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Friday, 10 April 2009
Thinking thoughts
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: The Cranberries
Topic: Me

At this point in the day I'm sitting on my butt waiting for Jim to come back online. My brother's wife- Sara, will be here in an hour or so to fix the pipes and so on. Everything is tore up in the bathroom right now and I'm hoping and praying she fixes it so it doesn't happen anymore.

I finally got my charger cord for my laptop, so now it actually holds a charge and all that great stuff. I feel so tired... and hungry. I think I might go eat some cereal before Jim comes online... Anyway... not much else to report at this moment... I'll try and write more later.


Posted by myjimmylifemylove at 1:07 PM EDT
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Thursday, 9 April 2009
Me
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Watching: Snapped on Oxygen
Topic: Me

 

 

In this entry I'm going to talk a little bit about myself.

My name is Katie and I'm from a small town in Southeast Ohio. I will be turning 22 this month on the 24th. As most of you have already guessed, I am deeply in love with a man named Jim. I am very happy to be with him, he brightens my day and makes my life worth living. He is the most amazing man I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. He's smart and funny and talented and so kind and loving. I cannot now imagine my life without him. He is brave and strong and so enduring. His health problems are a major concern for me only because I worry about him. This cannot be easy for him at all, even if he's use to it. I love him, honestly and truly, 110% and I don't care if my family can't accept him. Because if they can't accept him they can't accept me either. His age is merely a number, nothing more.

Besides spending time with Jim, I love to write and spend time with my family. Writing has always been a passion for me since I was a young girl. When I would come home from day care or a baby sitter mom would let me get on the computer, a very old computer, and type words and sentences with her direction. I loved doing that, I loved the computer and the games I would play on it. There was one imparticular that always kept my interest but for the life of me I cannot remember the name of it. At any rate, writing has kept me sane in difficult situations. I have attempted suicide four times and with each time I have gone to a psych ward in three different hospitals. Three of those visits were spent in two hospitals, twice in the first one, one in the second hospital.

The first hospital was an okay one, atleast you were able to come out of your room for awhile. My second time in the first hospital was a very difficult one. I would close my eyes and try to sleep in my room but every time I closed them.. I saw horrible visions in my head, at that time I did not realize the worst was to come. Once I was out of the hospital, I had a follow up visit with my doctor at the mental health facility in our town. As I sat in the waiting room I noticed that my neck began to turn without me doing it. I got back to his office and my back started to arch slowly at first. It bent backwards for some time while I attempted to explain it all to my mom and the doctor.

Once my back stopped arching (temporarily) I began to hallucinate visually and auditory. A sign in his office that was hanging high above on his wall broke apart and became a different picture. Whatever it said it made sense to me, but no one else. As I walked out of his office there was a picture of a waterfall on the wall. I heard the water moving and I saw it too. It was the most... odd experience in my life. As we walked outside to the car, my legs gave out on me. A very nice man and woman grabbed me and picked me up and got me into the car.... A week or two following that, the symptoms continued except for the arching. At one point that day my back arched so badly that I almost snapped my spine. The hallucinations continued for some time until the medicine the doctor gave me helped cancel it out and made me much better.

I went into an adult psychiatric ward later on, after my fourth attempt. I had quite an experience during my fifth attempt (i forgot the fifth one, lol oops)

I will share that at a later date.

These experiences have taught me quite a few things, but the two quotes that always pick me back up off of the ground are-

"Every problem is a seed of opportunity." and-

"You're trying to find a permanent solution for a temporary problem."

Those two sayings, pieces of advice, they keep me going.

My family is also a big thing in my life. They are my support system and I love and rely on them to keep me strong. And they do a fine job at that. My nieces, Indeka (oldest girl), Alize (youngest child) are my babies... my darlings... I would do anything for them... absolutely anything. My nephew (the oldest) is an amazing young man. He is so smart and so fun, he is just a great guy. He often starts sentences with, "And did you know..." He is incredible.

My mother and brother are two of my best friends. They have helped me through so much, so very much. I am currently battling a drug addiction and those two help me out so much.

My father is a great man, much like my grandpa on his side. He is honorable, respected, and loved more than he will ever know.

My best friends, Angie, Amanda, Liam, and John are such great people. I would do anything for them, I would bend over backwards to help them. I love them dearly.

This will be one of the first among many entries that I will share such things with you who read this. Keep an eye open for new things...

-Katie


Posted by myjimmylifemylove at 12:34 PM EDT
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My reason
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Alanis Morissette- Head Over Feet
Topic: My Jim

 

 

 

I created this website for my love, Jim. He is an amazing man and keeps me happy. I am looking forward to spending my life with him. In this website I plan to post my poetry for him and others that I've written. This site is for Jim because he means more to me than any guy ever has. He is my best friend and the love of my life. I only hope that some day he can completely trust me and see the good I see in him.

Jim is the most amazing man ever, he has helped me through so much and lifts my spirits every day. There is no one like him and there never will be. He is so caring and so wonderful... I honestly could never say enough good things about him- the list would go on forever.

He is a very good man and I want to spend my life with him.


Posted by myjimmylifemylove at 6:00 AM EDT
Updated: Thursday, 9 April 2009 12:34 PM EDT
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