Khud se Alag

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I am Rohit from bihar. i want to tell something about love.. coz i m also in love withning 7 year and my love live with me always time in my heart. coz i love heartly…
main jab 8th me padhta tha tavi se ek ladki mujhe pasand thi wo mere sath ek school me padhti thi but wo mere se one year junior thi.. but mai tb nahi janta tha ki pyar kya hota hai or kaise hota hai.. aakhir mujhe apne pyar ka ehsas tav hua jab mai apne pyar se alag hua i mean to say jab main us school se pass hoke dusre jagh admition liya.. mujhe bilkul acha nahi lag rha tha .. hmesha uski yad aa rhi thi but maine kavi use aisa nahi btaya ki mai use pyar karta hu coz mai khud nahi janta tha.. bs ek felling thi dil me…
ek din uski frnd se kisi trh maine uska contact num liya or use kuch din bad call kiya or use pucha ki tum rakhi bol rhi ho or usne kaha “ha mai rakhi hu” bs tb maine call disconnected kr diya tb hmri pahli baat hui choti si… fir maine use kuch din bad call kiya but maine use apne bare me nahi btaya ki mai kon hu warna wo mujhe pehchan jati or mujhe dr tha ki agar wo mujhe pehchan jayegi to mere pe gussa kregi or fir kavi baat nahi karegi so maine use apne bare me use kuch nahi btaya bs usse ache se thora thora baat karta tha dhere dhere hm jyada bate karne lge uski frnd v mujhse bate kiya karti thi,, es bich pta nahi kab mai usse bht pyar karne lga, usse bate kiya bina rha nahi jata. hmesha uske yado me duba rehta tha ..
aakhir ek din aisa pl aaya jab mujhe use apne bare me btana pda .. us din uska b’day tha and maine use bola ki bolo ki aaj ke din tumhe mujhse kya gift chahiye to usne mujhe apni schhi btane ko bola tb maine bina kuch soche use apne bare me sb bta diya tb wo mujhe ache se pehchan gayi q ki hum ek school me sath me padhte the ..
but wo mujhse bahut naraj ho gayi q ki maine usse bahut kuch jhut bola tha …wo kuch din tak mere se kuch v baat nahi ki. mera call receive nahi karti thi .. or na hi mere ek v msg ka jwab deti thi..
but fir kuch din bat usne mere se baat kiya or bahut sare question kiya.. or maine sare question ka jwab nahi de ska.. but fir v kaise v akrke usse smjhaya, but wo manne ko ready nahi thi wo bahut ro rahi thi . jab uske rone ki awaz suna to pahli bar mujhe bht bura lga. mere wjh se koi ladki pahli bar etni royi.. hum ab tak ek dusre ko perpose nahi kiye the but hum dono ke dil me pyar tha.. fir dhere dhere sab thik ho gya or maine use perpose kiya but tab wo acept nahi ki . but baat karti thi . fir ek din jab wo kisi realition ke shadi me gayi or raat me akeli thi tab usne mujhe 2bje raat me msg se perpose kiya but tav main soya tha main koi msg ka jwab ka jwab nhi diya tb usne mujhe call karke uthaya or mai jab uth kr msg padha to mera nind hi ud gya.. khushi ka thikana nahi tha .. aisa lga jaise maine kya paa liya .. tb mujhe uske i love u ke jwab ke sive kuch nahi smjh aa rha tha…fir hum raat me baate karne lge. jab mrng hua tab maine usse call kiya or usse 1000 bar i love u bolne ko bole or wo bolti gayi. & main sunta gya… aise hi hmra pyar badhta gya or hum dono ek dusre ki jaan ban gye… hum ek sath khana khate.. jab v maine khane jata to use msg ya call karta tb wo v khana khati..
aise hi time bitta gya or hmra pyar badhta gya.. hum dono ka ek alag sapna bnne lga jisme hmri ek alag duniya thi . us sapne me jate hi humri future ki yade such lagne lagti thi. aisa mn hota tha jaise wo pl wahi pe ruk jaye.

but life me bahut sari problem v thi.. hum ek nahi ho sakte the coz hum ek cast ke nahi the.. hmre pairents kavi nahi mante hmre shadi ko.. hmre pyar ka 7 saal ho gya . hmne bahut sare sapne dekh rakhe the but hme pta nahi tha ki wo sapna kavi pura nahi ho sakta ..
ek din aisa pl aaya jab uske pairents ne uski shadi fix kr di .. tb hm dono ko aisa lga ki hum mr gye. hum dono bahut roye.. maine use bhagane ka plan bnaya but hm hmre faimaly ko taklif dekr ek nahi hona chahte the qki aise me hum kavi happy nahi rehte….
fir uski shadi ho gayi or mai kuch nahi kr ska.. bs use khud se alag hota dekhta rha.. or wo v kuch nahi kr ski.. hum hr pl mrte the but kisi ko ehsas nahi hone dete the …
but uske shadi ke bad v hmre bich kuch nahi change hua.. hum avi v usse utna hi pyar karte hai jitna hmesha se karte the.. hum aaj v ek hone ka sapna dekhte hai or shayad ab hum ek ho v jaye.. es puri real story me bahut aisi bate hai jo maine share nahi kiya or mai karna v nahi chahta q ki maine apne love story bs type krke show krna chahta hu.. apne dil ko bahr nikal kr show nahi karna chahta..