Mood:  spacey

So i guess the reason im writing this is because i lack a general focus in my life and this blog will be a way for me to keep my sanity.

Tonight was interesting, i work as a manager at a resteraunt, i went into work and started my shift change counting money in the store, when i fininshed my audit i found that i was $2.40 over the amount i was targeted at, and as the night rolled on there were more audits on the till depending on who used it. each time it was to the penny, but at the end of the night after my 3rd audit the numbers told me i was now $19.84 short of target. clearly someone got over on me or the other manager tonight. that was frustrating.

tomarow my wife and son are going on a trip to visit her parents in texas for 5 days, i will miss them, but this time will allow me to be immersed in my work, so its not all bad.... just mostly. It is clear that we need more personell perticurly "servers" and my boss doesnt seem to see the need to hire more people. training at this store moves at a snails pace, and im supposed to tackle this problem, lots on my plate as of late.

i havent been very good to my friends or family as of late, it is difficult to provide for my family and still find time to have a social life or even to listen to what a friend has to say on the phone for any given period of time.

over all i would say i have a little of the holliday blues, someone very special to me is also dealing with the blues and i havent the slightest idea how to comfort her in the things shes dealing, it makes me sad and makes me feel worthless as a person, when i just cant seem to win if i gain a little ground on one front, i lose twice the ground elsewhere

well im done whining for tonight....