
He gives you butterflies
As soon as you walk through the door
Makes you feel weak like nothing you felt before
You’re feelings are getting to you
You’re emotions are on your sleeve
He’s an asshole
You’re a bitch
But still things don’t change
You like how they stay the same
You don’t know where to begin
You don’t know where to start
He’s not like a boy you’ve ever met before
He’ll beat you up
Tell you how it really is
Before you walk out the door
He makes you smile
You make him smile
Even if you are just good friends
You don’t know where to begin
You don’t know where to start
He plays with your emotions
You play with his heart
It’s a win, win situation
With the tension in your heads
Being in control
Fighting for so much more
Is what has you coming back for more
You love the pull
You love the struggle
You don’t know where to begin
You don’t know where to start
It’s the things you can’t have
You want more of
Why does life never seem fair enough
You just want to show him you’re worth it
Even if the two of you have been hurt before
But that’s in the past
And we’re in the present
Time’s moving forward
We aren’t looking back
Your not getting any younger
Age is just a number
You don’t know where to begin
You don’t know where to start
You just want a chance
To take a risk
And when everyone asks if you’ll jump off a bridge
You’ll take that dare
You’re not scared
You only live once why not take a leap
Have fun and not regret
The choices you’ve made
You don’t know where to begin
You don’t know where to start
All you want to do
Is to make something special with him
But what more can you ask for
“Something Rather Than Nothing”
I’ve made all, the mistakes in my life I can
The only thing I want to do now
Is start something
With you
That’s unplanned
Something that’s not according to the plan
Something that takes a risk
To an unheard of beginning
Or a shaky start
Something life should be all about
Something you don’t know which way it will go
Something that will be fun but yet exciting too
Something that will have its downs but ups
With every unknown step we take
Conversations will help
To built the foundation of everything
That something will grow and grow
And if it may die someday, someway
Well at least we can say
We gave it our all
We at least can say we tried
Something rather than nothing at all