but behind blue eyes

i am far gone

looking back at the earth floating towards the sky

Happy birthday

8/12/10

id like to say happy birthday

to my special one

its your first bithday with me

together our life has just begun

i want to give you so much

heres the start

the best i have to offer

is my heart

then i would like to give you this

compared to everything else it may not be as cool

but i want you to have it so much

here is my soul

heres one more thing

i hope you like this

i havent much more to offer

but a big hug and a birthday kiss

today is your special day

that is true

but everyday is my special day

waking up next to you

I thought I knew you

I thought I knew you

I thought what we wanted was the same

but nothing has been that

everything I thought we wanted went up in flames

I thought I knew you

who are you

I dont know

what I thought I knew was far from true

I thought I knew you

I thought we could live together forever

in perfect alignment

but we cant so all our ties I wish to sever

I thought I knew you

I glance over to the mirror

I see my reflection

oh im sorry I didnt realize you were still here

Stay

8/28/10

I need your help

I call out to you

I have so much to say

but the words come out so few

so many words swirling in my head

I cant think clear

just one clear thought is all I need

instead all I feel is fear

please stay I beg

just give me one more second

it will come

to you with hands I beckon

just don’t leave

I need just a little more time

I thought you would stay

but instead you decline

you have been gone for so long

the words finally came to mind

but now they are replaced

wit thoughts of what we left behind

Exist or die

9/4/10

I dont want to live
yet i dont want to die
i feel at my end
yet i cant say goodbye

so much going on
i cant think clear

I dont want to die

just to dissapear

so many ways I could die

I could slit my wrist

but I dont wand to die

just not to exist

.

take me away I pray

this is my last plea

I dont want to die

just to not be

I still exist

maybe it was all just a lie

I dont want to exist

I just want to die

 Resilliant love

8/4/10

ts been 11 months
thats almost a year
been through so much
but your still here

we have been everywhere
from the top to the bottom
been through all kinds of change
from summer to autumn

still the love is there
i hold you near
our love is true
that is clear

sometimes love can knock us down
make us fall
but that is not the end
that is when we learn again to crawl

then we begin to stand
start to walk stable
we can make it through so much
because we are both willing and able

our love is so strong
we will make it through all
one things for sure
our love conquers all

of eternities i wish to spend with you

after all you are my soul mate

hate is fate

Monday, June 21, 2010

i look at you

all i see is hate

you said youd never hurt me

but in the end its fate

i am at my end

i begin to pray

but i know its useless

because all you know is how to betray

nothing is as it seems

i thought i loved you

but all you know is how to hurt

you've shown that through and through

so much hurt please make it stop

so much pain

i wish it would end

but my wish is in vain

i want it to stop

i pray to the keeper of the stars

no more pain

no more scars

my cheeks wet no more

they are dry

no more tears to cry

there is no more to say... goodbye

but something much more valuable.... our bond

Unstoppable time

Sunday, June 13, 2010

where did the time go

time moves by so fast

i love the time we spend together

but it never seems to last

we go through so much together

all in just one night

feeling so close to you

wishing i could hold you so tight

we begin to laugh all is happy

we both are so glad

want to stay in this moment

i want it to stay so bad

then all gets quiet

i ask whats wrong

i hope things will get better

i hope this doesnt last long

we begin to talk about it

we know we can make it through

because you have me

and i have you

together we can overcome all

together we have the strength

no matter how hopeless it seems

we can overcome anything at any length

i think to myself

how could all this happen so fast

we just started talking

i think it couldnt be over this fast

its time to go

how does time like this always fly by

makes me so sad

makes me want to cry

but i know we will have tomorrow

that makes me smile

i know it wont be to long

but just a little while

even though the time sped by

i would never trade what we share

or what we have shared for anything

as long as i have you everything else can go by without a care

we will have forever t o spend together

to show our love and care will spend our lives together

but not as a pair

for together we do not have two separate lives just one that we share

Never be happy again

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

the happiness is gone

the tears roll down my cheek

its never been this bad

my sadness has reached its peek

is it true is it all gone?

yes all happiness has faded

for having trusted you

i feel so degraded

i want what you took

but it all ceases

the more i think about it

me wanting to end it all increases

where is the truth

it always seems to disappear

people say the truth is everywhere

i say its everywhere but here

since the happiness left

i am at my wit

not sure if i can go on

i just wanna quit

the happiness fades

and so do i

it is gone forever

so i say goodbye

Our tree

Thursday, May 27, 2010

its a beautiful sunny day

we are at our tree

its such a beautiful place

a special place made just for you and me

the sun is so bright

we sit under our tree for shade

i hold her tight and close to me

all i can think is wow i got it made

the sun begins to fade behind dark clouds

we have been talking for hours

we hadnt noticed the clouds

until down came the rain showers

drops of rain drop between the branches

we both look at each other and smile

which is followed by a kiss

both hoping that it stays for a while

the sun is gone

yet the world is so bright

but not for everyone just us

we hold each other tight

we kiss and one leads to another

i thank the lord above

all is perfect and peaceful

we begin to make love

the feeling is so intense

we float as high as the sky

then we collapse in each others arms

its over i think why oh why

but the love making is all that has ended

our love is still there

and it will always be true

my heart is yours forever this i swear

the sun begins to descend

i hold you tight

the world may be dark

but our love still shines bright

because we will be together forever

to be able to live the rest of my life happily