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Mocha's Blog
Wednesday, 14 October 2009

I HAVE NEVER

 

EVER GIVEN

 

ANYONE AT ALL

 

PERMISSION TO

 

USE ME FOR ANY

 

ONES PUBLICITY

 

VIA SOUND,

 

PRINT, NOR ANY

 

USE AT ALL OF

 

MY SERVICES.

 

I HAVE

 

NOT GIVEN

 

ANYONE

 

PERMISSION TO

 

USE ME AS A

 

GIMMICK OR A GAME.

NO ONE EVER

 

ASKED!

 

 

I DO NOT LIKE

 

 

BEING

 

EXPLOITED

 

 

AS A RAPE

 

 

VICTIM OR A

 

 

FEMAL HUMAN

 

 

BEING AND A

 

 

MEMBER OF THE

 

 

COMMUNITY BY

 

 

RADIO, TV OR

 

 

PEOPLE IN

 

 

GENERAL.

 

IF YOU CAN NOT

 

HANDLE THAT.....

FUCK OFF & SHUT

 

YOUR FACE!

I HAVE BEEN

 

THREATENED,

 

BEATEN,

 

POISONED, HELD

 

AGAINST MY

 

WILL FOR THIS.

 

WHO EVER IS

 

RESPONSIBLE

 

FOR ALL OF

 

THIS YOU HAVE

 

DONE TO ME I

 

WILL DO MY

 

BEST TO

 

PROSECUTE,

 

FINANCIALLY

 

SUE FOR

 

COMPENSATION

 

AND PRETTY

 

MUCH REAM YOU

 

IN THE HIND

 

END OF YOUR

 

OWN!

MY CHILDREN

 

HAVE BEEN

 

THREATENED

 

NUMEROUS

 

TIMES OVER

 

THIS TOO IN

 

THE PAST.

 

YOU

 

HAVE NEVER

 

STOPPED TO

 

THINK ABOUT

 

WHY I STAYED

 

AWAY FROM

 

THEM FOR SO

 

LONG.......

 

EXPLOITATION

 

OF  MINORS!

 

THEY ARE

 

CHILDREN OF A

 

CRIME VICTIM

 

OOVER AND

 

OVER AGAIN!


Posted by the-fu-update at 1:56 PM EDT
Updated: Wednesday, 14 October 2009 2:11 PM EDT
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Tuesday, 13 October 2009

Mood:  not sure
Topic: You said what to me?

Sorry this is all out of sequence. This is the first blog I have ever done and I should add not very well written. Since I left to drop of some jewelry and smoke a cigg and came back two police officers are here in the library. I am not too noided out really. Just because a few tried to kill me in the past and another splintered my arm for sleeping in a vehicle somewhere else. And for all of this I have never had legal help for any of the police brutality.....financial compensation for it. This town so far they have not done this to me.........Yet.

The fall of 2000 I was living in an apartment in West Minster Maryland. I had recently been released from the local hospitals cardiac care unit to the nuthouse. I Od'd on muscle relaxers. I was constatnly harassed by a local radio dj. He was also joking at the same time about how they will slow your heart down real slow. The next day I ate over 40 of them. The hospital staff and patients denied him doing this.

I started going to counseling at the Carroll County Rape Crisis Center. I had 2 jobs. Both part time and needed more to do to stay busy. I started putting together a fund raiser for the crisis center but the county hit me with a $10,000 deposit the day before it was due in and they first said I would not have to pay a thing. I did not formally advertise it because it was only in the works.

During this time period I stayed on the internet alot. I often felt uneasy about the constant babble from that dj. He also happened to be the same one who some said he could get him to help me do a really nice comercial for the fund raiser I had put together to raise funds for the house of ruth. I had agreed to clean the dj's home. In good humor it was to be done dressed as a french maid. Harmless yes, but later the night before I was supposed to go to his baltimore townhouse he called and I got a little worried about it. I told my friend Eric I thought it sounded not so good. Then the dj's friend called me later in the middle of the night and said he was at the dj's hous and wan't me to come over for a 3some in the hot tub there. I said no thanks and that I had company. About an hour later I put Steve Buckner's office number in the dj's pager (he was my divorce attorney) and called the radio station and complained. They did not like this. Appartly I was thought of as a lamona chicken making a cow noise. I later then called in and won 2 meet and greet back stage passes to megadeath. I said I was Erica and then put my friend Eric on the phone to give his info. Since they were pissed off already at me. Then they started saying on the radio (This part was funny), "Little Eric your tickets to the Metallica concert at the highschool gymnasium are cancelled".

Well..........On the way to Megadeath Eric and I met Lori Smythe from the station and Christen. I explained a little more in detail what had transpired over that stuff with their other dj. They were not aware of the fact I was writing for a metal mag (a small one though) and that it was also a publicity agency.

Well back to my going over the bleeps in my head about the past.

I stayed online alot. I often went in the chatrooms and would chat with other people about silly things like aliens, cheese whiz, being probed and cyber sex with dental implements. We were all just joking around.

I often spoke with someone from another city. We often chatted about people who annoyed us.  He also said to take my pc with me when I went on vacation. I should of listened.  

I listened to that radio station alot. They often joked around about me. I could tell. The other dj's weren't really bad. One day they said for callers to call in who wanted to be a guest one their morning show. It was to be in  3some. So I went as Lisa the bisexual housecleaner from Westminster. He knew it wqould be me, and I was not posing as anyone else really. There really was no one else in that city by that name bisexual in the past who cleaned houses wanting to go on the air about a threesome other than myself. I know the dj was being a smart ass and I did not want to uase my reall name on the air because I was working on a fundraiser and didn't want to booger it up. I also did not participate4 in the 3some and no words used on that morning show were the same as the phone calls made to me at my apartment by that dj and his friend. I also told that dj after the show I was goiing to be attending Seton Hall University in South Orange ,Nj for radio, Tv and journalism. He looked like he was going to puke. Then I gave him a cute little green rubber alien on a safety pin that came from my ex oldman who used to party with him.

Anyway.......I left West Minster and when I returned a little over a month later my pc was stolen with some other things and they caught the people who did it. I never got the pc back. I was working on a book to raise funds to build a run away shelter. OH WELL! It was Patrick Holtzinger that did it. He was in his early twenties and he was arrested. They found him with my other belongings.

I moved up to Nj to go to school. It was very odd since I had not really gone to high school because I had run away at 14. Then again at 16 and only had a GED and a certificate from a business school for typing. It was very different there. I was staying in a motel across the street from where the New Jersey Devil's Hockey team practiced. I met this really funny person who was performing at a comedy club near by and he took me as a guest to his show. I had a blast. One of my goals was to do stand up comedy. I figured I was going to be on the air across the river from the great Howrd Stern and Robin Quivers. I found them terribly funny and never really figured out who it was they did not want crawling in under there show.

I was at the motel for a few days and got a call that someone had stolen an elderly couples credit card info and charged over $6,000 on cell phone equipment and a pizza. Apparently the p[izza was purchased in Sterling, Va near Dulles Airport. I insisted I did not do it. They kerpt accusing me and my friends. I kept telling them I did not live with thme for a long time (I am a grand mother now but I do not look like it) They refused to call the police.

After comething horrible happened in Ny I called the Montgomery County Police dept. because this coupld still accused me of this and then admitted they had bought a Persian Rug. The PD said only the owner could report it so I called the NSA and told them. I also got a letter from the Motel where I was staying about the card I used and what the owner had said to them on the phone. and gave it to the PD where I was living.

(Why is a Duck who can't play guitar on the back of a BNizkit's tourbus on national radio) hopefully I can finish and post this tomorrow.

 

 


Posted by the-fu-update at 3:59 PM EDT
Updated: Wednesday, 14 October 2009 1:54 PM EDT
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So what do the words, "So what" and two people chopping carrots have in common?
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: You said what to me?

March of 2002 I went and lobbied Congress with the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence (Not for being beaten by the police in the future several times).  With my stupid deposition from my 3rd x husband admitting his violent behavior in a file folder, off I went to lobby to try to help retrain, train and help fund the formation of special domestic violence teams. I had no idea a few months later that I would be calling 911 from my apartment in Rockville, Maryland to get help for my older daughter. A friend of hers call late that night and said her car was rammed by her husband's car and she was ripped out of it and drove away. Her friend did not know what to do. So I so stupidly called 911 to help. You would think for the $200,000,000 I helped raise with my own bloody beaten body's history would of helped. Instead I was laughed at. Told that no one would respond. I called several times. They finally said to call the state police. They did the same. NO! I called 911 back and they still refused. I threw something out the window yelling what assholes they were, yada yada yada.Over and hour later the Rockville city police showed up after I was going to bed. They were yelling that I was holding a small child in my apartment which I was not. I stayed in the h allway smoking a cigg and watched them pry open the door. If I had been behind it they would of squashed me on the marble side table behind it. They came in behind a body bunker. I could not help but stare in total disbelief to such moronic shit I think I might of giggled. They had there flashlight pointed at me and guns drawn. They looked extremely paranoid for a bunch of assholes pointing guns at me. They soon realized I was armed with  loaded tobacco cigg and slammed me on my back on the floor. Demanded I was to drop my smoke. I said I could not because it would land in my hair. He proceeded to squeeze my hand really hard and flicked the cigg onto the floor behind me in my bedroom. Two male cops lifted me up off the floor. One on my right arm and one on my left. They ran me down the hall with my feet lifted off of the floor and to the left and crashed my head on my marble dining room table and tazed my upper back twice behind my heart and threw me into a pile of glass on the floor. The help me down. I never had at all during this fought them off or struggled. I only stated I would not let me hair be burned. The female officer said, "she's bleeding". They cuffed me and one walked me out to their police car. I told them when I got in the car I had called 911 over and hour ago and they refused to respiond to help my older daughter in another location all together. They then called it in (like they had no idea) Then took me to Shady Grove Adventist Hospital. They xrayed my head and my nose was broken. And they saw my burns. One cop was saying really loud from the other room, "She's PAGAN". The nurse asked if I was upset. Of course I said I was and they LOONED me to cover it all up. They also removed private property from my home. A chalice and an an axe. It was Labor Day weekend and I was supposed to go camping with my younger kids but they could not go. They never returned these things either. And taking that Chjalice was also a civil rights violation. So is a botched response to the wrong local, after refusing to help, and beating the shit out of and trying to call the exlobbier mother who called in for help for her daughter. I tried to get legal help afterwards but due to obnoxious and unseen circumstances I could not get a lawyer to obtain the dispatch calls and help from the two dumbasses who were crashing their cars that night to help me.

Some time ago early 2003.......Someone recieved a call in an emergency and responded, "so what"?

Next time someone calls you and tells you they were raped again this is not generally the response one hopes to get.

If someone is in a strange city and has no one there at all to help, scared to say anything (it was not the first time that has happened) A little bit more concern would of been helpful.

The hospital did nothing to help either. Just stared back in my face. It seemed they were happy about it and said nothing.


Posted by the-fu-update at 3:05 PM EDT
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