San, if I am that flower that grows in filth...I promise that whenever I am with you, I will leave that filth behind. I love you. Please forgive me for everything that has happened. I can never tell you exactly what you mean to me, but I am sure you can feel it. I learned from you what love is and how it can simply be felt. I hope you can feel mine. Please don't alienate me from your life. I'm so sorry for causing you pain.