Mood:  don't ask

Marilyn Monroe once quoted, "Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." I concur. I've come to the realization that I'd just as rather keep my issues to myself. Twenty percent of those I tell don't really give a fuck and the other eighty percent are glad that I have them. I'm loved but I never love. I attach but never combine. I'm always stumbling but I never fall flat on my face. I'd rather be damaged and broken than shattered. I talk about my strength but never of my past. I am trustworthy but I never trust. I crack every once in awhile but I never open myself to vulnerability. I keep true to myself and no one else. I live for me and no one else. I do what I do and have no regrets. There are some points in my life that I might have at one time or another doubted myself. So many close calls where I could've been in situations where I could've literally and figuratively fucked myself over. Those where the times in life where it was do or die. The thing is we can all say that we believe that everything happens for a reason and to a certain extent that may be true. Yet everything happens for a reason because of the choices we as individuals make in life. That is why when I fuck up, I own up to it. I can't point the finger at another for my foolhardiness. I dislike people who are so quick to fault others for their own shoddy judgment. It's like seriously no one was holding a fucken gun to your head, you had a choice and you made yours. So why not own the fuck up to it and move the fuck on. It's really not that complicated; we are the only ones who make it complicated. Everyone's always talking about how they wish they could just go back to that one moment in time when everything in their universe was exactly how they wanted it. I'll admit I've been guilty of wanting that same thing on more than one occasion. That was until I realized that wanting to go back to that moment in time is futile. What's done is done it's in the past it's ashes. It's so amusing to me how many people go on and on about the unfairness in life. Nobody ever said life was going to be fair. Every day life is a struggle no matter how you look at it. My life hasn't been all sunshine and rainbows as I'm pretty sure there are many others out there who would agree with me about their lives.