Finally, you found me. I know exactly where I am in life and I assume you must know where you are too. I've just been waiting until we got onto the same page.

I can tell you, right now at this moment, I am missing you. It is 3am and I am in my bed by myself and I am desperately lonely. That's how I've felt ever since you walked away from me. I am so proud of you for having the strength to have done that, but the wait is torture. 

Now the wait is over.

Do you know how frightening it is to live in this world without you. Of course you do. Everyday I'm completely still and everything around me is moving so quickly. Every face I meet is a blur. Everyone is running toward something that has never existed for me, and I know it doesn't exist for you either. Somewhere, you are completely still too.

We always knew we lived in a world of wonder. It wasn't meant to work out perfectly from beginning to end. We never would have worked if you didn't learn how ugly I could be. You needed to hate me before you could really love me. 

 I hated you. While we were together, I hated you for being so different and so perfect and understanding me when I could hardly understand myself. I was young, and you weren't letting me be young. I could never hate you as much as I love you.

 I love you so much. I love you so much I watch my favorite (and yours once too) movies over and over again, and listen to the songs that defined our relationship on repeat even though it's a war on my heart. I love you so much I speak to you even though I haven't seen you in years. I forgive you for the person you are being right now. I understand why you won't respond to my emails and why you're trying to forget me. I love you so much I try to forget you, but that love is still there. I love you so much that I'm putting this out in the universe. Because the day you find it, you will know that my love for you doesn't fit in this earth. It's a thing of the past, of the old world. It only fits in this world of wonders.

And my magic eyes will capture your old soul again one day my sweet little chipmunk. 

Thank you for finding me. I've been waiting.