Mood:  chatty

Okay, so I mentioned earlier that LovelyD is not Kson's real dad. I'm sure you are wonding about how that happened and the story on that.

Well, a few years ago, LovelyD and I worked opposite shifts. He worked during the day, I worked at Night, that way we wouldn't need a babysitter. It got to the point where I thought we were only together for Sson. I didn't want to do it anymore. I decided that after our lease was up on the house we were renting, I would move back home and LovelyD and I would no longer be.

That was the 1st time LovelyD and I were engaged. He thought that was why I was leaving, because we had been together for so long, and I wanted to get married and I didn't think it was going anywhere. When LovelyD asked me to marry him, I said yes. I thougth that was what I wanted. I thought it would make things better. It didn't. Things got worse between LovelyD and I. I would come home from work and Lovelyd would be waiting for me, so he could tell me how much he loved me and wanted me to stay. I think that pushed me farther away because then, I never wanted to be home when he was home. I stayed out late, partied, whatever. Then, LovelyD did something I deserved- kicked me out. He didn't kick me and Sson out, just me. I don't blame him. I would have done the same thing. I was staying out all hours of the night, we were fighting even more.....it wasn't good for us, it wasn't good for Sson. So, I was kicked out, enter Kson's biological father. Dumbass is what we will name him....

Anyway, Dumbass and I started talking, I ended up moving in with a friend of mine. I would I would help watch saidfriends kids, clean house, cook, pick up saidfriends kids from school. I worked at Applecook as a grill cook, not making enought money and always overdrafting my account.

So back to Dumbass and I talking...

One night, while I was at work, a server came back to the kitchen and told me that Dumbass and gullible (Gullible was a new server at Applecook, not been there but for a week, and I had befriended her.) were eating together and then going to go bowling. I said I knew, we had planned on going bowling after I got off work, but since I had to close, they would go over to the bowling alley before me. Jserver said no, that he didn't think it was a friendly diner... I went out to the dining room to raise hell, and they were gone. An hour later, Jserver comes back to the grill line to tell me that Dumbass and Gullible were back out there, sharing a plate and he had his hands all over her. I went out to Dumbass and told him if he wanted her, that was fine, to take her and go home with her. I was done. Dumbass then tries to talk to me, I ignore him. I did try to make him look like an ass in front of all his friends. By saying MANY things that I wanted to say....(ie, I hoped he liked looking at her fat rolls while she sat on top of him.....I weighed 120 at the time....she was much bigger than I was..... And so ended that relationship-or so I thought.

When I would work with Gullible, I would say things to her that I almost got fired for....Stuff like If it felt like everyone was talking about her, it's b/c they were...I would call her a slut, make her ticket times long if I knew it was her tables. One night I stayed the night at a friends house, which was where Dumbass stayed too. When Dumbass came home, he tried to rub on me- whatever- I pushed him away. The next day at work I saw gullible and Dumbass kissing outside. When Gullible came back into the kitchen, I asked her if she knew that I had spent the night at Dumbasses....she said no....I said I saw you guys kissing, and I hope that shit tasted good..... I honestly didn't do anything w/ dumbass- why the hell would I want to, I was just saying it to make her think- to piss her off. I said a lot of shit to her and I was pissed. I had just met this girl, I had tried to befriend her. Not too many people were fond of her, and I was trying to be nice and get her in our circle.

The group that I worked with at Applecook was like no other. We all got along, we hung out after work. We had a good time. I think there was 1 time where we all went to a party and just everyone hung out. Then, from there, we had a little click that we stuck too.

So, I had worked until like 12, 1:00 in the mornings at applecook, I would wake up at 6, and go get Sson from LovelyD. I guess my body had enough. I didn't hear my alarm go off, I didn't wake up until 9:00. LovelyD had to call out of work, needless to say, he wasn't too happy....That was also the day of my 22 birthday. I told LovelyD I would be there to get my son- he didn't want me to. I called my parents crying. They told me to call the police and come home. I had planned on going home and going to school. LovelyD was going to keep Sson so I could work and go to school and not have my family worry about watching my son. There was an issue with my sisters watching him when I was working and living with my parents the first time and I didn't want it to happen again. I told my parents that I was going to leave sson w/ LovelyD so I could go to school. My parents said to bring him with me. Do not leave the state without him. I called the cops around late afternoon, Msis had to drive down that night to help me get my stuff, I finally got Sson back around 9:00, same time my sister arrived, we packed up my stuff and left.

I regret that whole day. I wish I would have done things differently. I was clearly in the wrong. The way I was then, I am surprised LovelyD didn't take me to court for full custody. He would, in no doubt, have won. I have learned from my mistakes, and I am moving on. I am building a better future for my family and I now.

So, about 2 weeks after being back at my parents house in KY, I learn that I am pregnant. Dumbass told me I HAD to get rid of "it" b/c he didn't want anymore kids.   (Dumbass now has 6 kids by 5 different woment) I couldn't have an abortion, no way. I was upset and confused with what to do. I didn't want my child to not have a father. I wanted him to be loved by both parents. I knew I had to have him, but it was unsure if I was going to be able to keep him. For the longest time I worried that I wouldn't be able to provide the love and support this baby would need. I wondered if I would be the best choice for this child.

2 weeks after I find out that I am pregnant, I receive a call from Dbartender at Applecook. Who tells me that Dumbass and Gullible have just announced her pregnancy

I have 5 sisters and 2 brother

Jsis- The oldest of us all. She went to college from the time she was 18 till she was 24. She just graduated as an engineer. She is very successful herself, but sometimes I THINK she thinks she is better than us because how her life has turned out. I like to think of Jennifer as the mouthy one who tries to change your life.....

 Msis- She is the 3rd oldest, She has blonde hair, blue eyes, and a GREAT BODY. She is 20 years old. Guess what, she has 2 beautiful children. (She also has 2 baby's daddies so to say....only hers like to give her hell.) She is a wonderful mother and puts up with a lot. You better not mess with her, I am protective over her. I like to think of her as the pretty one.

Psis- She is the 4th in line, she is 19 years old. She has a boyfriend who goes to military school in South Carolina. She is a CRAZY GIRL. She is also very pretty. She is tall too- she could kick some ass. She is looking for a job right now that can support her habit......That's right ladies and gentlemen, I too have a sister that is addicted to BINGO. I know. What can I say. I'm hooked to. Not like her, I haven't been in FOREVER, but maybe someday soon when I have 3 hours and 20 dollars to waste. I like to think of her as the "Princess" being she always wanted to be one

Lsis- She is the 5th in line, she is 17 years old. She is a senior, in FFA, She went to state for something for FFA and got money for it, not a lot, but atleast she won something. She has a boyfriend who seems to make her happy. I like him. He is nice and helps out with things around the family. I think of her as the odd one- FFA is odd enough...right?

Ksis- she is #6. She seems all sweet and innocent on the outside, but I will warn you, she's not what she puts herself out to be. She has an attitude and a mouth like no other. Watchout. You don't want to cross her.....She is 16 years old and thinks she can stand her ground-THINKS- Isn't that right Ksis ;-)....She helps around the house with babysitting the kids- you ask her to clean, and you get a hell no, but she is wonderful with kids. I guess it all evens out in the end. I like to think of her as the smart ass on the inside, sweet innocent look on the outside.

Sbro- He is a freshman this year, forgot his age...sorry bro....but he has the body all the girls go crazy for. He was RANKED 2nd in the state for wrestling last year and he also plays football, I don't know if he is going to play baseball or basketball. He is smart, and you better believe he is a ladies man with as many sisters that he has. If he has a girlfriend, and treats her bad, they know where to turn to. We'll set him straight! ;-) I don't think we will ever have to though. I like to think of sbro as The one with the complete package.

Abro- He is in 6th grade. He loves WOW....in case you "crazy" folks out there don't know what WOW is, it stands for World of Warcraft. He also likes to play PS2, XBOX....You name it, he loves it. He is very smart too....Last year my mom had to ban him from playing any games during the week because his grades started to drop and he would never do his homework. I like to think of allan as the undercover Nerd. He looks like Harry potter with his glasses and his shaggy hair- don't tell him that, he's sick of hearing about it.

I think of myself as the stubborn one.

LovelyD- My ex-fiance 3 times, I think I said 4 earlier.... I really meant 3. And he is my boyfriend for a total of 6 years. He is 28 years old this year, is a WONDERFUL dad to both my kids....our kids (the story comes later) He works as a correctional officer in the prison and is looking at becoming a peace officer for the Nashville Police Department.

Sson- My olderst son, 4 years old. He has blonde hair, blue eyes, looks just like LovelyD. He is also a smart ass, like LovelyD. Smarter than a firecracker and he ALWAYS wants to be outside.

Kson- my youngest, 10 months old, was born 2 weeks after my Msis's daughter. His biological father lives in Tennesse. I hope I never have to deal with him again. LovelyD has taken the responsibility to be Kson's father. Thank goodness or there would be no one.

Anephew- My oldest Nephew, he is Msis's son, he is 2 years old and the cutest thing. He is spoiled rotten, but is too cute!

Aneice- she is my neice, also Msis's daughter. She is 2 weeks older than Kson, and she too, is SPOILED ROTTEN.

Mt- she is LovelyD's mother. She lives in TN, and she is wonderful. I love her to death. She is always more than willing to help with anything.

St- LovelyD's stepdad. He also lives in TN and he has always been there too help too. He is a real handy man. He works hard to support his family. He always has something to work on and can fix just about anything. He painted his dads 1950's tractor and it was absolutely spotless, so clean. He is a perfectionist.

Ssis- she is LovelyD's sister. She just graduated highschool and she is the type of Daughter I would love to have. She is beautiful, smart, outgoing, an all around wonderful person.

Rsis- she is LovelyD's youngest sister. She is usually quiet. LovelyD likes to torment her more than anyone else, and I feel sorry for her b/c she has to put up with his crap. ;-) She is definetly a daddy's girl. I believe she is in 7th grade now. She is also very pretty and very smart, just like her sister.

Pdad- LovelyD's dad, He is an ITT, lives here in KY and I don't know too much about him. I know he was in the army. He has had multiple back surgeries. He works hard to get what he wants. I always feel bad b/c Lmom and I are always talking and I think sometimes he thinks I ignore him, I don't, I'm just set on 1 thing, I can't pay attention to too many things at once. I always catch myself AFTER I leave, that I just said by to Lmom, not him.....I don't do it on purpose. Next time I'll remember...(What I always say....I don't have the best of memories)

Lmom- LovelyD's stepmom. She is a beautiful redhead. She works at a major company and is very professional. I like talking with her.....I think because we both talk so much....girls girls I know.

Zbro- LovelyD's brother, he is 5 years old, and is Sson's uncle/best friend. They are exactly alike in everyway. Only Sson is blonde, and Zbro is a redhead.

I think that is all of everyone in the family. I'll post one of my friends later. Now, it's time to tend to the baby.

Mood:  chillin'

So, I have finally started my own blog webpage. I always wanted to, but never got around to doing it. I get bored a lot at work and wish I had something to do. Now maybe I can access my blog without being Forbidden by IT.

So, to start off my firt blog, I will tell you a little bit about myself.

I am 23 years old. I have 2 kids. A 4 year old and a 10 month old. I am not married, nor have I ever been. I have been engaged to the same man 4 different times. I am almost single again....More on that later. I just graduated from a small college and I am now a certified Professional Coder. I work for a major insurance company for the south region military. I love my job, I love my life, I love my family. I figure I should write a little bit about some of the people in my life so when I talk about them, you will know a little bit about them. I will of course change their names. I guess that is just the basics for now. More story telling to unfold later. I have a huge family, and there is ALWAYS something going on. Believe me, I have stuff to write about for days and days.

So you know a little bit more about me, I have come up with a 20 something list about myself.

1.) I grew up in a small town in Indiana, there was 75 people in my graduating class before I moved in 7th grade.

2.) I love watching UFC fighting. C'mon-who doesn't

3.) I love "The Fray" I started listening to some of their old songs at work, and I am addicted for now.

4.) I am, yes- I will admit, a BRITNEY SPEARS FAN!

5.) I got pregnant the end of my senior year in High School

6.) I broke up with my current boyfriend, started seeing someone else, and guess what, got pregnant by him too.....

7.) Nothing stands in my way. If I want it bad enough, I'll get it, I'm not cocky, just very determined.

8.) I used to smoke cigarettes. I have kicked the habit. This is the 2nd time and hopefully the last. I'm doing good so far

9.) I am getting ready to break up with my current ex-fiance/boyfriend again. (You'll hear about this for sure). That doesn't mean I still don't love him.

10.) I am a very stubborn, forgiving, impatient person

11.) I don't take too kindly to stupidity and have a problem with letting people know they are being stupid

12.) I moved to Kentucky when I was in 8th Grade, moved back to Indiana, then Back to Kentucky all in less than a year.

13.) I moved to Tennessee when I was 20, back to Kentucky when I was 22.

14.) I want a mini van. Not a SUV, a mini van.

15.) I always wanted a laptop, a video camera, and a digital camera. My ex-fiance/boyfriend got me all 3 for my birthday last year.

16.) I want to get back into shape

17.) I would love to be able to visit my grandmother in Indianapolis every weekend.

20.) I don't talk to my mom or my older sister. (More on that later)

Well, there you have it. A little bit about me. Thanks for stopping by, and come more often!