i need help with my suicide thought
Mood:
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Well,today is my new blog entry.Well let's begin with my most recent thoughts that ive been having. For the reason for these thoughts is because i believe that nobody really cares about me. i somehow know that may not be true,but otherwise it seem like impossible for anybody to really love me. well at least ike me for me. i have no friends that i can talk to.all i can do is work and pay bills.it maybe for the reason that i am the oldest of 4 children and i became like a housewife.believe m that i have a lot to say.maybe someday i can get over the fact that im always having these suicide thoughts.but not enough to be taken to like amental hospital. i am a cutter though,and i dont really care. but also my girlfriend tells me like how i dont care what other people have to say or anything like that,why should anybody really care about me.that hurt but it made me angry right after.im causing her stress in her life and i do blame myself alot for that. well i will finish this in a bit just have a lot of thoughts in my head and i cant seem to put them in order right now.
