Mood:  chillin'

Well, after a long dry spell I hear from a sub wanting to be slave in Canada that is ready to relocate and has a home to sell to do it.  He was pleasant enough on the eye but alas he was only 35.  I have drawn the line at 40 in that direction simply because I would feel awkward.  he's younger than my younger sister and would have been the same age as my child if I hadn't miscarried in 71! 

he wanted  to keep his foot in the door by "learning from Me" and "just talking and being friends".   I told him to go join a forum, that that's what they were for. 

Mood:  down

2009-03-21

I have had it, I am throwing in the towel on trying to find a worthy slave!   I don't believe one exists.  If he sounds good and qualifies, the first time I don't want to do something or do something My way instead of the "conventional" way, they run for the hills because someone has told them that REAL Dommes or Mistresses don't do it that way! 

I need someone with some staying power that isn't going to leave until I tell him to.

And they keep wanting to Instant Message instead of send an email!

I tell them I will IM when I get ready and not before but they don't listen.

To hell with them all!  I'm going to take a break and try to save to have someone give Me a quote on writing several free grants so I can maybe start a business and get a home if possible.  I have My doubts as to whether I can get enough.

Mood:  chillin'

It's a rainy day AND a Monday so go figure.

Another year, another sub/slave with 20 years supposedly telling ME what HE needs! 

He'll buy a home for U/us BUT he wants a certain kind, in a certain setting, and done a certain way in order to accomodate HIM!  This is about ME asshole, NOT you!

I do not care to have a home out in the boondocks where it will be hard for fire and ambulance to come!  Where the neighbors are 10 miles away.  I don't like close "elbow" neighbors either, but that's to the extreme.

he is a masochist and NEEDS to be beaten on a regular basis.  Well, if you had read My profile you would have seen that I AM NOT INTERESTED IN MASOCHISTS!

I thought maybe he wasn't sure about how he needed it like a lot seem to be.  They know they like some pain so they mistakenly call themselves a masochist.  And maybe there ARE different levels. Why not?  I'm just not that sadistic.  I do like to do things unconventional that may be too much for the average sub.

Like I want to play with a remote control space ship while My sub is secured with his legs spread and arms over his head.  Or tie a wicker basket onto his balls and see how many small rubber balls will fit until he yells "uncle". 

Mood:  on fire

I'm writing this with My vibrator against My clit.   Hmmm, deliscious!

I love massaging My breasts but it would feel sooo much better if My slave could do it.

I had talked to one that was out of work and struggling to sell from an online store through advertising.  After a month of not seeking "real" work, I told him that the online stuff was great for a hobby, but he needed a real job!

he never would send My virtual flowers according to My directions.  I punished him twice and finally threw up My hands.  It takes two to want to make something work and if all he sought was discipline,  I bore of that quickly!  MY need is obedience!    And begging.  If he would write back and beg to get back into My graces, I might take him back! 

Mood:  a-ok

The last two subs that expressed an interest in meeting and getting to know Me were grey headed and that's a big turn off for Me.  It makes Me feel like I'm with My dad.  Yuck....so I tell them if they're going to be My slave, they'll have to dye their hair or shave it.   Men, even so-called slave material are sooo vain that they move on and I never hear from them again.   That is a very good test!

Any man wanting to be a slave - a real slave would agree without hesitation.   What's the big deal?  It's not like putting a permanent tattoo or being forced to suck another man's cock, good grief!

Mood:  caffeinated

 Went to meet a local sub for lunch today in spite of My thinking there wasn't any attraction chemically.  I just wanted to see if meeting in person would change My mind when I could smell his cologne if he wore any and see his body language.  In his picture he wasn't smiling and sometimes that can make a difference.  I don't much like the photos of them laughing with a woman on each arm or drunk with their buddies, but a nice smile would make a big difference in a lot of these guys!

 So he shows up and calmly looks around, sees Me watching, SMILES, and comes over.  He was very pleasant, maybe a bit nervous, but at least looked like his picture.  Unfortunately the smile didn't help the chemistry.  There was just nothing there outside of friendship.  Yes, I know, W/we can all use more friends, but I knew if I started seeing him he would pester to play and I wanted nothing of that sort of relationship.  They don't lead anywhere.  

The whole purpose of My quest is to find not just a sub that wants what I want 24/7 but one that can buy U/us a home in which to live.  And at O/our age, W/we don't have 30 years to pay a house off! 

Mood:  down

Wish I could report a good, thrilling session but that's not how yesterday turned out.

I had agreed to meet a prospective slave for coffee at a quiet restaurant in town. I live in the "country"  with pastureland at the back and coyotes then the highway "knocking on our door" in front.  This guy and I had been conversing for a couple of weeks and he seemed genuinely dedicated and obedient.  Had done whatever I asked online and proven himself.  W/we had spoken over the phone and mutually agreed that W/we liked each other's voices and accents.

It started out raining and drizzled off and on all day.  The humidity was awful.  I put My hair in a free falling pony tail on top of My head and hoped My makeup wouldn't slide down to My neck before I could get inside under air!   I wore a nice summer dress with a floral pattern, white flats, made sure I smelled pleasant to Myself at least and went to meet this guy that was supposedly coming from Arizona on a trip.

I arrived on time, didn't see him anywhere and waited; ordered coffee, and entertained Myself for awhile with a pocketbook, looking around occasionally to see if anyone remotely looking like this guy was in the vicinity.  I gave him one full hour - fighting to stay awake, hoping My cell phone would ring with him stuttering an apology and saying he would be here shortly, but NOTHING! 

 At first I was ticked off but it soon got replaced by a sleepy depression.   When I get depressed I eat or sleep to make the world go away or both.

Came home, got comfortable and called it a day.  Chalked it up as another sub down. 

Mood:  chillin'

Yep as you might can tell this website is a new experience for Me.

My profile has My age, where I was born and some of My interests, both vanilla and D/s.   It can be accessed through the link on the top left of the page.

I can't hardly wait to get acquainted and hopefully click so W/we can meet!   I hope you've noticed the Large letter pronouns and the small ones because I believe it shows respect in writing.  I know a person has to earn respect but there are several nuances W/we do in public  such as open doors or hold them open, men for women, youngsters for oldsters,  that show respect and W/we don't even know them.   So favor Me with at least showing it in writing.

For the ones who haven't understood, when talking about a dominant person, (You, She, Her, Yours) always capitolize.

When speaking of yourself, always use a small letter, even at the beginning of a sentence. ( i, me , mine, my, etc)  That includes your name.

It lets Me know that you know what your place is.  Simple really.  If this rankles you, you are not submissive enough for Me!

Mood:  spacey

I have titled this blog as a quest because that is what it is.  I am so picky I have to take this route to hopefully find the right sub that wants to be a slave to live happily ever after with.

I found one in the UK and he finally got divorced but he's poor as a church mouse and can't even save enough to get to Scotland, much less over here to purchase a home for U/us!  

So here is what I need:

I'm looking for a submissive man because I like control.  Not just in the bedroom but control of finances and day to day decisions in general.  you will still have control over your job and the way it's done and most of what you wear to work.  I don't want to micro control.
I seek a Long Term Relationship but not marriage.
The age range between 40 and 50 will do just fine.
No children please, grown or otherwise. None at all.
Even though I am BBW, I am not attracted to BHM's.
Nor am I attracted to hair on the face or an abundance on the person.
Please be honest and courteous, a quick learner and obedient without arguing. 
I will want to move to the Albuquerque area of New Mexico so keep that in mind.  I would prefer you to have a home to sell for relocation or the equivalency of close to $300,000.  Or both. 

I will not answer or give you the time of day unless you can tell Me WHY you think you qualify for Me.

Tick them off for Me and don't make Me ask!

I am slightly sadistic for some and not enough for others.  I am not looking for a masochist, nor am I lookng for a sissy.  

I am looking for a domestic and personal servant with at least some experience.  I have about three yrs, off and on.

No Doms, Switches, Bi's or Trans.

I can be reached at: MiladyElaine@yahoo.com

Mention "Quest" in the subject line or it will probably get trashed.  If you don't have a proper greeting, telling Me WHY you qualify, ESPECIALLY about the home, you may get trashed anyway.

 I am strict but caring.  My slave will be My lover, friend, confidante, companion in D/s as well as vanilla.  If you seek to be chastised forever, a doormat, cuckolded, imprisoned so you never see the light of day, or objectified, look elsewhere!